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Macho Man, Kaden
Hi baby!! my macho man!!! Your momma is thinking of you!! I miss you so much sweetheart. I'm here at work staring at your picture -- and remembering that tomorrow you'd be six months old. How i wish you were here!!! I'll be back tomorrow to write you some more. Hugs and Kisses!!!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007 - Love you always & forever, Momma
My baby boy's Kelvin and Lewis
Oh my angels mummy misses you so much im feeling so low right now and i so wish i could hold you bouth and never let you go i miss seeing them cute baby smiles i miss everything why did you have to leave us? i love so you so much my darling baby boys last time i wrote i was expecting your baby sister Well Evie is now 10 months old and full of beans she is such a litlte cutie when she is older i will tell her all about her big brothers like i tell Demi, Zoe and Joshua I miss you so much and i feel so angry at times i no i should not feel angry towards god but god has you in his care now and im your mummy im the one that should be looking after you . Kelvin it is neally 7 years since you grew your tiny wings and flew to the clouds i wonder what you and lewis would be like would you be in to spider man like most 7 year olds? Lewis you will be 2 years old soon on valentines day i hope you have a nice birthday in heaven sweetie and dont forget my angels i love and miss you so much night night baby boys mummy will wright again soon xxxxxxx
Tuesday, January 23, 2007 - Your loving mummy and family xxxxxxxx
Pretty Anjelique
OH my Sweet Pretty Girl. today you would have turned a year old. my love. OH how I wanted to have a princess party for you. How I wanted to take you and get pictures of you and have you have all beautiful little curls in your hair. OH my love. But I can't but hope that in Heaven they have dressed you up in the prettiest of dresses. My heart is so heavy. Mama is trying so hard my little one. but its so hard. why couldn't u stay here with me? I know who am I to question our Lord. you were only 2 1/2 months my little one. but you are inprinted in my heart and soul forever my little one. I wish I could get a glimpse of you and see how much you would have grown by now my little one. To see that beautiful smile again.Though I know you are watching Gabi, Isaac and Ram from above. Know that Mama has you in her thoughts everyday and with each of my heart beats. I miss you my little Pretty Girl.I LOVE YOU FOREVER I LIKE YOU FOR ALWAYS AS LONG AS I'M LIVING MY BABY YOU'LL BE. I send you a million kisses so at least one will reach you in Heaven***
Tuesday, January 23, 2007 - MAMA
My Sweet Angel Keira,
Hello Sweetie. How are you? I miss you so much. I kept thinking about the last time I held you and it hurts me. I wonder if you suffered. The doctors confirmed that when a baby suddenly dies this way, they feel no pain. Please give me a sign to let me know that you did not suffer. It breaks my heart as I was not there when you took your last breath. When I go into the room, I feel eerie and I still wished for there to be a miracle and I find you in your crib smiling. Please pray to give us strength and keep us safe under your angel wings. I love you always.
Monday, January 22, 2007 - Love, Mommy
my dearest carson
i know it has been a little while since i have written, but you know that you are in my thoughts every second of everyday. god i miss you so much i just keep hoping one day i will wake up and all this would have been some awful nightmare. mommy and daddy are doing alittle better. people have been great to us. but no matter what i would trade everything to have you back. we got your christmas pictures back and you looked so sweet and innocent i just don't understand.i hope you are playing with your brother up there austin mommy misses you too. i have both of your pictures up on the walls. i look at your sweet face everyday and just wonder if there was anything i could have done differently and maybe you would still be here. mommy and daddy miss you soooooo much i love you with all my heart and soul
Monday, January 22, 2007 - until you are in my arms again, mommy
Dearest Lil Pito
Hey my little big boy. I hope you are doing well. It Monday so work is pretty hectic around here but wanted to make time to tell you I love you and miss you very much. I know you look down and see us and know how much we miss you and need you. We try to be strong around others and end up crying in a room all alone. Yeah, I still do that. You are a very specail baby that everyone who knew you loved you and now that your gone even everyone that we speak of you to even loves you. I still can not grasp everything in time I guess things will heal but never forget. I had a dream about you the other night. I dreamed I went to Aunt Pegi's house to pick up Tyler and Tanner and there you were, sitting up on the floor chewing on a cookie with this big grin on your face. I woke up in tears. It was like the last day I got to see you before you got your wings and I picked you up and told you how big you are and just the cutiest face ever. I wish I could go and pick up the boys and you would be sitting there eating your cookie. We just miss you so much. Your number one birthday is just around the corner and I think I've been stressing it since the day you left. It will be a very sad day that we cant watch you eat all that cake and get it everywhere and open your presents,walking all around getting into everything.Well lil man, Aunt Carolyn's going to get back to work. Remember everyone loves and misses you so very much. Lots of hugs and kisses from all of us.
