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My Asia
Hey baby, I know its late, or early in the morning and you are probably sound asleep right now. I hope that when you wake up in the morning to read this, it brings a smile to your face. I miss you so much girlie. Life here is okay I guess, really busy!!I am trying my best to keep faith in God but it is not easy. I havn't been able to go to church because they always have me schdule on sunday. Im trying my best to move on though, trying to find my purpose in this world without you. Im giving you a million hugs and kisses everyday okay baby? I love love love love youuuuuuuu!!!!!!
!!!! Please watch over me during these hard times baby, night my beautiful sweet princess.
Wednesday, October 4, 2006 - Mommie
Khristian Heath Richard
My darling Khristian, you are deeply missed and loved by your brother and me. You have been gone for over a year now and it has not gotten easier to live without you. We follow daily routines but thoughtts of you are never far. Kameron thinks it is his fault you are now in Heaven but I reassure him that Jesus needed you more than we did.we release balloons on your birthday and angel day with little notes on then. I miss you so much baby boy. My heart hurts with the sorrow I feel. Sending you kisses and hugs.
Tuesday, October 3, 2006 - Mommy and Kameron
Ciara Rae
My darling Sugie. You are 5 months old today. I tried to be strong all day and only have happy thoughts. Azia and I put a new balloon for you today which states, "Thinking of you." How true that statement is. I think of you constantly. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers each morning as I awake, throughout the day, and right before I go to sleep. Your dad is looking over my shoulders right now - I think he wants to tell you something. Maybe you can come and visit him in his dreams. Tell your brother, Paul, to visit dad too.

We miss you both terribly. Hugs and 100 kisses always and forever.
Tuesday, October 3, 2006 - Love your mommy
Larry Earle
Hi big bother, you are truly missed, from your little sister.
say hi to mom.
Tuesday, October 3, 2006 - wanda miller
Baby Thomas
Happy Bithday sweet heart

Miss you loads
Love you to the moon and back again
Tuesday, October 3, 2006 - Mummy, Daddy, and all your sisters
Hi Buddy
hey lil guy i hope you liked your pressies.and you got the balloons we sent you yesterday i put a little note inside the thomas the tank engine 1 :D hope God read it to you.im sure he did. Thinking of you everyday knowing that the best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. xoxo
Tuesday, October 3, 2006 - Love from Em n Elle xoxoxoxxox
Precious Ethan John
Today is the feast of the Angels.We have been blest by God to have you as one of His Angels. An honor, so special to us. You earned your wings in just 5 months. As much as we love you and want you to be with us, God had a far better plan. We have an Angel on our shoulder 24/7. Grandma loves you so much, and I could cry most every day for the want of you in my arms, then I have to remember the day will come when I will hold my little Angel forever. Until then you just stay on my shoulder and help me
to get through my days.
Today I hold You in my heart.
Monday, October 2, 2006 - Love you Precious Angel, Grandma
Dear Holden
Hi sweetie. It's mommy again. Missing you like crazy. Mommy read you a book last night, I hope you liked it. Pooh Bear! It's still so hard to believe you are gone little man. I can still see your smiling little face looking back at me. I look for you all over the house just getting into things. Mommy, Daddy and Bradley don't know how to be here without you. We are all still so sad. We love you so much Holden. Sleep tight my little angel baby, sleep tight and sweet dreams! Please send us some little whispers of your love, ok, we need them.
Monday, October 2, 2006 - All my love, Mommy
My Princess Asia
Hey my sweet sweet love, its mommie, just been thinkin about you. I still can't believe I lost you. It hurts me so bad when I think about you. I am thinking up ways to get past this, and what I should do with my life. I feel so lost without you. I love you so so much baby! I hope to be with you soon.
Monday, October 2, 2006 - ur mommie
Hey buddy :D
hey mate me and elle are going to come visit you today.its been 3 months now and we all miss you dearly John is having a really hard time but im helping him :D wel i hope you like the stuff we are bringing i can't tell you now cause its a suprise :D wel hope you havin fun wit all the other precious angels xoxo have you met my brother up there yet? if you have please say hi for us.well we better go catch the bus now.xoxoxoxoxoox
oxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Sunday, October 1, 2006 - Love From Em n Elle
Dearest Dakota
Hi honey.Its mommy here to check in on you and see how you are doing? I am sure you are just peachy. I am just hangin out at home doing some laundry and was thinking of you so I had to come write ya. I am missing you so very much. As your angel day slowly comes closer I get more and more anxious. I just cant wait to hold you again my love. I am sure you have seen grandpa these past few days. He came to join you last week. I told him before he went to give you the biggest hug ever. And Im sure he has. Tell him Grandma loves him and misses me. I send you all my love until next time sweetie.
Sunday, October 1, 2006 - ~Love always your mommy, Tiffany~
My angel Nicholas
I miss you so much. I wanted to find answer so bad. I know that you are in heaven and you have been watching me try to figure this all out. But there is nothing that I can figure out. There is no reason. Or at least that is what they tell me. I love you so much. And I guess that I needed some kind of a reason. So, I need all the help that you and God can give me to get through this. I will never forget you!! You are a big piece of my heart. And you always will be. Your mommy loves you so much. So does every one else.
Sunday, October 1, 2006 - Mommy
ETHAN
HI SWEET BABY BOY MOMMY IS HERE. WELL TOMORROW IS THE DAY GRANDMA, GRANDPA, MOMMY, DADDY, BIG SISTER, UNCLE RANDY, AUNT ROXANNE ARE GOING TO THINK ABOUT YOU AND SEND YOU SOME LOVING I KNOW I DO THAT EVERYDAY BUT THIS IS GOING TO BE SPECIAL. MOMMY AND GRANDMA, UNCLE RANDY AND AUNT ROXANNE ARE GOING TO DO THE CEREMONY BUT DADDY AND GRANDPA ARE GOING TO TAKE YOUR BIG SISTER AROUND THE ZOO THEY ARE NOT COMING TO THE CEREMONY IT IS TO HARD FOR THEM. WELL HOPE YOU SEND US A SIGN. IT HAS BEEN FIVE MONTHS SINCE YOU HAVE LEFT US AND IT HAS BEEN SO HARD. BE WITH US TOMORROW BABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
SO DID YOU SEE YOUR DADDY RUN FOR YOU THE OTHER NIGHT HE WAS COMING TO SAVE YOU BUT YOU WERE NOT THERE. DADDY MISSES YOU SO MUCH. WE ALL DO. WE ALL LOVE YOU MOMMY HAS TO GO TO WORK NOW TALK TO YOU SOON BABY BOY.
Saturday, September 30, 2006 - LOVE YOUR MOMMY
Hi Devon
Grandma again, honey. How are you in heaven? I think of you daily and remembering you and how beautiful you are. By finding out more about the families envolved with you there has been 5 babies die of sids in our families alone. Maybe you babies in heaven can spark interest in the research, but forming together and thinking really hard to the ones that are doing the research and maybe giving them some ideas. Quite frankly we have run out here I think. I wish I knew what took you and how to prevent it. We are going to have a wedding very soon, maybe you can come and be with us during this time. Your mommy and daddy are getting married and going to try to begin to have another one. They would have married sooner, but you realize what put if off for a while, I am sure. I keep remembering the day you were born and the day you went to be with God. I kow I should be happy that you are in a much better place, but you are away from me and my arms, and I want you back to badly. You will soon be 3 months old, and then shortly after you will be gone from us 2 months. I still put flowers on your grave and say a prayer and say hi and bye, do you hear me? It is getting better for you mom and dad, I wish I could say the same. take care baby, and say a prayer for us all. We love you so much. We all send our love and kisses.
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Saturday, September 30, 2006 - Grandma Carla
All Babys
Every mother and Father grandmother and cousin aunts and uncles miss you dearly.
Your inesince will allways be near,
Know that you will always be on everyones mind and in everyones prayers.
I send best love to family friends and babies lost to sids.

