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Dear Levi Luker
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Hey baby Shrek, how are you. I sure do miss you. Your Gigi misses you to. He is not doing to good. He thinks of you all the time, and do I. I think of your smile, and it makes me sad when it should make me happy. Why does life seem unbearable without you. Why won't my life ever be the same. Why can't I have you back. Morgan said the other day that Jesus has had you long enough and its time to give you back. And if Jesus won't get give you back, can we go see you. Thats so hard. How do you tell a four year old everything? I wonder what you look like, do you still look the same? Or do you still look like me? Hows Papa, tell him my grandma miss him very much, as so do I. You know what I am going through do you ever think it will get better, and if it does is that wrong? My memaw has cancer and that scares me, please tell God to be with KElly. You have no idea how much I love you, I would give anything to hold you and just give you one more kiss. Kinda like at the funeral, I wanted to get you out of there and just hold you and kiss you, and never let go, but they told me no. I should of done it anyways, I should have been awake. I should have known something was wrong. How can God take you from me when you were the only thing I had, besides my dad and mom. Why did he take the love of my life from me, why didn't he take me with you. Why doesn't he understand, he lost a son too. Life is bearable but I wait for the day memories and love are all I think of you instead of that morning you took your last breath with me and your first breath in heaven. My grandma askes if you can taste the milky way, how sweet is it? Is papa holding your hand, does he make you look both ways, do you know what to come. Can you give me sign that I will be happy again? I will talk to you again about a hundred thousand times a day. but it does feel better writing it than saying it.
Friday, May 13, 2005 - Dana (Mommy)
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Dear Gabe,
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Hi baby boy. I've wanted to talk to you for a long time. As you know you now how two little sister's T is 4 and Lee is almost 4months. T talk's about you often. she wants to know when you are gonna come back to life. she really enjoys going out and visiting you. I have decided to finally start a support group for other familys dealing with a loss like you. I want this to be in memory of you. so that everyone will always remember you. thinking of you often. I'll write again soon.
Friday, May 13, 2005 - Love, momma
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Jake Andrew Ryder
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hey mate its been nearly 4 years since you left me .And not a day goe,s by without me thinking of you i sometimes sit back mate and watch josh playing with your younger brother johnathon and think what it would be like with you there right alongside him causing so much havoc and i can only laugh at the thought of this
mate i know its been a long time and in truth i thought i had forgotten but reading your muns journal entry tonight made me realize that i hadnt forgotten but only buried the memorys to shield myself from the pain that we live with everyday of our lives
mate just know this one last thing you will now and always were in my thoughts and prayers every single day and that i hope one day to be able to play them games with you all over again
Friday, May 13, 2005 - daddy
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Sophia,
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Oh Dumpling,
Coroner called tonight and told us what we already knew!!! That you were PERFECT. Every cell in your body! That horrible dark monster called SIDS invaded our home, right under our noses. I'm so sorry we couldn't have protected you my sweet one. I love you and miss you to pieces!!!
Friday, May 13, 2005 - Love Mama
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My Baby Haylee,
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hey baby girl, mommy's really missing you right now. it's four days after mother's day; that was a really lonely day for me, very hard for me to be able to celebrate being a mom without having my baby with me. you'd be two now... i look at your cousin when i'm at nan and poppa's place, and it makes me want to cry, because you should be there, playing with her. she's only two months younger than you, so you guys would grow up together and be the same age... but i guess thinking about the what-could-have-been's is what makes me really sad.
baby girl, i need you to know something that only me and your nan and poppa know right now... you might have a little brother or sister! mommy really likes that idea, but it's NOT because i want to replace you. mommy just wants to have a family; if you were still here, it's possible that the same situation would be happening right now. we'll know tomorrow for sure, whether or not i am pregnant. Hay, if i am... please stay with this baby always and watch over him or her, keep them safe.
Mommy's gotta get going now, i hope that you're doing good, baby girl... i love you, i miss you and i think about you all the time... and daddy loves you too.
Thursday, May 12, 2005 - MOMMY xoxoxoxo
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EVAN TYLER
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HEY LITTLE GUY! JUST WANTED TO SAY HI AND TO LET YOU KNOW THAT WE ARE THINKING OF YOU. (BUT IM SURE YOU KNOW THAT). LOVE YOU !!
Thursday, May 12, 2005 - AUNT DAWN,UNCLE AARON & THE BOYS
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Dear Jacob Donald,
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Hey little buddy, how you doing up there? I don't have to ask if you're being good, you were always a good boy. It's been almost 8 years since I saw you last, oh, I miss you so much! I try not to cry, but sometimes I can't help it, I just love you and miss you so much. Your little sister, Samantha loves you too, she never got to meet you but I've told her all about you and we talk about you sometimes. I know you're not lonely up there, Papa, Grammie and Grampie Stevens, Grampie MacIntosh andGrammie Haynes are all there as well as Uncle Keith. Let them all know that we miss them too.You also have a half sister with you too. I don't know what else to say, I have all this stuff in my heart to say but I just can't get it out. Just know that I love you and wish you were still here with me. Take care little buddy, Mommy loves you!
Thursday, May 12, 2005 - Mommy
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Sophia,
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Hi Sweet Pea,
I miss you so much. I love to talk about you and tell other people what happened to you. I want them to know what a precious and important person you are in our family. All of my children have a special, God given place in the our home, and I'm devastated that yours includes this crushing sadness. I love you more than ever and I love that ALL my memories of you are of your perfection. Even your fussiness was so tender and sweet. Remember your "big eyes" when the camera flashed? I'm SO glad we didn't delete those. In fact those are so precious to me because they make me laugh. You were so funny! Everybody misses you, darling girl, you will never be forgotten or "gotten over!" You and I were "one" for 9 months, then as you nursed, we became one again. We will forever, eternally have a special bond and I look forward to being in your presence FOREVER, with no more tears. What's heaven like? So many babies, I'm sure! Do you see Patrick, Jian, Kassidy and even our tiny little ones we never new well? I miss you all!
Well, sweet one, I'm getting a bit weepy, I better go to bed. I still love to snuggle your soft fuzzy sockie, the one from Dougy. You know he talks about you often. We tell him you're with Jesus. He just gets sad, even another little baby misses you. Good nighty night, my love.
Thursday, May 12, 2005 - Love Mama
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Jeremy
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Just sending you hugs and kisses. This has been one busy week. Can you believe your little sisters will be graduating high school in a couple of weeks? Just think you would have already been out of school for ten years now! It doesn't seem possible. You probably would have had your own family by now too. My paper for class is almost done. I always ask you to watch over my college work and I always do great, so I hope this paper proves to be great too. To be honest with you I think it is one of my bests. But you know how can anything not be good when it is about you. I love and miss you very much little guy. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
xoxoxoxoxoxoo
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Grayce Marie
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Hey Baby girl Happy Birthday. I wont be around tomorrow but I wanted to make sure to take the time to say I love you and miss you. Tomorrow you would have been one so hard to believe that it has been a year already. I remember the first day you were born. None of us could take our eyes off of you so small and beautiful with you hands up around you face. Your mom and dad were so proud and so was your little brother. We are all still proud of you Grayce for not everyone know what it is like to hold and love an angel for almost 3 months. Just know I love you and will be thinking about you big time tomorrow. There is not one day that I dont think about you and miss you like crazy. How I only wish I could hear your cry and giggles. Keep watching over us baby girl and know that I love you and miss you deeply. You will always have a place in my heart Grayce Marie a place that will be just for you. Take care baby girl and Happy Birthday to you up in the clouds!!!! I Love and miss you Miss Grayce Marie!!