Monday, January 22, 2007 - Love Always and Forever, Aunt Carolyn
Our Son *AJ*
Hi Son, it's Monday, which means back to work for Daddy & I, We miss you so much hunnie! We talk about you everyday, and it still brings tears to my eyes! I miss you so much babe, and I know your brother Mykah misses you too! Wanted to stop by and say that we love and miss you AJ! You'll never be forgotten! You live thru us babe! Until we reunite in Heaven, take care and send our love to your cousin and grandpa! Luv you babes!
Monday, January 22, 2007 - xoxo Daddy.Mommy&Mykah
Dear Tyson
Hello Boy! well it's been a long time since I wrote but you still live in my heart. Good news mommy and I are back together and she is pregnant you will be having a little sis or bro. We are happy again well as happy as we can be with out you.I just changed jobs too so I don't have to go away for so Long mommy doesn't really like me writing to you and that is why I haven't in a while but I still love you she is just having a hard time dealing with loosing you she thinks it's her fault talk to you soon form one heart to an other.
Monday, January 22, 2007 - daddy
lazarus kaed taylor
hey sweets. howu doning? im great . wishing to see you again is easy but haveing the faith i will is harder than anything ive ever done! but i do it becauxe i know if i dont i wont see you again! so i leave you until next time love you huny
Monday, January 22, 2007 - aunty angel xoxoxoxoxo
Eric Jerome Street Jr.
Hi baby. I want you to know that I miss you and everyone else does too. You're still in my heart and I miss you so much. Love you always
Monday, January 22, 2007 - Auntie Alex
Dear Kyle,
Tomorrow would be your 16th birthday and its the hardest birthday to go by without you here.I think of how you would be getting your drivers liscense and going on your first dates and it breaks my heart that you are not here to experience these life changes. Its been so long since I held you in my arms but yet when I close my eyes and remember, I can almost feel you.Someday I hope to be able to wrap my arms around you again.I miss you everyday with every breath I take.
Sunday, January 21, 2007 - Love, Mommy> January 21,2007
Dearest Ashleigh
Honey I miss you. It is almost exactly a month (to the hour) that you took your last breath. I hate knowing that you are gone. I hate knowing that I will never see your beautiful smile again. You were so perfect in everyway - I was so lucky to have you for those 8 perfect weeks. I hope you are ok. I hope you didnt suffer. I love you with every bone in my body and every ounce of my soul Love FOEVER AND EVER AND EVER
Sunday, January 21, 2007 - Your Mummy
Keira Bach
Hello Sweetie. How are you? Today is five weeks since you received your angel wings and we are missing you more and more. We have been trying to do different things to help us feel as close to you as we possibly can. Daddy went and tattoos his arm with your beautiful name and angel wings. Daddy wants to share the life of his little princess with the world. He wants people to know your story, your love and the lives that you have touched. We miss you so much and the pain is still so great. Your big brother Dylan is also missing you. He constantly kisses your pictures. Please continue to pray for our family so that we may find comfort and peace. We love you with every beat of all our hearts.