Just remember they are thinking of you.
Saturday, September 30, 2006 - anonymous
Kassidy Renee Lytton
Dear Kassidy,
I didnt really know you that well but I have felt the pain of loosin you too.
I am your 3 cousin.
Everyone misses you dearly.
Saturday, September 30, 2006 - Alyssa
Ciara Rae
Good evening my little Sugie. I had a better day today. I miss you terribly. It has been a month-and-a-half since you left us. I visit you every day at the cemetary and mostly I sit in silence. I feel since the majority of your life was spent growing in my body, you know my thoughts. As promised, I am continuing to attend RCIA. Your Nono is getting a tattoo of you really soon. That is probably the only way your Nono can express his love and grief. Nono is not a man of many words or expressed feelings. Grandma misses you terribly as well but rest assured that she is still grouchy as ever. She tells me that she looks at your picture and talks to you every morning and night. If you get the chance go and visit Grandma so she knows that everything is okay. I, too, await you in my dreams.

I send hugs and 100 kisses; sometimes I kiss your pictures but it just isn't the same. I can't wait until I get to kiss your soft lips. Good night my Sugie and hope to see you soon.
Friday, September 29, 2006 - Love mommy
Baby
Even though mommy and daddy never met you, we love you very very much. We think of you often.

I wish we would have gotten to hold you, just one time. You were taken away from us fifteen years ago.Way too early.

I know you are looking down upon us. Sometimes I look into the clouds or the night sky and imagine you are there watching over us. If I see a bird or a butterfly, I believe in some wild way, that it's you.

I can only imagine what your sweet little face looks like. I just know you have your daddy's cute little nose, and maybe you have my green eyes. I bet you are built just like your dad. With the two of us as your parents, you had no chance of being tall, considering we are both shorties, haha.

One day we will meet you sweet angel, until then keep watching over us ok. No day will ever go by without us thinking of you.
Friday, September 29, 2006 - Mommmy (D) and Daddy (J)
Dear sweet Nicholas,
We all miss you terribly bad!!
Although you were only with us for 24 days, we thank God that we had that time with you. I know you are in Heaven with all the other Angels.

I am sending you lots of hugs and kisses!
I love you!
Friday, September 29, 2006 - Grandma
My little angel Gracie Elizabeth
Hey my love, how are you? I am missing you so much today, I couldn't sleep last night you were on my mind and every time I closed my eyes I saw your beautiful little face. I know you are happy dancing with the other angels and you are well cared for in heaven but I just wish you would be with us. Papa misses youso much. We all do. Your mom and dad went to Arizona for a business trip and a little vacation, I think it will help your mom. She just quit her job because she needs time to think, well I have to go love you!
Friday, September 29, 2006 - Love and kisses, Nana
Hi buddy.
We wish i was able to met you but unfrotunenly i didn't. Mom, Nanny, and Dad always say how cute you were but we were born 2 years after you!! We miss and hope that someday we will meet you.
Friday, September 29, 2006 - Love you, Nathan and Elise
Ciara Rae
My darling little Sugie. I had a really hard day yesterday. This was my first full week back to work, and I was in the middle of a meeting and just started crying. I had to leave the meeting quickly before anyone knew I was having a nervous breakdown. Oh who am I kidding, they all knew I was having a nervous breakdown.

I miss you so much and send hugs and 100 kisses to you. Please come and visit me in my dreams sometime. Also give you big brother, Paul a kiss for me and the rest of the family too.
Thursday, September 28, 2006 - Love mommy
Avalynn martinez
Hi sweetie,
I just thought i would write you. I'm having a hard time dealing with everything. I know your mommy hurts so bad and it's so hard to know that there is nothing I can do for her. you were with us for only a month but you made us so happy. I regret not telling you I love you every chance I had. You always take forgrated the people you have till thier taken and then you relize how much it hurts when that special person is gone . I want you to know I promise we will be togeter again. Just not yet. I'm going to need to take care of mommy and your brothers before we meet again. I try and take comfort in knowing that no matter were I go you are with me. You will always be daddy's little girl. Daddy is going to go now. I'll talk with you later. Sweet dreams sweetie.
I love you!
Thursday, September 28, 2006 - daddy
Nicholas Cade Warren
Hey my angel. I miss you so much! I have made up fliers to inform people about SIDS. I have been handing them out and hanging them up. I feel as though this is what I am suppose to do. I also put your picture in a heart angel frame that your mamaw gave to me and I put it on my dresser so that I can see it all the time. I hope you know that you are loved so much. Well, mom needs to do her homework. I love you so much!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOX
OXOXOXO
Thursday, September 28, 2006 - Mommy
Hey my sweet neice
Hey sweetie. I cant believe that you would of been 10 years old on the 23rd of this month. Sorry that I missed your birthday. I have been so busy with work and your three cousins. Time has just slipped away. I cant believe that it is been a year since your mommy and Bobby has been up there with you.

Your brother and sister are getting so big. They love and miss you, your mommy and Bobby so much. I just wish we could see you again. Your Mama is doing good to. She has her good days and her bad days. But who wouldn't.

Well sweetie I better go I just wanted to stop in and tell you that I love you so very very much.
I know one day we will be together.

I LOVE YOU ASHLEE MICHELE
Thursday, September 28, 2006 - Aunt Angie
My SunShine Girl
Autumn Renee,
I'm writing you because I just can't stop thinking of you. I keep going back to the days when I was rocking you to sleep, in the green rocking chair. And just as I would get you to sleep, the chair would make a noise and we would have to start all over again. It used to make me laugh, I always knew it was coming. I loved every minute of it though. You were such a good baby, I love you so much! Your so preciouse, I am soooo glad God let me have you for the time that that he did, you truley were and still are a blessing to your father and I. I still wish, so much that you were here. Sometimes I just don't know how I am going to make it through the day without you. I think of you almost every second of every day and I long for the day that I get to see my preciouse SunShine again. Keep smiling down on your father and I Baby, the thought that you are watching over us somehow gets us through the days. Along with our memories, I think thats the only time your father and I truley smile any more, is when we think of you. I love you baby, we'll talk soon.

I love and miss you much!!!!
Your My Heart!!!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 - Mommy
Dear Hunter,
September 27, 2006
Hunter Taylor Lankford,