Melissa
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
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Mason Blue Morales
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I just realized I forgot, to ask if you could ask God to help out Joey, he isn't doing so well. Sometimes I think he is and other times he isn't. I was also wondering why everone acts like nothing happened. I just want to know why, I guess that question will never be answered. Also please help Mom, she is taking all of this harder than anyone, even Mommy, but Mommy has support for Daddy and Mom has no one except me. But I don't think I am doing a very good job. All I do is make her cry when we talk about you. Have you heard you song? It's be George Strait, I can't remember what it is called, but I think it fits you prefectly. I don't really know what else to say, except I'm so sorry for everything, mostly the things I have done lately, and the things I will never get to do with you. I will never be able to take you out to the park or to the zoo or even to a movie. I'm sure all of things would be very fun for you, they are still fun for me. Mom got you the biggest present that she could get you, and I think that Mr, Curt W. was very generous in giving it to us. Mom got you a headstone, it is very nice, I'm sad that it is the biggest present we can get you but its special in its own way. Well, now I really have to go, I blabber so much these days, and I really can't afford to have this computer taken away. I love you very much Mason Blue and you will always be in my heart, always. I wait until the day I can see you again. Everyone loves you they just try not to be sad, I know that must be the reason, because you were the biggest joy of the family. Since you were the baby and always will be. Again, I love you and miss you very much.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - Your Aunt Mimi
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my little Angel Zachary Gallant
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Hello sweety, big hug from mommy. I miss you so much. We all miss you me and Daddy and your older sister Annik and all the familly.Zachary you came in this world the 25 April 2005 and left after your first cry. sweety it was to fast, I never got the chance to see your tinny eyes, never got the chance to feed you. but sweety i'll always remember you and love you with all my heart and wonder why. why you? Zachary i love you and 1 day i'll go be with you in heaven but not now i need to be here. mommy love you lots hugs and kisses xox
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - Love you Mommy
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My Baby Boy Blue
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Hey Mason, how are you? I'm not so good today. School will be ending soon, and Mother's Day just passed. I don't think mom liked the present I bougt her this year. I only had so much money to spend and I wanted to get Georgia something also. We just got a house with Georgia and Ashley, so far it is working out okay. I know I dissappointed mom on Mother's Day. I just wish I didn't do it. Especially on Mother's Day. That was supposed to be her day, ya know. I'm sure you do. you were very smart and always talking. I wish you were here because you would have loved our house, and I would have loved for you to come and spend time with us there. We would have had alot of fun, but I suppose we can save all our fun for Heaven right? I hope so. I think about you often, and when I think of you I think of having a baby as darling as you when I get older. Please let God know our family needs his love and support right now. I am trying to get a job to help out with the bills, because if I don't, I'm not sure we will be able to pay for everything and have food to eat. But please send us a little blessing or a miracle. I know you were a miracle and always will be for the joy you brought us when you were here, and for the memories we do have of you. I just wish we could have gotten to know each other a little bit better, but we will some day. I love you very much Mason, and always will think of you often. But for now I need to go do my school work, that's what I'm supposed to be doing now. I love you and so does everyone else.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - Your Aunt Mimi
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Little Zachary Gallant
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Hello my sweet little Zachary, my sweet little angel that i miss so much, i wish you could of stay here in mommy arm.My little angel that i love so much. Me and daddy we miss you lots,Zachary i see you every night in my dream. i wonder if it theway you come visit me. love you talk soon.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - love mommy
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Dear Baby Jayce
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Titi Cecy's in the house tonight! I just wanted to tell you that I miss you and that I look at your picture EVERY night. It's on my dresser in my bedroom (the picture you have on this site). You had grown to be SO cute! I can only imagine how handsome you would've been! Don't drive all the girls crazy up there at one time... let them each take a turn. I'm sure they'll love you like we do (well, no where as much as we do but it sounded good). I'll talk to you in a week or so.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 - Titi Cecy & Justin
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Hello my sweet Zachary little angel
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hi , it me mommy , i miss you so much.been 16 days since i saw you for the first time and seen you last ,mommy wish you could of stay here with her and daddy, we miss you so much.Zachary we love you and always will. you made a big difference in our life even you was just here for a moment.I will always remember you kicking in my belly. i'll always remember your sweet beautifull little face. hugs and kisses my little Zachary. see you 1 day in heaven
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 - Love from Mom
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My handsome boy, Brady
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Boy, do I miss you so! It seems to be getting harder rather than easier. Next Thursday, you would've been 5 months old. I cannot ever get over losing you! Stephen has been crying so hard for you! He is getting angry! Bryce, just misses you! Kenzie, well, she just loves ya! She always asks when you're coming home...I know that you are home in Heaven, but she is only 3 1/2...she doesn't understand that! Daddy loves & misses you! Well, sweetie I love you so much! You will forever and always be my handsome boy and now my precious angel!
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Mommy
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Momma's Toria Grace
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Hi Baby Girl... I miss you so much. Hope you know we love you more and more everyday. Angel is five now and Daddy is another year closer to 30 !!!
Wish you could've been here with us for their birthdays. Kaitlynn and Mikayla love and miss you too. Angel talks about you often... We send you balloons every time we get them. I have to go now but I will write more later I promise. I love you bunches ... Little Angel of Mine
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Momma
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Dear Evan Tyler,
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I love you and miss you honey!!! Sending you millions of hugs and kisses to heaven.
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Mommy and Jordan-forever and for always
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Hiya Baby Alex
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Hi sweetheart
hope your being a good boy!
I wanted to write you a letter cause i dont think i talk to you often enough, its not that i dont care, i just get stuck for words.
Aunty Annette had her baby today a little boy, i thought it was gonna break my heart when i saw him, but it wasnt as bad as i thought. Silly i know but i cant help it.
Its been 6 months sinse you left me daddy and your big brother lewis and the days get easier the heartache grows duller but the memories of you never fade.
We are hoping to move house soon we want to try for a baby, not to replace you babe that could never happen, we just feel ready to make a fresh start.
I hope and pray every night that you give us your blessing but i know in my heart you do.
i dont want to sound like i am ramblin on but i dont want to end this letter yet either!!
But i must go darling
Now i want you to be a good boy for your uncle keithy ok?
i will visit your resting place soon
I love you sweetheart
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Mummy
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Sophia,
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Hey Dumpling,
We're all busy today getting the house clean, but never too busy to talk about you and think of you. Christina and Juliana miss you so much and are trying to get back into the swing of school. It's really tough! Love you darling girl, and will never love you less than the moment I knew of your new life!
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Love, Mama
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god
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hey. long time no talk. yeah. i kinda need some help. i hope you got my letter. i said i was sorry. sorry. umm...i need help. like with school and drivers ed. and just like life in general. mine kinda sucks right now. yup. just watch out for me. give me a little break. im having trouble. yeah. how is she? i should say how are they. is someone holding Jeremy? i bet he is too big to hold by now uh? i hope i can hold him when i get up there. i am coming up there right? yeah i am. i have to. duh! hold her. give her a kiss for me. and a hug too. let them all know i love them. i will see them again some day. bye
Monday, May 9, 2005 - b.h.b.s. ~ ky
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Baby Kay
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hey beautiful. how are you? i am ok. im tired. the rodeo wore me out. i took Amanda Nicole and Cori and Fosdick and Ashley Philips. it was fun. we might have to knock down my Home. some big shot bought all the land around it and he is building 170 houses with streets and all. so we either have to knock our Home down and move away. or we could just stay and build a big ugly brick wall around us. which would completely distroy the whole reason we baught the land. we built our Home out there so we wouldnt have anyone else around us. what are we supposed to do with the animals? they just rome free. i would hate to see 170 houses built out there.