Sunday, January 21, 2007 - Love, Mommy, Daddy & Dylan
Dear Bailey
i'm so confused. i want to talk to somebody about you. i want to tell somebody i'm suffering.but i just can't. i'm afraid mom won't understand. i mean i know she's sad too but their's different types of sad. if only somebody knew how i felt. but then again i wouldn't wish this pain on anyone. i really miss you. best wishes in heaven. XOXO =^o^=
Saturday, January 20, 2007 - love your sis, kenz
dear Bailey
hey Bailey. today has been hectic. i really miss you. not a day passes that i don't think of you. today i saw this saying and it reminded me of you. i wanted to cry. here it is; if tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane. i'd walk right up to heaven, and bring you home again. it's so sad and yet really sweet. i love you and miss you sooo much. XOXO
Saturday, January 20, 2007 - love your sis, kenz
lewis logan
hi lewis mummy here again still missing you and remebering youe blonde hair and chubby chops. a little letter to let you know i have had a tattoo for you on my arm maybe you can already see it from heaven im having them for people whp have left this world to join yours who i miss so much i do not visit your grave anymore and i know people think ive forgotton you but that is not the reason the reason is simple your in my heart and always will be not in the cemetary that is just your body not your spirit love you now and always mummy xxx
Saturday, January 20, 2007 - mummy
Ciara Rae
My little Sugie. Oh how I had such a terrible week. I had to leave work early one day and then didn't go into work another day. I also had a melt down in the middle of the department at work. The only thing that helped me was to go and lie next to you at the cemetary for about an hour. Did you hear me? I know I'm asking a lot from my little Saint, but I really need you to pray for mommy's heart and mind. Some days I feel like I'm going crazy. I think of all the things I would sacrifice if I could just kiss you and hold you one more time. Daddy had a dream that I was holding you but you were about 3 years old. You're 8-1/2 months right now. My big girl. Hugs and 100 kisses from mommy. Please come and visit me in my dreams. I really need that right now. I can't seem to concentrate on anything but you. That's okay though, just means that you must be nearby and thinking of me. I love you and miss you terribly.
Saturday, January 20, 2007 - Love mommy
Hayden Christopher,
well.it's been 1month and 2 days since you went to be with the angels. It hasnt gotten any easier. We miss you sooooo much. I have started working for Nana again to try and keep my mind off of things but you are always there. I think and ache for your touch every second of every day. I miss your soft cheeks and everything about you. I know that you are helping all of us to be strong but we would much rather have you here than there.I just wish that we knew why this had to happen.it isn't right and it isn't fair. Well baby boy i love you very very much and I will try to write again soon.
Saturday, January 20, 2007 - mommy
Jaycee Marie
Hi. Baby Girl, Daddy thought he would write you today. Mommy might be getting a new job here shortly, we hope. After you went to be with God she relized that she missed out on a lot of your life, because she had to work all the time. She is trying to get a job where daddy works at. Daddy woke up this morning with tears I had a dream about you last night, but all i could see was a picture of you. I wish i could of seen you insted. I really miss you doll face. My days just don't seem right anymore with out you here. I always feel glummy and that i am forgetting something. We are going to be moving in a few weeks, i happy and sad about it. We need to move so your sissy and bubba can have their own bedrooms but I don't want to because our memories of you are here at this home. Daddy is going for now i just wanted to tell you what has been going on in the last few days, i will write you again soon. Here are some XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
XOXOXOXO before i go. Love you Baby Girl.Love Daddy
Friday, January 19, 2007 - Daddy (Chris)
My Sweet Hailey
Hi baby girl. I'm so sorry I havent written you in such a long time. I think about you all of the time and lately can't get the day that you left us out of my mind. I want you to know that you will always be a part of me and your daddy no matter how much time goes by. You would have been two last month and i'm having such a hard time imagining what you would be like now and how beautiful you would be as my little two year old princess!! You're going to be a big sister in a few months now and I know you already know that but I wanted to tell you that you will be the best big sister in the whole world!! You will forever be my sweet little angel and the brightest sunshine to ever enter my life. Daddy wanted me to tell you that you are still one his most favorite girls and you always will be. We both miss you dearly and love you more than I could ever explain in words, but I know you see that! I hope you liked the teddy bears, the balloons, and the flowers we brought on your birthday. You always keep the butterfly around with you and that brought some comfort to know you were there with us! You have forever changed who I am tweety bird and I will never stop telling the world who you were and still are to me!! I miss you and love you so so much and I want to kiss you a billion times!! Watch over your little brother or sister for me ok sweet pea? I'm thinking of you always and I can't stop saying how much I love you and miss you!! Hugs and kisses from me to you tweety bird!!*** xoxoxoxoxox
Friday, January 19, 2007 - your mommy who loves and misses you so very much!!