You would be 11 months old today.
I've been getting mail about planning a baby's first birthday party,
and coupons for diapers,
from places I signed up for when I was pregnant with you,
it's so hard -
and there is nothing to take away the pain of your loss.
To think we'd soon be celebrating your first birthday breaks my heart
It has gotten bearable with time.
The first three months were hell.
It'll be six months next week.
We love you and miss you and love you more,
we always will
daddy and i have been there for one another
even when at times it's not pretty
we're sticking it out
and will live with your loss together
my arms ache,
my heart breaks,
your smile is etched on my heart.
you are a wise soul.
someone had said,
your soul has been around for a while.
i know that to be true
you were just too wise for infancy
there is so much more
that we are unaware
i thank God to have been in your presence for FIVE MONTHS AND SEVEN DAYS
by far the best days of my life
Hunter, we love you more than pugs and ice cream & peanut butter, and sunny days, and anything in or of this world.
We love you with all our hearts
Love, mommy and daddy
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 - Love you Hunter,
Nevaeh
Hey babygirl! Oh I miss you so much and I think about you everyday! I think if you were still here what you would be doing, if you would have me or your dad's personality, and all. I get emotional at times because your baby sister is almost here and you aren't here to see her. I know that you are watching down over us.but it's just the fact that I want to hold you in my arms again, I want to squeeze you and tell you that I love you. Well, Taveon is so big now, he's 8 months and everytime I say your name or he see's your picture he gets happy and smiles. Everything is going well now, I'm just taking it a day at a time. I love you so much, we all love you to death! Nevaeh baby we miss you and, keep blessing me with your presence. I love seeing your face at night when I go to sleep. So watch over your little sister Harmane Amirah Calloway!!!!! She'll be here in a couple of months. I love you baby! R.I.P
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 - Mommie
My Asia
Baby I miss you sooooo much!!! Lately I just can't to seem to stop thinking about u. Theres not much to say, I just really really miss u thats all. Please stay with me and pray for me baby. I love ya!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 - ur mommie
To my sweet Asia
Hey my baby girl! How has your week been? Mine has been real hectic, just trying to get by day by day. I might have to quit my job because there just doesn't seem like there's enough time for me to do everything with school and all that going on. I read somewhere that the angels take care and raise all the babies in heaven, I really hope thats true. You would be a little over six months old now, soon the angels would be teaching you how to walk. I so wish I could be there and be the one watching you grow up. I always wonder what you would be doing now. Well baby, you know I love you with all my heart, and I miss you like crazy, and no don't worry I will not forget you nor ever stop loving you, I hope you sleep like a baby tonight in the arms of the angels, mommy's got lots to do so I gotta end this letter for now, good night my sweet love, lots of hugs and kisses for you!!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 - ur one and only mommy
Lazarus,
Hello Cookie boy,
words cant express what i am feeling today.It has been 2 years today since you became an angel and i hurt so much. We only had you for 3 short months and I am having a hard time remembering your smell, your voice, I just cant stop crying and it sucks.
I prayed for God to show you to me last night and he didn't maybe because he felt it would hurt worse today if I saw you.I didn't think it would hurt so badly today.I just miss you so much.
Your baby sister; LuCidity is not here yet, we have a few weeks to go. Hopefully when I hold her i will feel your spirit and not be so empty.I can only imagine how your mommy hurts.
It is so hard to watch your daughter hurt over the loss of a child and not be able to do anything.She says that she is going to your grave today, I am going to do my best to go.But you are not there, so if I don't please forgive me.
I just keep sitting here looking at all of your pictures, I have a few that are from just days before you died and you are so healthy, there doesn't show to be anything that should have taken you from a family that loved you so much. I guess trying to reason why you had to go is pointless.It just makes it hurt more.
I prayed just now for Jesus to pick you up and hug you for me and give you a kiss and sing you our song, You belong to me.
I love you punkin.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006 - NammaJonna
Nicholas Cade Warren
Hey baby boy. I miss you so much. I am still trying to get over the hurt of you leaving me. You were my first child. I always said that I never wanted children until I meet your father. Then when you came, you were my heart and soul. I know you were only with me for three weeeks but in felt like we had been together forever. I miss you so much and I look at your pictures and cheerish you. You are my baby. I love you so much and I plan on coming to see you today. So expect me. I love you.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006 - Mommy
Dear Evan Tyler,
Hi baby- sorry it's been so long but life has been busy lately!!! So much to do so little time!!! Just wanted to say that we miss you, love you, and wish you were here. I think about you all the time. Your brother is getting so big- my how the time flies. He's talking and really showing everyone his personality- he looks and acts just like his Daddy. Mommy is married now- did you like the memory table we did? Everyone thought it was a nice tribute. I just wish you were there- you could have been our junior groomsman. Jordan was so cute as the ring bearer- it would have been nice to see the two of you together. Well-it's getting cold again and I will have to come take your vase off- soon the Christmas tree will be up!!! I just miss you a lot. I love you buddy and wish you were here. Sending you millions of hugs and kisses to heaven.
Monday, September 25, 2006 - Mommy and Jordan-forever and for always
lazarus taylor
hey baby. how r u? im ok. im kinda shook up about tomarrow cuz it will mark they day you left us 2 years ago. and i just cant beleive its been that long! i mean it seems like only yesterday i saw you be born and watched you grow up little by little.
you made everything alright wen you were around. and we knew you were wise we could tell jsut by looking at you god had huge plans for you. and i think personally the reason your not here anymore was to help other people find out about the vaccinactions and find out that it kills little babys like you everyday. so in a way i geuss you were helping others. the only thing i cant understand is y it had to be you? you were ours and we thought wed have you forever and always.
but anyways lets stay happy for a while :) ok well your sister should be born anyday now and we cant wait! her names gona be lucidity crystal blair.
and it mean loud and crysal clear.
so ya were happy about that.
im just afraid your mommy will be too stressed out tomarrow to comprehend anything ya know?
well anyways i love you but i gtg eat lunch.
love you always
o and would you come see me tonight i really miss you!
Monday, September 25, 2006 - aunty angel xoxoxoxoxox
HI BJ
BABY BOY I HAVE BEEN THINKING ALOT ABOUT YOU THIS WEEK .THEY CAME TO TAKE PICTURES OF YOUR MOM AND DAD FOR THE CALENDAR. IT WAS A HAPPY YET SAD DAY, I COULD SEE THE PAIN IN YOUR DADS FACE I FELT HELPLESS ALL OVER AGAIN.I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY ABOUT YOUR NEW BROTHER OR SISTER,I KNOW YOU WILL WATCH OVER HIM OR HER. BJ I THINK ABOUT YOU ALOT AND I AM ALWAYS REMINDED OF HOW SPECIAL YOU WERE TO ALL OF US. I KNOW YOU LAUGH WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOUR BIG CUS THE 10 POUNDER. BJ I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US!! IT'S FUNNY HOW YOU THINK YOUR OVER SOMETHING AND YOU WAKE UP IN THE SAME SPOT AS IF IT JUST HAPPEN. TODAY I AM FIGHTING THE TEARS.I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY BABY BOY.
Monday, September 25, 2006 - LOVE YOU ,NE-NE
Nicholas Cade Warren
I love you so much. Your daddy loves you so much. And your brother loves you too. We all miss you, but we know that you have gone to a better place. Take care of your self and don't forget your daddy or your mommy because we will never forget you. There is a place in each of our hearts that is just for you.
Monday, September 25, 2006 - mom (Trisha Warren)
Precious little Alex
Hey hun, mommy just wanted to write and tell you how much I miss you! You would now be three months old. I regret that i'll never get to see you grow up. You were always our little angel. We love you so much and will continue to think of you every day for the rest of our lives.XOXO
Sunday, September 24, 2006 - mommy
Dear baby angel face JONAS
mommy misses you alot. Ijust hope that someday we will meet again in heaven, I pray for that everyday.oooh little Jonas you were a blessing to mommy and daddy, we try to live by what you taught us, but it can be hard sometimes, we are still very heartbroken. You will always be our first love. But, we are trying to live life and
smile. that can be hard at times too. But don't you worry your perfect little face about us.we love you Jonas you are missed by alot of family and friends
Sunday, September 24, 2006 - mama and papa brock
BOOGY BOY
HELLO HANDSOME MOMMY IS BACK AGAIN. WELL WE ARE GOING TO CELEBRATE BIRTHDAYS TODAY, UNCLE RANDY, AUNT ROXANNE, CLAY, GRANDPA, AND DADDY. I HOPE YOU ARE WATCHING SO YOU CAN BE WITH US TODAY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU. HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A FUN DAY WITH ALL YOUR ANGEL FRIENDS. WELL MOMMY IS GOING TO GO NOW. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
Sunday, September 24, 2006 - YOUR MOMMY
My lil girl Asia
hey babygirl! How was ur day? I wish u could be here to spend my crazy life with me. Other than that, I am doing fine do not worry about me. I am just happy knowing u r living the good life and that u r happy. Happy sunday btw!! Baby girl u know that even if it seems as though no one else cares, my love for you is greater than anything else in the world. I would do anything for you, anything!! Do not feel alone, my spirit is always there with you in love. No one else understands the love I have for you, you are my life and a part of me still. I hope you can find it deep down inside your heart to forgive me. Please don't be mad at mommy. If i could go through ten thousand surgeries just to have u back I would in a heart beat. Like i said, anything for you baby. Just hang in there, we will be together soon. I love you with all my heart and I miss ya like crazy. xoxo
Sunday, September 24, 2006 - from mommy
Dear Alex (Little Man)
Hey little man! Not a day goes by that i don't think of you. I love your little smile and the way you knew so much more than other five week olds. you made a huge difference in my life even though we had a short time together.
Saturday, September 23, 2006 - I love you soo much! Auntie Annee
Ciara Rae
Good morning my Sugie. I say good morning to you in hopes that things are well. I, on the other hand, do not have good anything right now. The weather is turning cold now, which I know you would enjoy.

My darling little Sugie I miss you so much. I am still trying to find reasons to keep living. Your sisters will keep me going but it still does not help the emptiness I feel in my heart and soul.