:( i guess we have to deal uh? 158 days until we get to go to another (pro) hockey game. we are going to Chad's but his arnt as fun. hockey made me happy. i had motivation or something. i dunno. i miss it. i miss all my hockey buddies too. we are moving soon. i am soooooooaojfdlj (got a little carried away.) happy!!!! the house is hot. and we have a pool. i wish you were here to move with us. of course, then we'd probly still be building that one house. i wonder what things would be like. different? probly. you know, i never could spell "probly" or is it "probably" or is it neither? i dunno. you know what im trying to spell. i miss you. i love you. it's almost been a year. i miss you a lot. we are not all ok. daddy thinks we are. but we arent. please help daddy. i know its not your responsiblility, but just let him know you are watching. i love you. xoxo
Monday, May 9, 2005 - big sis ky
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Dylan
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Hey baby boy..well this is the first time i've ever written here. It's been almost 8 months since you left us and next month you would have been a year old. I still don't understand why God chose to take you, but he has a plan for everyone and i guess he wanted you back with him. I think about you everyday and i look at your pictures constanstly. WE all miss you down here and we love you so very much. Cameron is getting so big and mentions you often. Mommy and daddy are doing ok, and so is Grammy and Papa. I can't wait to see you again. My heart still aches for you but i know i will see your smiling face again. I know you are in a much better place and you are ok. I love you little angel...
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Aunt Courtney
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Harley Ian
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Hey little guy..am still on the road...will be back Wednesday. Your celebration on Saturday was hard for us left to morn your loss.
Your mommy and daay are still very sad,
angry, and hurting because God needed you more.
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Love Nana
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Jayce
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HEllo handsome!! I know God is here with me but that does not stop the pain it does give me HOPE! Hope that I will see you again. It has almost been a month since you passed I still feel like I'm dreaming. I just think about what you would be doing now , playing with sissy,rolling over, growing so big, I miss you Bubby! I know time heals but this is one wound that will never be healed I will always want you in my arms and will always love you!!!Your sister wants to tell you something she will be six!!tailar love jayce love tailar!!! Okay Bubby I have to help Mamaw clean so Hugs, Kisses , and lots of Love!!
Monday, May 9, 2005 - Mommy and sissy
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Sophia Darling,
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Today is Mother's Day and it'll never be the same. I know I've got 7 other precious babies who I love so much and have gotten so big, but today seems to be all about you. I miss you more than ever. We ALL love you to "the moon and back."
Sunday, May 8, 2005 - Love your Mama
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Dearest Savannah
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I'm sorry it has been so long since I've written. You know I think about you - that everyone does. You are now a big sister! She is beautiful, just like you. I miss you little girl... now it seems more than ever. Tomorrow is Mother's Day, and I think you'll get to see your Mommy smile tomorrow for the first time in a long time. Just keep watching over them - I know they are missing you too. Love you sweet girl.
Sunday, May 8, 2005 - Aunt Jenny
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Jeremy
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Hey buddy. We saw Steffany on Thur. Her presentation was really good. Still haven't talked to your mom. I so wish she could understand all this stuff. Maybe she does understand and that is why she is so affraid. Maybe someday she will. I am beginning to understand more and more each day. I just wish I knew why you had to go. What did you accomplish here? I know you left tons and tons of love. Was that it? Well I need to go for now. I love you lots.
Tell the grandma's Hi for me.
Saturday, May 7, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Lil P
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Hi Sweet P, I just want to let you know how much I miss you. The world's just not the same without your sweet smiling face in it. You would have been 6 months old today, oh how my heart hurts when I think of that. I know in my heart of hearts that you are in a better place, and that you will never experience any pain or suffering, and for that I am glad. But I still can't help but to miss you with all my heart. The weather is nice now and I can't help but to think how I couldn't wait to take you on your first walk, or on your fist trip to the zoo. Your daddy misses you a lot too, and we want you to know that we love you very very much.
Saturday, May 7, 2005 - Mommy
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Sophia
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Hi Dumpling,
You are the most beautiful baby! I miss you crossed eyes. You were still just a newborn. WHY did you have to go? I am dying inside, Sophie Lou. I miss you, I miss who I used to be. I miss who I was because of your life and hate who I am because of your death. Oh, darlin', how can this tragedy be redeemed? Reach out to me Precious, even in my dreams. I need you! I visit you in my thoughts every waking moment, and sometimes I think I still have a baby to hold. But you're gone. I love your sisters and brother so much and I know they need a mama, but I'm barely living. I've enrolled them all in school, looking forward to being able to cry all day. Oh, Sophie, I love you more than words can say.
Saturday, May 7, 2005 - Your weepy mama
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Kassidy
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Hi pretty baby! You would be six months old today. What a milestone. I wish you could be here to celebrate. Instead, I met with Dr. Marsh, the coroner, today. We went over the results of your final autopsy report. Not a meeting I ever expected to sit through. He told me what I knew all along...you were perfect! The doctor who saw you said if he could choose a baby, he would have chosen one just like you. I never expected to get a perfect little person like you. You were beautiful and so much fun. We all miss you so much! I talked to Sophia's mommy on the phone the other night. She feels just like I do...empty. My life will never be the same without you in it. I wish I knew what you were doing. I want to know if you're happy and taken care of, who you are with, and if you can see me. I never stop thinking of you. You were the light of my life! Happy 6 month birthday sweetie. I love you ALWAYS!
Friday, May 6, 2005 - Your mommy
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My Precious Mason Blue
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Hi baby boy, I was just sitting here and thinking about you. We do that often. I miss you so much mason.. 121 days of happiness you gave us, and a lifetime of sadness. Until we meet again. Tomorrow i am picking your brother up so i can spend the day with him, and so he can make something pretty for mommy for mothers day. I know your mommy and daddy and everyone are missing you.. I worry about mommy, and Joey. Everyone has been so nice and have tried to help us all. Uncle bubba misses you so much also, I just wish i knew how to help everyone and fix their broken hearts but i cant.. I need to go little one, I will write again soon,, and i will go visit you on Sat.
Thursday, May 5, 2005 - Love Mom
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Kassidy,
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Hi Kassidy,
I haven't met you yet, but I already feel like I know you and love you. Happy 6 month birthday baby girl! Romp and play with Sophia in your perfect bodies up in heaven with Jesus. Would you kiss her for me? I WILL meet you one day and I hope to meet your mama even sooner. Your family has become very precious to us. Mikeaela and Jaycie talk on the phone and write letters back and forth and they talk about their babies. You are very loved.
Thursday, May 5, 2005 - With MUCH love, Miss Laurie
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Our dear little angel, Kylah
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Hello baby girl,
I can not beleive the day I am having. I miss you so very much!!! However, I feel you so strongly with me and I feel so comforted that you are speaking to me through the events that have happened today. The promise I made to you yesterday will not be broken although I know at times I will need your help. Things have been hard for me and your mom she misses you something terrible I have yet to talk to her today but want to terribly. She is the only one I can and want to talk to she is my best friend. Mia Jean's birthday is tomorrow I think I'm taking her to pixie woods. I have been thinking alot about the dream I had of you that night it was absolutely beautiful and again thank you for the message. I know you love me and you have to know how much I love you!!!!
Thursday, May 5, 2005 - Your other mommy
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Snowy
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Hi Buggles! How are you? I’m great! Thank you for making this past weekend the best one in a while! I had so much fun! But I’m sure that you knew that already! I loved all of the hiking that we did and the late night rendezvous where we watched “Dirty Dancing”! Did you see take that huge fall down the muddy hill? It was so much fun! I laughed so hard! (Although I’m definitely feeling it today!!) Thank you for making sure that this weekend went so well! It is something that I’m never going to forget! Please watch over Jennica because she’s back at her house, but she’s all alone for the entire summer.