Dear Bailey,
Hey girl. i know your b-day was last month. did you see me at your grave. i hope you like the flowers i sent. everyone misses you. especially me. i'm 12 now, almost thirteen. i don't know why but i've all of a sudden been having really bad dreams about the day you died. i know you and god are with me so i'll get through it. please don't worry. XOXO
Friday, January 19, 2007 - love your sis, kenz
Our Dearest Son AJ
I wanted to write you a thank you letter. To thank you for everything you have taught us, daddy and I. You have taught us more in 60 days then we could have learned in a lifetime. You have taught us to live life day by day. Also to never take life for granted and appreciate all that you have. You have taught us to see people differently, not to be judgemental, but to appreciate people as individuals. And to know that everyone carries some kind of greif in their lives. Because of you, we have learned that we cannot know or understand why people say or do the the things they do; and that in this world you may never understand. We have appreciate Mykah more than ever, you have taught us to love with all that we have. When you were here with us, I want you to know son that we loved you with all that we are. You have taught us that its okay to greive for you openly, although I only do it with my support group and daddy. He still the best kind therapy, talking to him about you everyday, has helped eased the pain a little. We have laughed and even started joking about the things we use to do with you. Watching Daddy trying to get you to smile, or laugh or even coo. We talk about you everyday, not only about missing you, but all our cherished memories of you, the day you were born, your first bath, remembering everything we did with you. We have also been able to cry together, letting you know that we still miss you son. People can judge us, but only YOU know how much we miss you and how much we're hurting. Only you know that you have reached down from heaven to give us the strength to carry on in life. Through your guidance, we know we can move on in life, one step at a time. We have realized that you would want us to live your life and not end ours. As long as we are alive, you live through our cherished memories mended in our hearts. Before ending this letter, I want to thank you for all that you have given to us for the short time you were here. Only you son, can know how you affected our lives. We miss you and we love you with every breath that we take and we will until our last breath. Nothing in this world can take away our pain. Until we are reunited in heaven again, we love & miss you AJ, our beloved son & brother!
Friday, January 19, 2007 - We Love You Always *Daddy.Mommy&Mykah*
*Nevaeh*
Hey baby girl!! I hope you are doing fine up there! Tell everybody I said Hi! Well as you konw Taveon is about to turn one years old. He is so big now, he is walking and trien to talk. Well baby girl Im about to go, I just stop by to say Hi and I love you and miss you very much!!!!!!!!!! I tell your mommy and daddy and your lil sister you said Hi and you you love them. LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
XOXOX
Friday, January 19, 2007 - * Auntie Kema*
Princess Keira
Hello Sweetie. Last night Daddy and I came across some of your videos. One particular video was recorded just 9 days before you received your angel wings. In the video, Daddy was putting lotion on you and at same time he was talking to you. Your legs and arms were moving all over the places and your tiny lips were making sweet baby sounds. You looked so beautiful, so healthy and so advanced for your age. We broke down and cried as we watched the video. Keira, we love you so much and miss you endlessly. You will always be in our hearts, in our thoughts and in our lives.
Friday, January 19, 2007 - Love, Mommy and Daddy
FRANCESCA DADEENA CONTRERA
GOOD MORNING MY SWEET BABY ANGEL. HAPPY 11MONTHS OLD. YOU ARE ALMOST 1 YEARS OLD!!! HOW EXCITING BUT SAD. I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE GOOD DAY DONT FORGET TO VISIT EVERYONE TODAY. IM SURE EVERYONE WILL BE TALKING TO YOU TOO. MY BABY GIRL I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE I ALWAYS TELL YOU. YOUR BIRTHDAY IS COMING PRETTY SOON AND ITS GETTING HARD FOR ME TO REALIZE ITS COMING. IM GOING TO TRY AND KEEP BUSY THAT WHOLE DAY AND TRY TO CELEBRATE THAT DAY. WELL BABY ANGEL I HOPE YOU REST TONIGHT CAUSE YOU HAVE A LONG DAY TOMORROW. ALWAYS REMEMBER I MISS YOU.