I send the usual hugs and 100 kisses to my sweet Sugie. I will never say good bye to you but will say until I see you again.
Saturday, September 23, 2006 - Love your mommy
Hi Devon
It is early and grandma is not sleeping again. I keep remembering the morning you were born, and how happy your daddy was. I will carry that memory all my life. But the other memory I will carry is the phone call I received from him 5 weeks later also early in the morning, that you were gone. And of course the days have gone by since that time, but little has changed. I still cry, I wake up early wondering how you are in heaven. If you are OK, if you are remembering to keep your feet warm. I hope you liked your little ducky outfit, this is the only time you ever got to wear it. Your mommy thinks she may be pregnant again, and your daddy says he is not emotionally ready for another baby right now, and that is only because of the loss of you and the thought of another loss, and Devon you know he could not take that. So I am asking you or pleading with you really to watch over your daddy and give him your strength and show him your love and let him know it is OK to go on. You can never be replaced and we would not ever think if this, but another one could be a good thing maybe, but no one would sleep and the poor child would be bruised with us checking him. But be good and take care of all of us. Watch over us and keep us safe until we all meet you again. I love you and send you my love and kisses as always. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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Saturday, September 23, 2006 - Love Grandma Carla
Ciara Rae
My darling little Sugie. Oh Sugie, I miss you so much! I'm talking to your Uncle Jerry right now and he says he sends his love. I went back to work on Thursday and it went well. I think going back to work was helpful. There are so many people at the hospital who have been so helpful and supportive. There are many people, who I never would have thought, which have prayed for our family. You are so loved! I knew from the moment I found out I was pregnant with you that you are special. Don't tell your sisters that I always told you that you were the cutest - that was our little secret.

I look at your pictures each day and it brings tears to my eyes but remember that is because I love you so much. I kiss the pictures in the hallway of you and remember the feel of your soft lips and smell of your sweet breath. Never forget that mommy gave you hugs and 100 kisses each day, and I still send them to you daily.

My Sugie, I hope you have a good night and remember that I await you in my dreams. Try to visit your daddy in his dreams too. He misses you terribly and his heart is just as broken as mine.

Until tomorrow when it is time for our talk.
Saturday, September 23, 2006 - Love your mommy
My Sunshine Girl
Autumn Renee,
Momma is missing you like crazy. You brought so much light into my life in the 3 months that I had you at home with me. I remember carring you in my stomach and just sitting in my room praying that I just got to meet you. When I finally did meet you, I learned what love at first site really was. Sure I love your daddy, but it could never even amount to the love that I feel for you. Your my first child, I will always love and charish you. Even if your father and I go on to have more children, just know that the love I have for you will never change. Your my sunshine, my heart. It's been three months since you were taken by SIDS and it's been the hardest three months of my life. I look at your pictures every day and sing and talk to you. I like to think that your listening up above and smiling at me like you used to. I just pray that you know how much I love and miss you. I pray that you are also watching over your father and I, and smiling at us, the way we smile in thinking of you.
Autumn Renee,
my baby girl
Your my Heart!
I Love you!!!
Friday, September 22, 2006 - Your Mommy
merhaba my little ibster/ibsteress
when i fell pregnant with you it was the happiest day of my life, things were not easy because your dad lived in another country but at that point nothing mattered i had never wanted anything so much in all my life and the seconed i knew i was having you i loved you beyond belief. you were our miracle baby because i had had to have a sterilization reversal to have you. i decorated your room for you i hope you liked the colours, and the moses basket it was special it was brought by your anne for you cousin ceyda but she gave it to you. did you see all the clothes i brought for you, i have given them to another mum now for their child i knew would be happy for me to do that. i kept a few things though which i cuddle now and then. you would have been born in august 2005 but you went to live with allah and i will wait for the day i can join you and hold you for the first time. i love you more each day and miss you so very much. untill the day i see you kendine iyi bak, iyi geceler tatli ruyalar my darling. lots of love anne and baba. (mum and dad.)xxx
Friday, September 22, 2006 - anna & baba (mum & dad) xxx.
Princess Anjelique
OH my Love as the day comes to an end my tears run more as I get a double pain today. It is a Friday and tomorrow you would have turned 8 months old. OH my Love my Heart hurts soo bad. Holding in these tears is useless I guess. I'm trying the hardest I can but I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID. To think in a week and a half it will be 6 months since I held you in my arms. I know you don't want me to be sad and my Little Love mama is trying so much. BUT SOMETIMES I just can't do it.
Please know that if your seeing me cry don't worry about Mama its just I love you and miss you more then any tears I could ever shed. I LOVE YOU FOREVER
I LIKE FOR ALWAYS
AS LONG AS I'M LIVING
MY BABY YOU'LL BE***

OH Anjelique my LOVE. I send you a TRILLION kisses so at least one will reach you.

OH MY BEAUTIFUL PRETTY GIRL.
Friday, September 22, 2006 - Mama
Hey Asia!!
Good morning baby girl!! Did you have a good night?! I hope you have a great day today!! Please stay close to mommy throughout the day, I love u baby!!
Friday, September 22, 2006 - mommy
DEAREST JAKE,
Today hasnt been a very good day for mummy. I have jumped down some people throats for minor reasons. I have found that the 5th anniversary of you passing away has been one of the most difficult for me to take. I love you my baby boy and miss you terribly I feel that you are so close that I can touch you but when I try you are always just out of reach from me. Your aunty emma misses you lots and is angry and me and daddy for not going to the cemetary but to me you are not there you are here with us in memory and in spirit. I am a little mad because she rang gran and grandad on the 17th and said dont you know what day it is today? she thaught we all had forgotton the tragic day which is the 22nd. And she herself didnt even remember the correct day. I love you my baby boy always now and forever and dont need to ackowledge the day when you were taken so sudddenly from us. I rememeber the happy days when i held you in my arms and you were here with your family. I know you rest peacefully here, within our hearts.I love you my sweet boy more than I could ever say or show.

I will write again soon.
All My Love.
Friday, September 22, 2006 - Mummy
EVAN TYLER
Hey little guy !!! Its` your angel day, the bad day we all wished never happened. How are you doing today? playing with all the other angels? keep warm cause its getting chilly outside. I wanted to write to say i miss you very much, always thinking of you, and love you very much. please keep every safe for me!! bye little guy for now will write again soon.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - AUNT DAWN
BABY BOY
HELLO HANDSOME YOU ARE 10 MONTHS OLD NOW. I CAN NOT BELIEVE THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING UP AND YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY WILL BE HERE SOON. I AM GOING TO SEND YOU BALOONS I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. YOUR BIG SISTER IS GOING TO SCHOOL NOW AND SHE DOES NOT LIKE IT TO MUCH. I HOPE SHE WILL START TO LIKE IT. WELL MOMMY HAS TO GO WORK NOW I LOVE YOU.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - HUGS AND KISSES
my precious baby boy Gavin
Hello my little angel, Mommy misses you. It took me a few months to realize the good that has come of this. You were an angel sent here to me, God had other plans for you,so instead of living on earth with mommy and daddy he decided to let you bloosom here, but bloom in heaven to watch over us. I feel you on my pillow at night and I'm not affraid for you anymore. Mommy will see you soon. Miss you and love you baby boy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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xox.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - love, your Mother
My precious angel Madison
Hey Madie,