Well—I’m back! Sorry about the two day gap! I’ve been busy (as you can see!) I’m feeling a bit tired today…probably because I was up way to late into the night…and my throat hurts. Today I was at a presentation from a Holocaust survivor…it was haunting. It was a really good presentation…but it was so hard to watch! I just hope that nothing like that ever happens again. No one deserves to surer the way those people did. Please help to ease their suffering if you see any of them up where you are. So now that I think about it…being tired and having a sore throat is nothing compared to what those people faced. I should be glad that I have a bed to sleep in and a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food to eat, water to drink, a loving family and my health. So I guess I have Ms. Olsen to thank for that lesson…I just feel so out of sorts at the moment…if only I could hold you…you always had a really calming effect on me whenever I held you. I can’t stop thinking about those men, women and children that suffered and died. I just hope that all of those people have all found some sort of inner peace and that they can forgive those people for doing what they did to them. Thank you for being my salvation. You have saved me from doing a lot of stupid stuff…you let me know that it’s okay to cry and to be angry and to feel all of those other raw emotions…and I’m thankful for that.
I should get going…I have a bit of homework to do before I got to my next class. Thank you again for being my escape to everything that is good in life! I love you, I love you, I love you and I hope to see you soon!
Thursday, May 5, 2005 - Mummy
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Brady,
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Mamma's handsome boy...God how I miss you! It has been really hard these past couple of days! I have missed you more and more! I am hurting more! I think of all the times we should be sharing. But remember the times we have shared! I love you forever and ever! I want to hold you again! I want to give you a kiss and tell you how much I love you! You are forever my precious angel! I love you my handsome guy!
Thursday, May 5, 2005 - Mommy
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Dear Robbie,
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I was just thinking about you and all the moments we all had together and I decided to write you a letter. I just wanted to let you know that we all love you and we miss you, but most of all we will always be with you. I know that you are being taken care of, and for that I am greatful, and I am also greatful that you are taking care of us. You're little brother is getting so big, and with every new step he takes, we all wonder how you would have been and how the two of you would have played together. But, this is something we will never know. There are no regrets, even though this would have been the most special thing we have ever seen, because we know that you are with God and playing with all of his other children, happily. We all love you Robbie, as we will forever and always.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 - Nanny
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Dear Zackary
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Hey my little boogie bear momma wants you to know that she misses you very much and you have a new little brother named Grayson.God I cant believe its been allmost 3 years since you have been gone I miss you more each day and so does your daddy and your brothers.Momma loves you and I will see you again oneday baby boy . Zackary you are special angel watching over us and we are blessed to have such a special angel who touched are hearts in so many ways.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 - Momma,Daddy , Dylan, Jacob, and Grayson
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Jeremy
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Sending you hugs and kisses today. I love and miss you very much. We are driving to Lawrence to see Steffany tomorrow. Anna is very excited and you know I am. I hope you sent the bunny to see me this morning. He was really cute.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Sophia,
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Hello my love,
Oh I miss you so much I can hardly breathe. I talked to your friends mommy today. We'd like to think you and Kassidy are friends in heaven with Jesus. Today was Poppy's 92nd birthday. He and Weazie went to Auntie Pam's for dinner. They've seen your picture, but it hurts for them to talk about you. Your Raggedy Ann sits in your pram, and I think of you and Weazie. We all love you so very much, precious. Oh, darlin', would you meet me in my dreams? I need you so bad!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 - Love your broken Mama
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Dear Zander
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I wanted to say I love you and i miss you.. Daddy had a new baby her name is Victoria so that would be your half sister she was born April 2nd. Time is going by so fast just yesterday i was pregnant with you and now you are 4 wow!!!! Grandma sends her love.. Well goodnight little one Rememeber how much I love you
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Mommy
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Jeremy
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Sending hugs and kisses to you tonight. I have a special prayer tonight. You know what it is. I sure hope you can help make it come true. Please have the angels watch over little Bryna. Gina says she isn't doing to well right now. If you can, let Steffany know about the puppy and these letters. Love and Kisses Forever.
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Dear Harley
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Received so many condolences today, along with being in people's thoughts and prayers. I find that the hardest to respond to without wiping away a tear or two.
I realize that is part of healing but I still dream about you being in my baby's arms. I am very sad for her loss.
I pray that as you are an angel now you can slip into her dreams and comfort her.
Received flowers today from friends at work and will take them home for Saturday when we celebrate the short time you were here on earth. Love you lots and love you oodilies...
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Nana
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Sweet Miriam
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Little sister Avila will be 3 next week. You are such a wonderful big sister- I can't believe you'd be 5 in October. Avila says that she and Josiah are angels sent by God to help me. She has wisdom beyond her years and I know that you are our intercessor in heaven. The pain never leaves but thankyou that I am not as angry with God anymore. Thankyou my little buttercup. I miss you with every fiber of my being. It was so hard to go to storytime today and see other mothers who I feel that I can't talk to- it gets lonely. You are my little invisible buddy.
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Mommy
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Jeremy
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Only two more days until we see Steffany buddy. I hope you come along with us. I may have your cousin Savannah today. Donna might stay home with her. I guess if I don't have her I will spend the day working on my paper and taking care of the dogs. What do you think of J.J.? I hope you like him. I know you never had a chance to have a puppy of your own. He is a real sweet puppy. He was so quiet at first, but he is kind of a wild man now. He is a great protecter. All eight pounds of him! I took him to the vet when he was just about eight weeks old or so and when another dog came in he climbed up on my shoulder and started growling. Well I better go. I miss you a lot. Please let me hear from you again.
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Kassidy
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Hi pretty baby. I can't believe it's been two months since you left us. It seems like you have been gone for an eternity. I sometimes ask myself if you were ever even real. I know you had to be because this pain I feel is so real without you. I finally got all of the thank you cards done today. I figured I better get them sent out. Everyone was so wonderful to us after our tragedy. I hope everyone knows how much we truly appreciate it. Sweetie, I miss you so much. I just want one more day with you, even one more hour. Just to hold you again might help to ease this sadness. I better go for now. Too many tears to see straight. I love you sweet pea. I hope you hear me tell you that every day! Love forever!
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Your mommy
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My precious angel, Brady
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For some reason I really miss you today. It is really hard honey. I keep thinking of you and hurting. I am hurting because you are not here with me and thinking how angry I am getting. This is not right! You should be here with me right now. It is almost six o'clock in the evening and we would be coming home from picking you up at NeeNee's house. I would feed you before I started dinner and just spend a little time with you. Brady, it isn't fair. I miss you so much that I am aching all over. Please, just know how much I love you and how much I miss you. Life just isn't the same without you here. I am dying inside. I need your strength to help me because I still have your daddy, Stephen, Bryce, and Kenzie to take care of. And Kenzie, she was crying how much she misses you. We all do! Always know that I love you forever and ever. You will always be my handsome boy and now my precious angel.
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Mommy
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Hi Sweet baby Harley
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It has been two days since God has called you home. My days still feel as if I am in a dream. Your mommy misses you so and longs to hold you in her arms. In quiet moments we turn to listen for your cry, it is hard to understand that you are no longer here.
We built a bear and called him "Peanut" on the day of his birth, just to help us celebrate your life. He is sporting a leather jacket and guess what little guy it would have fit you. I know you had to go a try out your angel wings. Say hi to all our loved ones...talk to you soon. 8)
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Nana and the whole gang
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My Little Alison,
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Hi, baby! It's mommy. I just wanted to tell you tht I think about you everyday, and I miss you so much. It's hard to believe your not here. I sleep with your blanket, it smells like you, and it's the best smell in the whole world. Your daddy misses you, too. and Christopher talks about you all the time, when people ask if he has a sister he says, " Yes, her name is Alison, and she's an angel", it breaks my heart everytime. One day we'll be together again, until then know we love you, and be good. I'm crying as I write this because you should never have gone, but here we are, and I wish I could turn back time, and find some way to keep you with us. Our whole world revolved around you, now there's nothing to fill our days and nights. You were so playful, loved being cuddled close to us most all. I always said you were my Angel, and now you are. Please always remember the good times, even if they were so short, and we loved you now and always. I won't say good-bye, because your not really gone forever, I'll just say see you soon.