Friday, January 19, 2007 - MOMMY
Dear Dawson (Mommies Christmas Pooh )
Its been 5 yrs and not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts . I can still close my eyes and see your wonderful smile as clear as the day you were born .Your sister and brother are getting so big, Sissy is off to middle school this year and Bubba is heading in to 4th grade they miss you too. they often ask how old you would be now .Mommie just wanted to tell you she loves you and misses you very much . I hope when i wake every morning and see your picture and i tell you i love you that you here it . Because you are always with me pooh
Friday, January 19, 2007 - Love , Mommie,Sissy&Bubba
caden
hi little man i miss you so much there is not 1 day that passes i dont think of you i still ask why you you were so healthy and perfect we all miss you but 1 day ill get to see you again my love sister misses you alot i wish i could see you smile hear you laugh watch you play and hold you in my arms kiss you good night and kiss you good morning little man we miss you and love you lots the whole family does love you little man
Thursday, January 18, 2007 - mommy
My angel Gracie,
Hi sweetheart how are you? I miss you so much. I am so sorry it has been awhile since I wrote but the holidays just were really bad for me. I just didn't want to celebrate without you. I know they say life goes on and your in a better place but its still not fair. I can't believe its almost a year since you have gone to heaven, it stills seems like a bad dream and I will wakeup and all will be fine. The truth is I have now realized this is so real. I miss you, wonder what you look like with your wings and love those big blue eyes you have. I'll write soon.
Thursday, January 18, 2007 - Nana
Gracie
Just wanted to let you know i love you and I am thinking about you. I can't believe it has been 11 months already. I miss you more everyday.
Thursday, January 18, 2007 - Mommy
Hello Princess Keira!
It's been awhile since I wrote you a letter. I was just reading your Mommy's previous letters. This may be a coincidence, but I bet you had something to do with it. When I was reading the letter about the star your Mommy's and Daddy's friends gave them, a song just happened to come on and it went "Here's a night, and it shines. And it calls us on and on. So be here by my side, and watch the stars. They're ours. Make a wish or just take charge. The moment comes get lost and go far." The song is called The Everglow by Mae. I miss you so much and I think of you everyday. I put a picture of you on the cover of my binder and I talk about you to my friends EVERY SINGLE DAY! :) Do you see me looking at your picture in school and telling my friends how we are so fortunate to have an Angel in our lives? And most importantly how much you made a difference in my life? They really like the poem. But lately I think they may be a little annoyed of me so I've been keeping you more in my thoughts, but I still tell them all the wonderful things about you. Hehe. Did you want your koi fishes to be with you in heaven? heehee, I bet you're watching them swim around. Well, I better go back to studying for exams. I love you and pray for me to get an A on tomorrow's exams! Just kidding. Pray for your mommy and daddy and big brother DYLAN :)
Thursday, January 18, 2007 - Auntie Eden
My Sweet Angel Keira,
Hello Keira. It’s Mommy. It is still very cold. As I was driving home from work today, it was raining and it made me miss you even more. All day I thought about you and talked about you. I thought about the very last time I saw you and how beautiful you looked. Then, I started feeling very angry because I know that I will never get to see you grow, reach your many milestones and become a woman. My heart aches so much and I don’t if it will ever mend. When I came home, Daddy was watching your DVD photo slide show and he was crying too. His heart is also broken. I have always accepted that life is unfair but never to the extent of losing you. Some people said that we must have done something right in our lives because God have chosen us to be your parents and that He chose you to be His angel and to be our saint. We will never know why, will we? Perhaps, someday, somehow, our questions will be answered and we will understand. I love you so much, Keira. I miss you. Please pray to give us strength and keep us safe under your angel wings.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 - Always and forever, Mommy
MY DEAREST SWEET LITTLE PITO