It's aunt Kass, Whew- I MISS YOU!
I can't beleive you would have 1 last month. I flew to Ak to be with your Mommy for your birthday. We sure cried A LOT. Your party was BEAUTIFUL though huh, the only thing missing was YOU in the flesh, but your spirit is always with us, so innocent, sweet, loving, happy! Not a day goes by in which we don't talk about you. I'm sure you know all of this already. The pain is still as strong as ever, we all are learning how to cope with the pain, but sweetie, it dosent get any easier, it just gets us through the days. Mommy seems to be doing quite well considering. She misses you sooooooo much. Daddy misses you too! He is heading off to Iraq next month, so I'm sure he will need xtra kiss's from heaven. You watch over him, and keep an eye on Momma, this will be the 1st holiday season without you and with daddy in Iraq, I'm sure she could use some xtra love from her angel as well! Not a day pass's with out you being in it, your always in my heart and on my mind. I'm thinking about what to do for my bday this year, last year you went to be with Jesus, this year I don't know what will happen, but I do know it is a day in-which was the saddest in my life. It used to be the best day in my life - the day I was brought into this world, but now it is the saddest day- the day you got your wings. I will figure it out, but it's going to be so hard. Who wants to be happy when all we truly want is our Madie-Moo back!
Okay, sweetie, be good, and have fun with all the other baby angels.
Miss you more than you know!
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - Always and Forever, Aunt Kas
Dear Austin James Smith ,our Angel
Sweet Austin,how we all miss you so much. We know we will see you some day. We found out how quick someone so dear to us could be taken from us. We never thought riding on a horse you loved so much could hurt you. All we wanted is for you to be safe and do want you loved to do,ride. You will always be in our hearts. we're sending you kisses and hugs and tell it is our time to be with you and than we will give you kisses and hugs. We love you so very much,always.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - Mamaw,Papaw Shot ,Aunt Sara,Uncle Jason
Spencer
Hey kiddo. It has been a long time. You'd be 14 this year. I am sad that I never got to hold you or know you.I have always wondered what my life would have been like with you in it. I have thought about you everyday since you passed. I know you are in a better
place and at peace, but that doesn't erase the pain. I want you to know that even though things didn't work
out between your mother and I, you were wanted. I know you can see us and maybe your the reason for the recent events between your mom and I. I hope you will continue to guide us in our struggle for peace due to your loss.
You are missed and may you rest in peace.

All My Love,

Thursday, September 21, 2006 - Dad
My baby, my little baby,Austin James Smith
I hope that you are up there looking down on us knowing how much we love you and how much we miss you. I should have never took you on that horseback riding trip, I never imagined something like that could happen, even when I was strapping on your helmet. I will never know what made that horse that you loved and was so gentle, buck you and papaw off. I miss you running through the house, the kisses and hugs, the cute little remarks you would say especially when you would say "Mommy's my baby and Daddy's my boy". I miss waking up in the morning and you laying next to me. I miss you running through your play room door yelling "Mommy I'm home". after being down at your mamaw smith's for the day. I miss your caring of others and the part where at only 4 took your time out of playing to meet someone new that was walking down the street. Shy was never a word for you, I always wondered where you got that from because mommy and daddy are too shy to do the things that you wanted. Is there a race up there? Are you learning your riding skills up there. I can't wait to see you again, next time, I will hold you in my arms for eternity and never let you go. I love you so much and my heart hurts so bad not being able to see you, hold you and I should have never tooken you that day. If it even crossed my mind that I would have the slightest chance of losing you, We would have laid in bed all day, my body wrapped around yours so that nothing could happen to you. I am so very sorry baby. I miss you. We sent you orange and red ballons that day of the service, a 100 of them, I hope that you got them all. Thank you for the strength that you gave me during your service, you know mommy, I don't like talking in front of people and for me to be able to get up there and talk to a whole room full of people about you without it being a train wreck of emotions, I know you helped me out because that was your type of thing to do, not mommy's. I Love you my heart, my soul and my entire world.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 - Your baby. aka Mommy
Grandma's Precious Ethan John
Today you would have been 10 months old. Grandma went to church this morning feeling so much like I could hold you in my arms, but I did look at the stained glass window, the one with Jesus holding the baby in His lap, I knew you were being held and happy to be with Jesus, someday we will all be together again and Jesus will give you back to us. Grandma wants to hold you in her arms one more time, that's what Audrey says, "kisses one more time". Grandma wants Ethan's kisses one more time. Until that day I will just have to imagine what you will look like on a day like today, 10 months old, holding your head up and laughing and giggling for all to see what a big boy you are starting to be. You would probably be crawling, at 5 months you was already getting so strong. Just 4 1/2 months ago and now you are safe in the arms of Jesus. Grandma loves and misses you so very much. Love You Ethan John.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - Your Grandma
Jayce Castillo
Hi my angel! I know it's been a while since a letter.Sometimes it's just easier to stay busy.But even on those busy days i still see your face! Sorry that i don't visit your grave site much, but your far from forgotten.Well your little sis is 6 months old and reminds me of you.She is so happy sometimes i even think she's smiling and cooing at you! I'll never understand but God has the big picture i only have the broken piece. I am very blessed and never doubt the lords love or will. I love you bubby and miss you dearly hang tight until i get there! hopefuly i don't arrive to soon i have to finish my work here on earth but until then lots of love , hugs,kisses and laughs!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - your always in my heart , mommy
Asia
Hey girly, how r u? mommys been sick lately, i hope u r doing fine. I've been working a lot lately and plus with school going on right now I feel like life is so crazy. I wanna forget everything I'm doing here and just be with you. So many people from my school are having babies and it makes me so jealous to see them. I am having a real hard time dealing with that, I can't even talk to them or see them anymore, thats how bad it is. Well, nothing can take back what happened, I hope u r happy in heaven with jesus, wait for me I will be there soon, I love ya!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - mommy
My Percious Alexzander
Mommy is having a very hard day today, I miss you so very much and ache to hold you in my arms, and watch your face light up as you smile. I was doing laundry earlier and ran across one of your outfits as I folded it and took it up to you room to put away I could hear your giggle. I know you will always be with me. I would give anything for you to be here. Thank you for looking in on me and calming me on days like today when I need it the most. Hugs and Kisses
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - Love you, Mommy
To my baby boy mark
I just wont to say this Oprecious,tiny,s
weet little one You will always be so perfect,pure,and innocent just as you were meant to be.We dreamed of you and of your life and all that it would be we waited and longed for you to come and join our family. we never had the chance to play,to laugh,to rock,towiggle. we long to hold you,touch you now and listen to you giggle. I'll always be your mother.He'll always be your dad. you will always be our child that we had. but now your gone. but yet you're here. we'll sense you every where. you are our sorrow and our joy theres love in every tear. just know our love goes deep and strong. we'll forget you never- the child we had,but never had,and yet will have forever i hope you like it little man love you always big kisss and hugs baby boy ill writ soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - all my love and kiss from mummy x
Dear mark
We just wonted to say that we are missing you so vary much and i would do anythink to have you back wiht us and to lookafter you and hold you and just be with you all the time as its not meent to be like this you are so vary misst and always will be i long to be with you and be thare to hold you wan you are down and to talk to wane you need us give you a kiss wan you are hurt to tell you that every think will be o.k but i cant do that all i can do is talk to your photo and look at your box read the latters that daddy sant you and see you at your grave but its not you thare its just your box i now you look down on us and you miss us to just like we do so vary much
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 - all our love and kiss mummy and daddy xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Joshua
HEY Babydoll, its hard to imagine that you would be 1 1/2 this time of year. I miss you so much and it has gotten hharder thru time without you. I always think about you and what you would have been like and how much great time we spent together when you were alive for thoese 3 wonderful months. I love you so much honey and you know your in my heart of always and forever. xoxoxoxo
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 - Mommy
Dearest Spencer,
I haven't written or talked about you in such a long time. Your birthday is Friday and it will already be 14 years. My how time flies. I wonder, what would you be doing now? What would you look like?
Do you see me? Do you know how I feel? Do you know how much I loved you? Do you know of your dad who hurts so much because he didn't get to know you? I bet you know all this. Do you look down on me from heaven? Please honey, help mom and dad to let this pain for you go and let us begin to heal. I love you with all my heart and you will always be my firstborn but now I must do my best to let you go and find the peace that I know is in my heart. Please look down on me from heaven and smile upon me, your dad, and your sisters. We love you so Spenc. Never will you be out of my heart.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 - Mommy
lazarus kead taylor
hey baby im sorry i havent writen in a long time. mommys doing ok now and so is your new sister! she should be born in about a week! yey, i hope she makes us just as happy as you did. anyways how r u?
im ok i know your doing well thats y ive been so good in the last cupple of months. even though your angelday is on the 26 of this month im ok.
i cryed today though. i heard your song on the radio and couldnt change it.
and you know im glad i didnt. i needed to hear from you and thank you so much.
i love you but for now i gtg i need sleep:)
love you always and eva
Monday, September 18, 2006 - aunty angel xoxoxoxoxox
Hi Devon
Been a few days I know, but I am trying to get pins made up and some sponsers to get them to sell. I am having meetings with different groups and churches that all seem interested and maybe with some funding we can up the speed of the research, since all funds will go for that purpose. I am excited and hopeful. How was your day in heaven. Good playtime I hope. Please continue to look down on us and give your smile and your ray of sunshine. I look at other people with their babies and I sometimes see you in their faces, and other times I wonder if you can see all of us here. We miss you so much baby, I wish I could hold you again, and someday I know I will. I just want you here again with us. To see your beautiful eyes and smile and watch you sleep. I love you my darling. Be safe and well say hi to G=Grandma and G=granpa for me.
Monday, September 18, 2006 - Grandma Carla
Ciara Rae
My darling little Sugie. It's me again. I am so happy to have found this page as it gives me an outlet as a way to talk to you. I am going to the cemetary in a few minutes to visit you but find peace in writing you here.