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Mommy, Daddy and Christopher
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Jeremy
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Hi buddy,
Anna and I are going to see Steffany on Thursday. I so hope to hear from you again. I know Steffany will work her magic if you are willing. I wanted your mom to come, but I guess she just isn't ready yet. I will pass anything on to her if you want me to. Everything that has happened in the last couple of months is so weird. I guess I just need more time for the reality of it all to sink in. Well I have to go. I love you buddy. Please, please let me know you are still around. xoxoxoxoxo
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Angel Grayce
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Hi baby girl it is already May you would be a year on May 12th. I cant express how much I miss you Grayce your smiles and giggles are always on my mind. Please know that I will never forget you and miss you more and more each day. Keep watching over us angel Grayce. Help us to get through each day. I love you Grayce !!!!
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Melissa
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Dear Jacob,
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Six years ago today I last laid eyes on you and last held you in my arms.. you were already gone on to Heaven though. Six years ago today we buried you. I miss you more than words could possibly express.. I'm so sorry I wasn't able to get to visit on Friday to leave you some flowers.. Daddy said he had to work and I was crying too much to be able to drive all the way there and home again by myself. I hope that we can go this week instead, I know it won't be the same, I hope it's okay with you though. I imagine you're all boy though so maybe you don't care much about flowers anyway, maybe I should leave you a frog instead :)
I love you so much Jacob, every year you're gone it hurts even more... I'm determined to join you in Heaven when it's my turn.. I'm learning and growing and teaching your siblings so we can all be together again one day, one big happy family! I've had a lot on my plate lately, more than I can really handle, and I need to slow down some.
I love you baby, ~blowing kisses all the way to Heaven~
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My baby you'll be!
xoxoxoxo
Monday, May 2, 2005 - mommy
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Sophia,
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Hi Precious,
You and Nana both received beautiful May baskets at your grave sites yesterday. Aunt Lori is carrying on the tradition Nana taught her. It was SO sweet. I miss you pumpkin. More than you could ever imagine. Love to Kassidy, Brycie, Patrick and Nana. Juliana's home from Mexico, she had a wonderful time. I think of you every minute of every day. Till I see you again,
Monday, May 2, 2005 - Your tearful Mama
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Jayce
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Bubby Ilove and miss you so much the hurt is just unbearable tonight my eyes keep cring ,my heart keeps aching,and all I want is you. Please tell our Father in Heaven to heal our hearts ,to give us faith, give us strength,comfort and peace. Also Bubby tell him to kiss and hug you lots from Mommy!!Bubby please let me hold you in my dreams. Goodnight, God bless you, Sweet Dreams!Hugs,kisses and lots of love!!
Sunday, May 1, 2005 - Mommy
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Jeremy
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Hey buddy, Kadi and I visited with Steffany and Zoey today. It was really fun. Kadi really enjoyed meeting Steffany. When we were in the car waiting for Steffany, Kadi wanted me to call her and find out when she was going to be there. I told her she would be there in a minute. Then out of the blue she said Let's call Jeremy. I said, what? Then she repeated it, Let's call Jeremy. She said we have his number. I said we do and she said yes it's 111. Well anyway I really hope that was your number. I wish you were here to see your cousins. I know you would have loved all the boys. Well I better go. I'm sending you lots of hugs and kisses tonight.
Saturday, April 30, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Matt
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Dear Matt,
hey Matt it's almost been a year since your death and i miss u so much. i no we weren't the best of friends but i still miss very much. i hope u were there this Friday at school, the whole 8th grade wus at the cafe, they made a plauq for u it looks so nice. ur whole family was there. alost of kids were cryin including me. Matt i don't know why god took u when he did or why or even the way. but god does stuff for a reason that i don't understand. i love u matt.
Saturday, April 30, 2005 - Sam G
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DJ Boutot
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Dear DJ,
hey i'am so sorry for what happen. i miss u soooo much. i don't understand why this happened to u. i think about u everyday.well all i know is that ur watching over ur family and mine. i love u DJ.
Saturday, April 30, 2005 - Sam G
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Jeremy
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Hey, buddy. Just sending more hugs and kisses. Hope your doing well. Are you and great-grandma Lola growing pretty flowers together? I bet you have wonderful garden. Give both great-grandmas a big hug and kiss from me. Also, wrap your arms around yourself and know that I am hugging you. I love you little guy.
Friday, April 29, 2005 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Jayce(punky wunky)
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Hi sweetpea mommy loves you and I am hurting deeply,letting you go physically is so hard. God will give me comfort I know I just need to keep my faith.I,m sorry for the pink flowers those were the prettiest ones they had!! Everyone misses you bub. It gets so hard bacause you know Mamaw and how she has every child at her house and everyones laughing and playing but I just think of what it would be like if you were still here. I know your still here just your up in heaven looking down but I just need on earth with mommy!I miss you!Please God Give me strength,peace and comfort for today. Bubby I love you! Hugs and kisses and lots of Love!!
Friday, April 29, 2005 - mommy
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Sophia
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Hi Dumpling,
It's late and I can't think of anything but YOU!!! Holding you, feeling you, smelling you...Oh to see and hear your beauty again. I love you more than words can express. I love you with an everlasting lofe. Sleep sound in Jesus, my darling girl.
Friday, April 29, 2005 - love, Mama
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Jeremy
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Hey buddy,
Just wanted to send you some bedtime hugs and kisses. Kadi and I are going to McDonalds with Steffany on Saturday. Steffany is a really neat person. I know, you already know that. Isn't she the greatest? If it wasn't for her, well you know. If you were the one, thank you so much for guiding me to her. My life has been completely changed. I know she really helped me through my surgery and I know you were there every step of the way also. It was so cool to hear Shanda's wedding song when I was taken into the operating room! Thank you! Please, Please show me more everyday you can. I am here and sooo open to hearing from you. Whenever you get the chance buddy, let me know your with me. I love you so much!!! I want you in my life! Now and Forever!!!
Thursday, April 28, 2005 - Love Always& Forever, Aunt Dawn
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My precious angel, Brady
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It has been at least a week since I have written to you. I miss you so much my little guy. Your sister still cries for you. She talks to you in the angel that Aunt Kathy got for you. Kenzie misses you and so does Stephen, Bryce, and Daddy. We love you our precious angel! I miss you sooooo much! You will forever be in our hearts.
Thursday, April 28, 2005 - Mommy
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Dear Jayce(punky-wunky)
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Hi biggie boy hope heaven is treating you well. Long walks and talks with Jesus thats awesome. I miss you so much! I sleep with your blanket it smells like your formula I never thought I would miss that smell. Your passing has brought so much to our lives but I would give it all back just to have you in my arms again!! I just wanted to see you grow! I know God knows what's best for us all but I'm just really "Homesick" Everyone misses you so much. You impacted so many people in your 2 months and 27 days here on earth. Uncle Bubby is even going to church. Jayce I know you can talk to the man(God) just tell him to stay in our hearts,to give us strength,and to let us keep faith. Bubby I could write you all day because I miss you that much But I will pray to you always and you know how much your loved and missed!! Goodnight,God Bless us, and may the angels hold you tight and wake mommy with the morning light!!Sissy wants to write something:tailar love jayce!here's daddy:my heart hurts so much,I miss you with all of me.i love you so much it hurts,,,I am doin my part to see you again. tell jesus thanks for for helpin us out down here.....please visit me in my dreams every now and then..I LOVE YOU.DAD..E. Mommy again Hugs and kisses los of love!!!!