Hi baby boy, I seem to always follow your Aunt Carolyn when I write to you lately. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. Words can never express the amount of pain and sorrow that we feel ever day without you here. I was reading a letter from a women name MICHELLE SPEELMAN that she wrote to all the families. I hope and pray also that she or anyone else has to ever feel the pain that losing one of the most precious and innocent gifts ever given to anyone feels. IT IS A PAIN THAT LIVES WITHIN US EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY. Yes, you do learn to find joy in some things in life again but for the most part it is the most tragic and painful thing I have ever had to live through. I do not know what I would do if I lost another grandbaby or even one of my own children now. You are never whole and you always have a longing that you can never fill. Jason is going to Iraq soon and I pray to God above to keep him safe and to send him home to us. I know you will help God watch over him. Your Gams could not take losing another gift in this life time. We are not suppose to out live our children or our grandchildren that is not the way it is suppose to happen. My arms long to hold you and I want to smell your sweet and wonderful smell that only you have. I miss you baby. I love you more then life itself. This is just such a cold a hateful world. No one should ever feel this kind of pain. Watch over us all and know that you are the most loved and missed baby ever. I love and miss you bunches. Tons of hugs and kisses from down here to up there for you from so many of us. Forever and a day. XOXOXOXOXOXOXO GAMS
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 - GAMS
Dearest Lil Pito
Hey my little big boy, its Aunt Carolyn. Missing you like always. I just wanted to tell you that we love amd miss you very much, I know you know that but it makes me feel better to somehow tell you. I hope you hear me when we talk to you and when Tanner plays with you. Last night I was giving him a bath and out of the blue he said he played with you at Aunt Pegi's house and I asked him if he got to hold you and he told me " no mommy , baby Pito is too big". I love the way he still plays with you. He's only 2 and I dont think he will ever forget about you. None of us will. Seven months with us was the most special time we will ever know in our lives. I still cant believe that your not here.And I still dont understand why this should of never happened to our family, to you. I feel like I lost a big part of my heart it will always have that missing spot that longs for you to be back with your mommy ,daddy, abuela and abuelo, with all of us.Well lil man Im going to get back to work. Keep playing with Tanner and remember always you are the most loved angel in the world.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 - Love Always & Forever, Aunt Carolyn
Alexis Kennedi
Hey baby girl what have you been up to? I haven't wrote to you in a few days. I miss you so much and I just try to stay busy so that I wouldn't be depressed. I know you are in a good place, but I just miss you bein here with mommy and daddy. I know I will get to see you again one day up there in heaven. I can't wait. You are so beautiful and I know you have to be the prettiest angel. I wish you would come a visit mommy in a dream sometime. I really want to see you so bad. You pray for you bubby or sissy that they will be a healthy baby and watch over them when they get here. I don't want nothing to happen to them. I wish you could be here to help me watch them but I know you are gonna be a great guardian angel for them. I talk about you all the time just like you are here with me. If I sit around and think about you the first thing that pops in my head is the mornin daddy woke me up to tell me to wake you up and I tried, but you were already in heaven and I just didn't wanna believe it cause I wanted you here so bad. I just kept askin God why did you take my baby and I know I wasn't suppose to ask God why but I couldn't help it and I still wonder why. You have a good mommy and daddy, but I guess he needed you up there cause you are just too pretty and such a good baby. Oh and tonight daddy's basketball team lost their first game. They have done good so far they have won 4 and lost 1 so that's not bad. You keep cheerin for them to win more games. I love you more than anything. I'm gonna go for now, but just pray for mommy and daddy to live right so that we can see you our beautiful little angel again one day. We love you so much and miss you more than we can say. Tons of Hugs and Kisses. Love you forever baby girl. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
xoxoxoxoxo
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 - Mommy and Daddy
My ANGEL of A NEPHEW AJ.