Your sister, Portia, cut her long hair and donated it to Locks of Love. She came up with that idea all by herself. Azia is my strong girl and always gives me comfort when I am down. Nothing can replace the sadness which is left by your absence.

Daddy misses you terribly. Both of us await a visit from you in our dreams. Remember that mommy always sends hugs and 100 kisses daily.

Remember our dance - "Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. Stop! Hammertime!" I know that you probably didn't appreciate me making you dance to MC Hammer but the joy it gave me cannot be replaced.

I love you and miss you my Sugie!
Monday, September 18, 2006 - Love your Mommy,
AVALYNN GRACE
HELLO SWEETHEART, HOW IS MY BABY GIRL DOING? I HOPE YOU HAVEING A GREAT TIME IN HEAVEN BOUNCING FROM CLOUD TO CLOUD. I MISS YOU BABY GIRL. MY HEART IS DIEING INSIDE WITHOUT YOU. I WENT BACK TO WORK LAST WEEK, IT WENT WELL, I WAS KINDA NICE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. YOUR BROTHERS SAY HI. JOSH IS GOING TO BE 10 IN A WEEK AND GAVIN IS ALMOST 3. IT HAS BEEN ALMOST 2 MONTHS SINCE WE LOST YOU. I CAN'T BELIVE THAT YOU ARE ALMOST 3 MONTHS OLD. DADDY, AND I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT TRYING FOR ANOTHER BABY. NOT TO REPLACE YOU, BUT TO REPLACE MY EMPTY ARMS. I'M SO HAPPY THAT WE BROUGHT YOU HOME WITH US. I FEEL SO SORRY FOR ALL THOSES MOMMIES THAT HAVE TO GO AND VISIT THERE BABIES IN A GRAVEYARD, AND I HAVE YOU RIGHT IN THE HEART OF THE LIVINGROOM. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF OUR FAMILY AND YOU NEED TO BE WITH US FOREVER. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Monday, September 18, 2006 - MOMMY & DADDY
Dear Ciara Rae,
My darling little Sugie. Oh how you are missed. It has been one month and one day since you left us. With each day that passes I cannot find any comfort as I miss you terribly. I visit you at the cemetary every day. Somedays are better than others but mostly I just find myself crying. I am trying to find patience with your big sisters but that too is difficult. I question myself often as to how I can continue to live without you, and then I hear the giggles of your sisters, which tells me I must.

I long to kiss your lips and smell your sweet breath. I long to hear your coos and your cry which so reminded me of a cat. I long to see your big brown eyes looking back into mine. Oh Sugie I miss you terribly. I pray that you know how much I love you, and I send my usual hugs and 100 kisses to you daily.

I have made a vow to live my life right so that one day I will join you in heaven. I never knew until the day of your services that babies that pass are not little angles but are Saints. Father Tim, who performed your service, spoke extensively how you are now a Saint and like always you make me proud.

I love you Sugie and miss you so much. Please come and visit me in my dreams.I await your visit.
Sunday, September 17, 2006 - Your mommy.
Grayce Marie
Hello Miss Grayce- Mommy is writing to let you know that she misses you more and more everyday. My heart is still very heavy and I think it always will be. There is not a day or an hour that goes by that I don't think of you. Derek just started his 2nd year of pre school -he is growing so fast. Ella is 15 months already -I see alot of you in her. I still wonder everyday what you are like. One day I will get to hold you. I promise when that day comes I will never put you down. I love you princess. Please continue to watch over us. Love and miss you like crazy baby girl.
Sunday, September 17, 2006 - Mommy
Dear Donavon
Hey Pumpkin! I know it has been a while since I have wrote you. You know I still think about you always. You have never left my thoughts or my prayers. Aunt Amy is always wondering what you are doing up in heaven. But I have a pretty go idea what you are doing buddy. This is so hard for Aunt Amy to write you cause I always know I'm going to cry. Your Birthday is coming up soon. I would to see you with a all chocolate cake all over your face from eating it. It would be a good Kodak moment. Well pumpkin Aunt Amy has to go I promise I will write soon. Sorry again it has been long. I love you pumpkin.
Sunday, September 17, 2006 - Aunt Amy
Dearest Lennon
Hi Honey,

Grammie just wants to say how much we love and miss you on this fourth anniversary of your passing. Always remember how much you were and are loved and cherised by your family Lennon. We are so grateful for the time we had with you, though too short.

I love you always honey.
Sunday, September 17, 2006 - Love, Grammie
BOOGY BOY
HEY HANDSOME HOW ARE YOU? WELL I AM MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY I LOOK AT YOU EVERY DAY WISHING YOU WERE HERE WITH US. GRANDMA, GRANDPA, UNCLE RANDY, AUNT ROXANNE, AUDREY, MOMMY AND DADDY ARE GOING TO A SIDS GET TOGETHER AT THE ZOO. THIS WILL BE YOU FIRST VISIT TO THE ZOO WITH EVERYONE, I AM SURE YOU WERE WITH DADDY AND AUDREY ON THERE 100 TRIPS TO THE ZOO THIS SUMMER. I AM GOING TO BE LOOKING FOR A SIGN FROM YOU HANDSOME LITTLE MAN. I WILL LOOK HIGH AND LOW FOR A SIGN. WELL MOMMY IS WORKING AS YOU CAN SEE SO I AM GOING TO GO. WE LOVE YOU.
Saturday, September 16, 2006 - HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME TO YOU.
Princess Pretty Girl
Oh my Love, It's been a week since I last sent you a letter to Heaven, but I just feel the need to write again to you. I don't know why but I can't open up your jounarl to write to you there. And this sadness I've had to hide it and keep it to myself more. Next week your Brother Ram turns 8 on the 24 and on the 23rd you would have turned 8 months. I have all these emotions inside of me. and now I can't find the address to the place where they will have the Memorial for the SIDS babies tomorrow and I am even more sad because I tried calling the place but no one picks up and no one has answered my call. I really wanted to go. Your brothers are going to see Elmo. but me I wanted to do that for you. I am looking still everywhere for the address. OH PRETTY GIRL. I miss you. I miss that smile of yours. How happy you would be in the morning to wake up. OH MY PRINCESS. TO kiss you again just one more time or to give you a bath and put lotion on you and dress you up and comb your pretty hair and put a bow on it.
On the 7th it will be 6 months since you left me. and the pain is still the same. This is so insane. I know I'm not suppose to question why you had to leave but my Love MAMA misses you OH SOOOO MUCH. even though we are blessed with the coming of your little sister you should have been here to play with her. Not me have to tell her about you and how you are watching from above.I don't want this letter to be sad my Love I want you to know that there is not a day that goes by that my Love for you is not growing and that I miss you more then my words could ever say. and even if your name is not said by anyone else remember Mama says it with every breath she takes.