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 - Mommy,Daddy and Sissy
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Hey my Baby Boy Blue
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Well, Mason, it's been over two months since you've left this Earth, but with each passing day, it doesn't get any easier. Hope has been lost, anger has been tested to its limits, and missing you is harder and harder to deal with. I feel violated letting everyone read my letter to you, but I want them to know just as I want you to know that I miss you dearly and do love you with all my heart. Mom has worked non-stop for you, and to helping other babies, that has been lost. You helped up realize that there isn't always joy in the world, except when you with that special baby. To the family you were that special baby, and always will be. But, now I have to go and I promise to visit you real soon. I would and never will forget you. I love you more deeply than you could understand and send me dreams of what heaven is like and how much fun you having. Love you Bunches Mason
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 - Your Aunt Mimi
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Sophia,
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Hello Darling Girl,
Oh, how can 2 months have passed since I held you in my arms. Today's been a very hard day, as is every day, because I think of you constantly. No matter what I do, where I go, who I talk to... YOU are ALWAYS there. I saw a fire truck tonight and asked the fireman to help me find out who helped us that night during our nightmare. They were so kind, one of the firemen stayed with Rebekah and the rest until Auntie Jade got here. He prayed with them and it gave them such comfort. I want to thank him. I saw another sad mommy lost her baby Alison on the same day as we lost you. Say hi to Alison and of course Kassidy and Cienna. I love you dumpling and ache to hold you, smell you, hear you, taste you, and gaze into your beautiful Mamola eyes. You are so beautiful to me. We're struggling here without you, but fighting to survive. You know we're not quitters. Juliana comes home from Mexico next week, Christina stops by often and we talk of you all the time. Rebekah and Rose quietly get through each day only to cry themselves to sleep each night. And Nick, Mikaela and Olivia speak of you freely and their pain over your leaving us so soon. You were the MOST loved little baby I could ever imagine. Why did you leave so soon? I can't imagine you being "needed" anywhere but here? Oh Sweetheart, what is the answer to this mystery? Wait for me darlin' I will someday be with you eternally. Till then, don't ever forget how much you are loved and cherished and missed.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 - Nighty night, Sweetums, Lo ve Mama
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Kayden
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hello sweet girl. how are we today? good good! hee hee. i am in such a...fabulous mood! i dont know why. everything sucks right now...WHY AM I HAPPY?!?!?!?!!?!? some one really important to me...Jonesie...something really bad happened to him and his family. :'( i wanna help...i NEED to help. i dont know how. they need money and i wanna find a way to get them some. friday he and his family...Deb, lil one and his daughter...were at the beach. then they got a call that their house burned down. i mean all the way down. you cant even tell there was ever a house there. the only things that survived were his Nagel HOCKEY STICK, two of his Nagel HOCKEY PICTURES (from MY b-day!) and his HOCKEY JERSEY! its like...Hockey Luck or something. really weird uh? his jersey had smoke damage, but that was it. everything else is gone. his grandson is going without clothes or toys or a house...they all are. they have nothing. they were in the middle of changing insurance so they have no way of covering it. Kay, i dont know what to do. hes my friend and hes been good to me. i gotta do somethin'. ahhhhh! anyways. can i ask u somethin'? do you wonder why i always start my letters with "hello sweet girl"? Auntie Anne. she used to say that everytime she saw me. i love it! i miss her. i miss you. i miss TABBY!!! i miss Jenny and Amanda. i miss HAL and HAILEY and LACY and DREW! i want yall back. all of you. i miss John and Alex...i even miss Justin...i know! i miss everyone. i really dont wann grow up. i wanna be with you. i just wanna have everyone back. all together. TOGETHER! awww...that would be great. there goes my "fabulous mood". i just want time to stop. i want everyone together...happily together. *sigh* it would be great. someday we will be. i dont know if all of us are comin' up there. i know i am. if i have to throw some 'bows! lol i will make it up there, probly kicking and screaming. but i promise you i will come be with you some day. i cant wait. its gonna be great. is it a date. oh no im running late. i need a plate. *funny* i like doing the stupid little kid funny stuff. it makes me smile. you make me smile. i miss you. i have a lot on my plate right now. im not doing to good at anything. i need some help...a lot of help. please tell him. let him know im sorry. i really am...i...i gotta go. love you miss you xxxooo
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 - sorry sister
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Alison, my baby
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It's been 2 months since you've gone to Heaven and it still feels like a dream. Late at night as I lay in bed, I still hear you cry. You were 2 months and 27 days, a blossoming little girl. I imagine in my mind what you'd looked like now, and you are so beautiful, your brother misses you. He really doesn't understand what's going on. You two were so cute together cuddling together on the couch. Daddy misses you too, and still cries, but quietly in the room alone so I don't see. It'll be along time before I can accept your gone, but you'll be back with us soon. Until then remember we love you, peanut. Hugs and Kisses.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 - Mommy
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hello sweet jamie-lea
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hello baby just to let you know we all miss you so much its been 8years now but it hurts so much but i know we will meet again on day and that keeps me going love you so much
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 - mummy
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Jeremy
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Just wanted to send you some kisses and hugs today. I really miss you. I know you will always be by my side though. Just knowing your there doesn't really make up for being able to hold and kiss you. I know I will see you again some day. It will be so great to be able to hold you again.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 - Love Always and Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Kassidy
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Hi pretty girl! I just wanted to tell you hi and how much I miss you. I know no one could ever replace you, but I want so bad to fill this emptiness in my heart. Every day, I pray that you will come back to me. I ache to hold you again and to see you grow. It's so unfair that my love for you could not keep you here forever. I love you baby! Kisses and hugs to you pumpkin.
Monday, April 25, 2005 - Mommy
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Dear Evan Tyler,
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Hi baby-just a little note to say that I love you and miss you. I think about you all the time. Mommy is still waiting to hear about your new item for your grave- hopefully he will get back to me soon. I think that will look so nice for you. I miss you tons and tons you know. I thank you so much for watching over Jordan so carefully. He is getting big. He will be one in less than two months. It's hard to believe he's that big already. It's hard to believe that in September I would be putting you on the school bus for your first day of school. I would give anything to be able to do that. I miss you so much- sometimes it's unbearable. I think you knew that and that's why I have Jordan now. Thank you so much buddy. Well I am gonna go for now but always remember I love you and miss you and you are always on my mind. Sending you millions of hugs and kisses to heaven.............
Monday, April 25, 2005 - Mommy and Jordan-forever and for always
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Dear Chubs
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Just want to let you know how much I miss you. I have a hard time geting through the day without you here. I know I promised to help you become president someday, I'm sorry I won't get to do that now. But I'm trying to be a better person so I can see you again in Heaven someday, It's just a little bit harder for us grownups. Your Mom misses you too, it's just not the same here without you. I just wanted you to know I'm always thinking of you.
Monday, April 25, 2005 - Dad
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Little Miss
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Hi baby girl I miss you so much its unbeliveable! I just can't seem to get over losing you!I see a baby and feel like I'm dieing inside! your big sister talks about you so much nd every doll she names "baby sister" she still doesn't understand, but neither do I. I love you so much!you would be almost 8 months old now but it seems like just yesterday the DR. was handing you to me. It's so hard to accept that you are really goneand it hurts so much!!! I love you Alexys
Monday, April 25, 2005 - Mommy
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My sweet Mason
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Hi baby, Well its another sunday without you and i am missing you so much. Mason, i hope you know just how much i love you. I read a poem about little angels that toss pennies from heaven, Every time i see a penny i think of the little angels tossing them down to us. We all miss you so much, we miss your smile, and the serious face you made when you talked to us. I found a little pair of your Pj's and they smelled so good, they still have your baby scent on them. It made me sad.. but it made me smile.. I love you..
Sunday, April 24, 2005 - Mom
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Hi Sweet Jeremy,
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Thank you so much for the love you sent me. Thank you so much for having faith in Steffany. I love and miss you so very much.
Sunday, April 24, 2005 - Love Always and Forever, Aunt Dawn
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Dearest Gumpy (KIARNA)
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hi sweetheart,
we all miss you and wish you were here with us....OHHHHHHH guess what,Belle is pregnant and due in about ten days....we all have a bet for the amount of puppies she will have.....Johnathon still cries for you,he wants to know when you are going visit again.?.......well better go and see to your brother and sisters......give your dad a big hug and kiss from us all please.....
see you when visit again....
WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH......
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sunday, April 24, 2005 - MUMMY,JOHNNIE,MEIGHAN,AMBAH and MAISON
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Dear Baby Jayce
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Exactly 13 days have passed since you left us all. I cry every now and then because I know there is such a big void in your parents' hearts. They were both SO happy having you around.
Justin and I only saw you for a couple of days when you all came to PA to visit. Seeing your picture now... you had grown so much! And you were SO adoreable! Justin and I have made you a permanent part of our prayer (which he recites EVERY night). And we have lots of pictures of you (at least one in every room). We will NEVER forget you!
Justin still says, "Maybe we can give this to Baby Jayce!" I try to explain to him that you're no longer with us. I don't think he understands yet. He knows, but doesn't understand.
We will ALWAYS have you in our hearts and prayers and we will always cry for you... because we wanted to see you grow up to be the big boy my little Justin is becoming. It is such a joy! And having you in my arms, knowing Justin and I were going to be able to take part in your life (unlike my other niece & nephew) was just as much a joy!
I'll see you in heaven when I get there!
Saturday, April 23, 2005 - Aunt Cecy & Cousin Justin
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Sophia
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I guess I'm getting a little obsessed with visiting you through these letters. I feel I can connect with you, not really through the e-mail, but in my heart, I can focus totally on you and express my love to you. I do love you with all my heart and long to be with you. Someday, Darling Girl, we will be together again and NOTHING will separate us for all eternity. Loving you lots and lots,
Saturday, April 23, 2005 - Love Mama
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Sophia,
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Hi Dumpling,
I miss you so much. I feel so empty if I don't get to sit and write or go to the cemetary. I'll visit your site tomorrow, but for tonight I think I'll just have a good cry. I'm so depressed without you in my arms, only in my memory. And at that, it was WAY too short. Oh, precious, come back to me. Every day that passes, your life is further away. It hurts so bad!
Saturday, April 23, 2005 - Love ALWAYS AND FOREVER, Mama
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Hi buddy
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Today is your fourth birthday. I miss you so much I can't even put it in to words. I would give anything to see your face today. I would give anything to have you here blowing out your candles. I hear so many parents complain about having to deal with parties and kids... if they only knew. I love you Frankie. I love you so much
Saturday, April 23, 2005 - Daddy
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my sweet Jayse and Austin
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Hello sweetheart, It has been 10 months and 1 day since you left us.we miss you so much,your daddy is doing okay,I am holding up.As you know you now have a baby brother Austin,He is in heaven with you.We miss you so much and everday I think of you two.Take care of your brother for me.I still cry when I am alone and still look at your picture everyday.I hope you can forgive me for falling apart and being angry with myself.I still wonder what I did wrong or what I could have changed to still have you here with us.I feel so empty not having you here with us When you left a piece of me left and I have never been able to retieve it,it went to heaven with you,and now another piece of me has left with Austin.Never forget,I will never stop loving you nor will I ever forget you.Your older brothers and sister miss you too.Every now and then they mention you.As you will always be the same our love for you only grows.I should be watching you take your first steps about his time,but I visit you and bring you gifts instead.Take care,I love you more then imaginable.
Friday, April 22, 2005 - mommy
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Dear Mason
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Today you would of been six months old.
I miss you every day, today I went and picked your mommy up so she and I wouldnt be sad all alone. We talked about you and visited you. I miss you so much and lately all i do is cry. Joey misses you also, and so does Latrell. Mason, I know your in good hands but we sure do miss you and love you so much. We will see each other again one day, and until then i will keep you in my dreams my sweet little one..
Friday, April 22, 2005 - Mom
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Hi Precious
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Grandma sure does miss you. I love you so much. I love your little nose and your little toes. Your little fingers and your little ears. And your big smile that you always had for me. Grandma thinks about you all the time, sometimes I get really angry but mostly I just cry. I want to hold you and kiss those little cheeks so bad. We all miss you and will love you forever.
Thursday, April 21, 2005 - Love & Kisses from Gram
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Kayden
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hello sweet girl. long time...no write. hee hee. sorry. i have been busy. so how are you. anything new? not much new for me. my hockey is over.:( so i am kinda bored. dad made me miss my last game...meanie. ummm...i have a new friend. Amanda. i know...another one!! she just moved here from sacramento. she is way cool. i hang out with her britt and jackie at lunch sometimes now. they are cool. me and John are workin' on things. i havent talked to Amanda Jane in a long time. invited her over a couple times but her mom wouldnt let her come. and every time Jenny calls me i am walking out the door or cant talk cuz i am in trouble. i feel really bad. she sounded bummed. she is probly having a tough time and i'm not there for her. let her know you are there. we had a little talk about you the other day. she is an awesome friend. i miss her. Katie is ok. she is talkin' to Alex now. he is a good guy. he cracks me up. tuesday he came to pick her up and he was making fun of me cuz the 'dors lost...i throw the remote at him. i really hope i'm not turning into my mom. lol. no seriously. i need to stop throwing stuff cuz that is wut she does when she is mad. i dont wann throw fits at the age of 30. i wanna have fun and be a kid. mom is bugging me to get a job. but she isnt helping me. i dont know how to do this job thing...I'VE NEVER DONE IT BEFORE! i need help finding a job. please send a good one my way. my mom hasnt been very nice about it. she says she'll take away EVERYTHING. even my car...which she didnt pay for, Mommy and Daddy did. i had planned to take you shopping when i got a car. i even had dreams of me putting your car seat in the back. and getting dirty looks in the mall cuz people would think i was too young to have a baby. and we would shop and get you the cutest cloths. it would've been great! oh well. there is shopping in Heaven right?!?!?!?!?! i mean it is supposed to be an awesome place...so it has to have shopping. i hope. well, we'll go when i get up there. and yes...god...i am bringing my beautiful car!!! anyways. i miss you and love you with all i have. help me out with my...you know. k? i will talk to you later. until forever ends...
Thursday, April 21, 2005 - big sis ky
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Baby Kassidy
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Hi sweet pea. I hope you know I think about you always. It's so hard to believe that soon, you would be six months old. You should be starting to sit by yourself now. The weather has been so beautiful. I wish you could have gotten the chance to feel the wind on your face. There are so many things you won't get to do and I will never see. I am still begging you every day to come back to me! You were the most wonderful person to come into my life. I just wish you didn't have to leave soon. I had so much more love to give you. I miss you so much! Kisses to you pretty baby. I love you bunches!
Wednesday, April 20, 2005 - Your mommy always
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Sophia,
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Hi Precious,
I ache so bad to hold you. You were such an incredible blessing to our entire family and we are not the same without you. We talk about you all the time and Olivia's been telling me how you talked to her about dying. OK, this freaks us out a bit. Sweet One, I can hardly believe that this is our life now. It was so full of hope and promise sweet because of the sweetness you brought to our home. A baby in the home makes everyone softer, sweeter, just better because you were here. I miss you to pieces and hurt so bad. I wish I could hold you tight and squeeze your chubby little legs. You were so perfect for us. Too perfect, too good to be true. I love you, Sophers,
Wednesday, April 20, 2005 - Love Mama
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my little girl Ireland,
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TOMORROWS YOUR BIRTHDAY,WOW,THE BIG ONE!I DIDNT THINK WE WOULD BE APART FOR THIS,AND I DONT LIKE IT,BUT IT IS SOMETHING I KNOW I HAVE TO ACCEPT.I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH PRINCESS,I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HOLD YOU AND KISS YOU AGAIN.I MISS YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE AND YOUR GENTLY SMELL.I CLOSE MY EYES AND REMEMBER HOW PERFECT WE FIT.I CAN ALMOST FEEL YOU AGAIN,MY EYES STING FROM ALL THESE TEARS,I WANT SO MUCH TO HUG YOU TO SEE YOUR FACE WHEN YOU BLOW OUT CANDLES FOR THE FIRST TIME,I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO RIP OPEN ALL THE PRESENTS WITH YOUR SISTERS LENDING A HELPING HAND.BROOKE AND MADISON MISS YOU TOO SOO MUCH!!BROOKE HAS BEEN HAVING A REALLY HARD TIME,MAYBE YOU CAN ASK GOD IF YOU CAN USE SOME OF YOUR ANGEL DUST FOR HER..IRELAND MOMMY WANTS TO BE THE FIRST ONE TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY.IF I ONLY KNEW ON APRIL 20 2004,THAT IT HAD TO BE THIS WAY,I WOULD OF TOLD YOU MORE HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU,I WOULD HAVE HELD YOU EVERY SECOND,I WOULD HAVE SANG EVERY NURSERY RYHME.I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WERE AND STILL ARE LOVED.WE ALL MISS YOU...GOOD NIGHT,SLEEPTIGHT ON THE EVE OF YOUR BIRTHDAY,I WILL WRITE YOU TOMORROW....I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL...LOVE MOMMY
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - MOMMY
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Dear our Precious Paige,
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darling Paige you were and still are the world to us. I had a hard time understanding why you were taken from us after only 18 days but have come to the conclusion that was how little a time it took god to realize just how special and perfect you were and that He needed you to become one of His perfect little Angles instead of ours. We miss you every day and hurt twice as much. The only things that console us now is that you are very much happy where you are now with neverending supplies of milk and dummies. You would be 4 weeks old today. Be safe and well our Precious PAIGE in time. We love and miss you so much.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - Mummy, Daddy, Jake and Lilly
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Mommy's little handsome boy
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Today you would've been 4 months old. I looked up to the sky today at 11:23 am (the time you were born) and then again at 12:30 (it was the time you were suppose to have your 4 month check up). I miss you so much my sweet precious angel. I don't know how I make it through every day without you. But it must be from the love that you are sending me from Heaven. I love you forever and ever. Until I see you in my dreams tonight-my handsome little boy, mommy's precious angel!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - Mommy
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Levi
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Baby boy, I sure do miss you, lifes so hard here wothout you, Hows Papa doing? I miss you both, you both were the men in my life that I never knew I could love so much. I remember your smile and hope your still doing that, I hope Papa is holding your hand when you cross the streets of gold in heaven, I will be with you soon, I will hold you, hug you and never let go, and finally my last tear will be forgotten, and I will be with you forever, I just wish I could see what you would look like now, how you would act. If you would have ever said mama to me, go Gigi to him, he miss you too, hes not doing so good, so watch out for him, because if I lose him too, life would end, I can't take anymore, so just give Papa a kiss for me, and watch out for me. I love you with all my heart. I want you to know that I was your mom for 7 wonderful months, and it was so greatt o be a mom.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - Mommy
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Dear Jacob,
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Hi baby! I miss you SO much, it's soon going to be 6 years since you left us on your way to Heaven, it doesn't seem possible it's been that long. Alyssa came home from school yesterday and said that a boy in her class lost his little sister, her funeral was yesterday. We watched the Family Plots show with Ryan and Alyssa was very sad afterwards and just cried missing you. It's so hard - missing you is neverending. Sometimes I just don't think I can do this anymore, other times I feel like I can take on the world. I am so grateful that you're my son, I'm glad you were a mommy's boy too - that meant so much to me. I hope you'll come to me in my dreams again soon, I would love to see you again. Kathy has been working hard to make a portrait of you for me, she's such a special lady, Daddy has a hard time seeing the sketches though, I don't think he's ready yet, but please don't think for a second that he doesn't love you with his whole heart because he does... Daddy just doesn't talk as much as mommy does but he loves and misses you just as much!! I wonder what you would be like now, if you would be as rambunctious as your brother, always teasing your sisters like he does or if you would be a quiet little guy content to putter away by himself. I hate that we were robbed of your whole entire life Jacob, I am so sorry I failed you, I was your mommy and should have kept you safe, I should have known somehow that something was wrong, I'm so sorry I couldn't make it better :( I miss you desperately and love you with everything in me. MUH!!!! xoxo
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - mommy
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Dear, Killian
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Hi honey, mommy misses you so much.There is not a day that goes by that I dont cry.Daddy is getting ready to graduate and I know you are watching him from above.Please give him the strength to go through this and finish school.He is going out of town today and I hope you take care of him while he is gone so he can have a great trip and please watch over baby Jackson so Candace can have a healthy baby boy.I love you and miss you very much.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 - Love mommy
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Hey bubby J.R.
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Hey bubby.. I really miss u and I love u and tommy is doin ok.. and mommy is to... and dad is too... and shane is too.. mommy is happy and we all are very happy... please watch over us and keep us healthy and make sure no one hurts us or the people we love...
We Miss You a whole lot..
I love u
Monday, April 18, 2005 - Sissy Nikki
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Dear my beautiful baby daughter natasha
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hello my beautiful girl i miss u as much today as i have ever done u will be twelve on wed and there is not a day that i dont think about u and wonder how so beautiful u would have been i miss u so much and i will always love you
Monday, April 18, 2005 - your loving mummy xxxxx
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Dear Kurdt,
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It has been almost 7 years since you were sent to heaven. I can still close my eyes and see your beautiful face, smell your sweet scent and remember how it felt so right to just hold you in my arms. I never thought that I would make it to this day when I could finally accept that God had a special plan in mind for you. He needed you to be one of His little angels up in Heaven. I have finally made it to the point that I am able to forgive Him for taking you from me. I miss you so much, but I know that he is taking good care of you and I know that you are happy. I picture you with a little set of wings, just flying around happily, watching over all of us down here. With each year that passes, I try to picture what you would look like, what you would be like, what kinds of things you would be interested in. I can look at your little brother, Tyler and see you in his face, in his eyes. I take comfort in believing that a piece of you is with him. He will be 6 years old next month and he talks about you quite often, even though he never knew you. He talks about missing you, wishing you were here, and how much he loves you. I just want you to know that you will always hold a big piece of my heart. I will never forget you or the love that I still have for you. I miss you Li'l Squirt!
Monday, April 18, 2005 - Mama
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Sweet Precious Kylee,
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Hey Sweetie. How's it going in Heaven? Here it's okay. Sylvia is so big now. She's 6 and a half months old. Today's daddy's birthday. I'm going to go see him today. I wish you were here to celebrate his birthday too. Charlotte's birthday is the 20th. Sylvia's sitting up and talking. Her first word was dada. Sylvia also said mama. It's almost like you two are twins because you look so close alike. Well I'm going to go get ready to go to daddy's house. I'll write you later. I love you sweetie. XOXO. MISS YOU!!!
Saturday, April 16, 2005 - Juju
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dear Sarah
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Hi mommas little teenie weenie,I miss you so much and Istill love you more than life.I can't till this world ends so we can be a family again.but always remeber mommy will always love you, are my precious angle.
Saturday, April 16, 2005 - mommy
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Sophia,
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Hi Dumpling,I miss you so so much! I visited your grave yesterday and saw Noni visiting Nana. Are you two together? Is it all real? We added your picture to the website today. At first I felt you were too perfect to share with the world, now I want the world to see what we saw: a beautiful, perfect blessing from God. You were such an incredible gift to us and we will love you forever and ever. Nighty night, Darling Girl. I love you to the moon and back.
Saturday, April 16, 2005 - Love, Your Tearful Mama
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Dear Darian
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I miss you my sweet baby. Mommy and Daddy want you to know that we love you very, very much. We think about you all day, every day.We went to the cemetarty today and prayed with you for a while. I want you to know that your brothers need a little angel to watch over them. Will you do that for me? Help mommy keep them all safe. Til we meet again sweetheart, I LOVE YOU!!!
Friday, April 15, 2005 - Mommy
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