I LOVE YOU ANJELIQUE*****
Saturday, September 16, 2006 - Mama
Dear Rose Michaela
I can't tell you how much I miss you. You have been gone from here for two weeks now, and mommy's heart aches everyday. Your earth life was cut so short, and only you know why you needed to leave. Mommy is so confused. We has such a wonderful pregnancy and 5 amazing weeks together. I know that your having fun with great grandma Rose.I hope you like the person I named you after. Isn't she wonderful?! Your twin sister Cecilia is making sure mommy is smiling and daddy too. Daddy really misses is little nuggett.you looked just like him! Those big blue eyes!! Im trying to make sure you know I love you. I miss you so much. We all do. Keep your sister safe, your her angel twin now. I hope you pick a good brother or sister for her someday. I will always have you near my heart.
Saturday, September 16, 2006 - Love, Your Mommy
My sweet baby.Jensen,
Mommy wanted to send you this letter to let you know just how much I miss you and love you! I think about you every single day, there is never a day gone by that I haven't thought of you. The past 6 months have been sooo hard for mommy, but I'm not giving up. I know your happy and your safe, and I'm sure you've made tons of little angel friends. While you were here with me, you made my life brighter, but you went on to also make Heaven a little brighter. Everyday I imagine what you would be doing if you were still here with me and Lyssa. I picture you walking around and learning how to talk. Seeing as you would be 14 months old this month. I hope you enjoyed your birthday party we had for you and the balloons that we all wrote messages to you on and sent to Heaven for you to see. I miss you so much I just wish that I could squeeze you real tight and give you a kiss and tell you how much you are loved. I would do anything to see those bright blue eyes light up and that amazing 2-tooth smile. You were and always will be so precious to me baby J. Alyssa says "hi, Bubby", she misses you so much too. Never forget mommy loves you more than anything and I promise I'll see you again one day. I will forever hold you right here in my heart! I love you little man. I will write to you again soon. Hope you get these hugs and kisses. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


In loving memory Jensen Tyler Alan Webb
7-28-2005 -- 3-21-2006
Friday, September 15, 2006 - With all my love, mommy
Hailey Christine
I really hope this letter will reach you in Heaven. I'm not sure where to begin. I miss you so much. I know you do not want Mommy's heart to ache, but I can't stop it. Hailey I miss your beautiful smile. When I look to my heart I can see it, but I miss your smile non-the-less. You are my sweet, sweet Hailey Christine. There is not a moment that passes that I am not missing you. There is not a second that passes that I am not thinking of you. Please catch my kisses, please squeeze back my hugs. You are my destiny. You were the song I was destined to sing. Alexis misses you like crazy. Everyonce in a while she will have this look on her face, and I will ask her what's wrong. And she'll say, "I want my sister, I want her with me" I'm not sure what to say to that, except "Me too" You changed my life for the better when you came into it, I don't know how a mother is supposed to go on without a child. I know you are somewhere you can never be hurt, or scared, or afraid again, that is the only though which brings me a moment of piece, but I want to protect you, I want to throw my arms around you, and hold you close. I just wanted to send you this letter, and let you know how much you are loved and missed.

I love you Hailey Bug ~ I love you
Thursday, September 14, 2006 - Mommy
HI Holden
Hi sweet Holden baby! Mommy misses her little guy so very much. We sent you some 1st birthday balloons on your birthday. Just wish you could have been here so we could have held you on that day. Sunday daddy and Bradley and I are walking in the SIDS walk as Team Holden, just for you. Things are just not the same here without you Holden. We all miss you terribly, and ache just to see your crooked little smile again. Take care my sweet baby, sleep tight and have lots of fun in Heaven with your angel friends.
Love you so much!
Thursday, September 14, 2006 - Mommy
Devon, Hi Baby
Been missing you so much. It has only been 1 month since you left us, and the pain is still so real. I vent my frustration and hurt, but I am trying to put it in a new way. I am in process of having SIDS Awareness Stadium Pins made to remember you and all the others. I want to do something and this seems to be the best way. I have companies working on the way they will look and I hope you like them. I have decided to sell them and donate the proceeds to the research for Sids and trying to find out what the cause is and the main thing to look for before birth, and to see if it is what they think and how to aid in the reduction of this. You know you came to me and let me know how to make them and I took my inspiration from you, so I thank you for that. Hope you are happy in heaven with all your friends and relatives. I wish you were here you would be 2 1/2 months old and probally looking as beautiful as you were then and still are. I think about you, and I have your picture on my desk with the other grandchildren. I could not leave you out just because you are not with us. I hope you don't mind. Well my counseling is going to begin when I call the agency. Your mom and dad are about to go. Think of us and look down on us and bless us with you love.
Thursday, September 14, 2006 - Grandma Carla
Logan
Dearest Logan,
I miss you so much. I think of you everyday, I wish with all my heart that you wouldnt have passed way. Just wish I could hold you once more. Two months for me were just not enough. I try and show Hayden your picture everyday, I just dont want him to ever forget about you. I know he wont, and I know that he misses you as much as we do. Im sure he misses you more. Everytime I see him doing something new I picture you right beside him doing the exact same thing. I Love You and Miss you More than anything in this world. Please give granddaddy a hug and kiss for me!!
Thursday, September 14, 2006 - Love, Mom
MY SPECIAL ANGEL!!!! MAKENNA KAY ELIZABETH
HEY THERE BABY GIRL, AUNT NINNY LOVES YOU !!!!! I AM SOOOO SORRY I DID NOT WRITE TO YOU ON FRIDAY, AND WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IT IS JUST SOOO HARD TO BELIEVE YOU WOULD BE A BIG "5" YEARS OLD NOW. SEEMS JUST YESTERDAY YOU WERE BORN.YOUR MOMMY TRIED TO WRITE TO YOU AND COULDN'T GET THE LETTER TO GO THRU, I GUESS THIS SITE WAS HAVING TROUBLES. YOU NEED TO SEND YOUR MOMMY A MESSAGE , HER AND YOUR DADDY HAVE SPLIT UP AGAIN, I DUNNO BOUT THEM TWO, MAYBE IF YOU WERE HERE THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT.NANNA AND POPPY ARE ON THEIR WAY UP TO IL I AM SURE YOUR NANNA WILL COME OUT TO YOUR GRAVE TO SEE YOU.WE ALL MISS YOU SOOO MUCH AND YOU ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE OUR SPECIAL ANGEL. WELL SWEETY AUNT NINNY NEEDS TO GO AND GET READY FOR CHURCH. I WILL WRITE AGAIN SOON. SEND MY LOVE TO ALL OF OUR FAMILY UP THERE ESPECIALLY GRANNY-GREAT BURNS. LOVE YOU BABY GIRL
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 - AUNT NINNY, AND REBEL YOUR DOGGYCUZ
My little angel Gracie Elizabeth,
Hi my love, how are you? Just wanted to let you know I miss you so much. How are your days in heaven? Your always on my mind and in my heart, it hurts so much not having you here. What I would give to see that sweet smile again and I know I will one day but that seems like an eternity. Well I have to go my love, I'll write soon. Please let me find another penny because I need an angel kiss from you soon and to know you are ok. Hugs and kisses !
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 - Love you, Nana
Dear Tyson
You know that you are always in my heart and in on my mind. I never thought I could think of someone so much. I miss you I love you and I think of you every single day. XOXO
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 - Your dad
Ruby Jean
Hey there baby hope your doing good I know u are I MISS U VERY VERY MUCH!!!!
gRANDPA PUT AN ANGEL DOWN AT YOUR GRAVE
mommy finally got your otoupsy reports in and it crushed me i wish you were here to see your beautiful neacie dessire but baby I LOVEE YOU VERY VERY MUCH SEE YOU SOON LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOU MOMMY
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 - Your Mommy and Sissy
hey my little guy
so its been a while mommy has been thinking of u and i wanted to say congratulations u are a big brother but im sure u know that your sister is
3 months today she looks just like u perfect and buetiful in every way me and daddy and ur sisters and brothers miss u so much im shure u are soooo big
well here is a hug from mom
1 luv u
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 - stephanie paniagua
my baby-Jordyn
Hey its Mom again. i miss you so much, i hate that your not here with me anymore.but dont worry about mom ill be ok soon. Grandma and I just got back from Aunty Jessicas Baceball game. And they won! i wish you could of been there with me, you would of have a great time, crawling in the grass. i wish i would of see you crawl. i miss you incredably. and i love you. i alwayz will. dont forget that. i'll alwayz be thinking of you.
LOVE YOU
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 - Mommy
hello precious alex
Hey honey.it's only been a month and a few days since you left but the pain is worse than ever. I think about you every day and will continue to do so til the day I die and see you again. Mommy is trying so hard to keep it together but this burden is something that will follow me day in and out for the rest of my life. All I can hope now is that you never forget how much I love you and never forget daddy and I.we tried so hard!
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 - XOXO~mommy~XOXO
Hi My Beautiful Love
Oh my Sweet Princess, words could not express my love and this pain that is my heart. Though I watch your brothers play and now your sister Peanut grow in Mama's womb. It only hurts more. I feel as I am the only one now shedding tears for you.I think how wonderful it would have been to see all 4 of you playing there. But I can't. I can only tell Peanut about you when she arrives. Though deep in my heart I feel as if you had a part in asking God to send us Peanut so soon. OH my Sweet Anjelique Mama misses you so much. though I know you want me to be happy its so Hard.
I watch everyone go about their lifes now and its seems the focus is on Peanut but Why should it be its only been 5 months since you left us. I know Mama sounds silly or maybe even a bit crazy. But I wish I could have you in my arms and that Peanut would know your voice when she came into this world. But again I don't know why I feel as Peanut already knows your voice and that you are watching over her and your brothers. Oh my sweet Love I miss you more then words could ever say. I ask our Lord to please give you the kisses I can not for now. I LOVE YOU ANJELIQUE*** I send you a million kisses so at least one will reach you in Heaven.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 - Mama
Hello Devon
It has been a few days, and I think I am beginning to heal, then something will bring up the memories of that early morning. A tv show, something said, a dream, and there I go again back remembering and tears flow. It is getting easier, and I have several ones to talk to and it makes me feel better. I know you are great, being held in loving arms. So precious my sweet, so beautiful, and so perfect. I miss you so much. I am still wondering what to do. Your mom and dad are talking about another one, and that would be wonderful. You could be a gardian angel to your brother or sister, to watch over them and protect them. Put in a good work for them, so they can grow up and remember you as well and how perfect you are. Give love to great-grandma and grampa. Love my darling love and kisses always.
Monday, September 11, 2006 - Grandma Carla
hi lucy loo
my baby girl its been six months since you went away we miss you so much our baby girl your big sister fifi looks up to the stars and waves i tell her you are the brighest star miss you lucy looxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Monday, September 11, 2006 - mammy daddy chloe and ffion
My little baby Angel
I m thinking of you as always. Life is a bit tough at the moment.look over me and see that we are ok. I love you baby.
Monday, September 11, 2006 - with love from mummy xxxx
Dear Jimmy
Hey LiL Man,
Its Mommy. I hope you remeber me. I just want you to know how much we all miss you. You were only with us for one month. But that one month was enough to last me a lifetime. I wish you were here now. My life so hard with out you.
But its okay that your gone. Mommy know you are with jesus.But i cant help but want you back here with me and daddy.we all love you.i miss you so much son.i think of you all time.you were such a blessing. i love jimmy.Its beeb 5 months since you have been gone.but seems like like a life time.mommy misses you so much.i love you.I have to go son.WE love you.And ill see you in my dreams.
Monday, September 11, 2006 - Mommy,Daddy, And Famliy
Hey Lil man
Just thought i would a leave you a letter, although I do write letters quite often. How are you going? It's been a month today since you left i miss you heaps. talk to you later xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
oxoxoxox
Monday, September 11, 2006 - Love forever and ever Em
Hello precious Alex
Mommy just wanted to write and let you know how much she loves and misses you. I think about you everyday and your sly little smirk.you were such a cutie pie and I can't wait to see you again love you pumpkin!
Sunday, September 10, 2006 - Mommy
BOOGY BOY
HELLO BABY BOY MOMMY IS BACK TO SAY HI. WELL WE WENT TO MACKINAW I MADE IT THRU THE TRIP. I HAD LOTS OF THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU THOUGH WHICH YOU ALREADY KNOW. AS YOU SEEN IN CHURCH I BARELY MADE IT THRU WHEN I STARTED TO THINK THAT YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE THERE WITH US AND I HAD SO MANY THOUGHTS GOING THRU MY HEAD. I JUST HAD TO CRY I TRIED TO BE STRONG BUT AUDREY CAUGHT ME. SHE SAYS, "YOU SEE ETHAN AGAIN HE WILL COME BACK SOMEDAY." I WISH THAT WERE TRUE BUT I AM NOT GOING TO SEE YOU AGAIN UNTIL I GET TO COME HOME TO BE WITH YOU. WELL I AM STILL WORKING AS YOU KNOW INSTEAD OF BEING HOME WITH DADDY YOU ARE WATCHING OVER ME WHILE I WORK. YOUR SISTER WISHES SHE COULD COME TO WORK WITH ME. SHE SAYS, "NOT AGAIN, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO TO WORK FOR? "I WANT TO COME". MOMMY HAS TO TELL HER "I HAVE TO MAKE MONEY". SO TODAY SHE SAYS, "YOU HAVE TO GO TO WORK LATER"? I SAID, "YES. "WHY BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO MAKE MONEY". I SAID, "THATS RIGHT". SHE IS SO SMART I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE HAD A GREAT TEACHER YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN MR SMARTY AND SHE WOULD BE MRS SMARTY. WE MISS YOU SOOOOOO MUCH ETHAN JOHN. I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING FUN WITH ALL YOUR ANGEL FRIENDS. KEEP WATCHING OVER US SWEET BABY BOY. MOMMY HAS TO GO TO WORK NOW WE LOVE YOU. HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME TO YOU.
Sunday, September 10, 2006 - LOVE MOMMY
BABY GIRL JORDYN
Its me again grandma, I just got done work and I'm so tired. Poeple still ask about u. Sometimes I pretend and say u are good and getting big, I limit myself to brake down and only tell 5 people and that it. Your mommy likes school she is out to look for a job.Her and the love of her life (besides u)Matt are thinking of marriage.He wanted to be your step daddy but he lives in B.C. and is planning to move here this summer to be with your mommy. He saw your pictures and like everyone thinks u our beutiful. Your mommy has at least 10 pictures everyday u were here and that makes about1000 of them. well i got to go 4 a dip a doo wish u could come but i will be thinking of u
Saturday, September 9, 2006 - love u lots grandma
Cody
Mommy loves you sweetie.i am with daddy in Louisville.i miss you and i wish that you were still here with me.sind me a sign that you here me.i love you baby
Saturday, September 9, 2006 - Candice
Nevaeh
Hey phat momma scoop, I know it's been a while since I wrote but I still think about you everyday. We all miss you very much! Well.your little sister will be here in 3 more months. I'm so excited and I hope that you are watching down on her. Daddy and I are doing much better, but most of all we miss you much. So keep watching over us, I love you baby girl!!
Saturday, September 9, 2006 - Mommie
Dear Mikey Jay
I just wanted to say how much I love you and that you are never missed. Even though your dad and I coudn't make it work after the lost of you. I still want you to know that I care for him. Your sister Brooklyn and I pray for you everynight. She has you picture next to her bed. Your brother Cole has your name and so does Cain and Maverick. This shows how much we love you and wish you were here with us today.
Friday, September 8, 2006 - Love your mommy Stacey
My angel Gracie.
I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and miss you. Words cannot even began to explain how much you mean to me. Not a minute goes by that I don't think about you. Tomorrow it will be 7 months since you left me to go to heaven. It seems like just yesterday. I would give anything to kiss your beautiful little cheeks or to hug you or tell you how much I love you. You are forever in my heart. I like you for always, I'll love you forever, as long as I am living, my baby you will be. Until I see you again. hugs and kisses.
Friday, September 8, 2006 - Mommy.

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