hello my cutie pis of a newphew. well i know life is great up there in heaven and that Papa and Uncle Ao are enjoying your presence. Well honey i never got to meet you but God know my love for you becasue you are my newphew. Always know we love you and to watch over Mommy and Daddy and us too okay! send our love to your papa and crazy uncle ao!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 - your AUNTy VAL
My phatdo AJ
Hi my angel. We miss you son more than words can express. I miss seeing you in your bouncer, with your brother Mykah. We're doing okay, just trying to get use to being back to work and all. I'm not really enjoying it though. Mykah is doing good, we're reading more with him and of course he enjoys it. He says he misses you out of the blue all the time. And I really believe he does. WE all do, daddy, mommy and Mykah. Life is okay, everyone always ask how I'm doing, and all I can say is that I'm okay. I miss you hunnie. I'm always wishing you here with us, especially your brother. Daddy is doing good, working a lot. We were in your room last night crying for you, wanting you with us son. Its still so hard, my body, mind and soul hurt for you son. Especially my heart, I feel as if it is still broken. I love you angel boy, more than you'll ever know. I just wanted to write this letter to you to let you know how much WE LOVE & MISS YOU AJ! OUR BELOVED SON & BROTHER -LOVE YOU AJ- *OUR GUARDIAN ANGEL*
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 - with ALL my LOVE -MoMmY
Macho Man, Kaden
How are you sweet angel? Just wanted to tell you that i finally packed up the holiday decorations that i brought for you. Put them all in a box for next year. Yes, every year, you will have your own christmas decor. Soon it will be Valentine's day. Auntie Jennifer and Auntie Amanda decorated the table for you with hearts and stuffed animals. It looks real cute!! The house seems so quiet now. Jennifer went back to school and your mommy, well she left to Atlanta days ago. It's just auntie Amanda and me. When everyone was at home i kept so busy I didn't have time for myself or to even think. Now that they're gone the sadness and the tears came back. Oh baby, when does it get better? I miss you and love you so much!!! You would be 5 months now. Oh how I wish I could hold you and cuddle with you and kiss you -- as much as i kissed Kaelyn when she was here. She has gotten sooo cute and she's gaining good weight. You would have probably been the chubby one. She eats babyfood now and loves it. She is a good baby.as I'm sure you would be if you were still with us. One day we'll be together again my sweet macho man.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 - Love you always!!!!! Momma
Aidan
Hey Boo grandpa fred again loving you missing you, its been awhile since I have written and for that I am sorry, but you know that you are never far from my thoughts, Things seem to be getting worse for me here, seems like I cant get my act together sometimes, but I keep trying. Got to see your mom this past weekend it was good to see her although every time she leaves it creates a big hole in my life I miss not having her nearby, but life goes on as they say. WHY I dont know why. I am tired and its starting to show seems like life has too far and between ups for me these days, Work then home and then the whole thing over again I am fed up with it all. I miss you smile and your giggle I play the recording of your laugh you left on my phone only a few days before you earned your wings, If I only knew. Well boo as you can tell today is not a good day for me I am really hurting inside, Hope one day to hold you in my arms again and see your sweet smile looking up at me again, I dont think god would deny me that at least I hope he doesnt. Well got to go promise not to wait so long in between letters. Loving you missing you.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 - Grandpa Fred
Jayce Castillo
Hello Son, Your A big 2 Oh heavens in trouble now!Honestly my heart still aches for you but instead of turning to a quick escape i now read the bible.I try to stay as busy as possible whiich is easy these days with your sisters.Eva reminds me of you .tell our father i trust in him and thank him for my angels all 3 of you!Do me favor i know your only 2 but daddy needs some help.he needs to heal and trust in the lord again,tell jesus daddy needs him and continue to strengthen him cause our family needs daddy to find peace&comfort in your returning home.never forget me bub i know it may seem i stay to busy but it's only cause i don't want to cry!i always look at your face and tell you i love you i hope you hear!heavens sounding sweeter everyday! god bless you sweet dreams and may the angels hold us tight and wake us with the morning light!lots of love,hugs,kisses and laughs!
Monday, January 15, 2007 - always and forever mommy
Jaycee Marie
Hi, Baby Girl It's been 16 weeks now since you've been gone and I can still hear those haunting words “that my baby girl is gone” plain as day. It feels like years have gone by since I’ve last seen your smile or seeing your chubby checks bouncing as I drive down the road in the truck. The thing I miss the most is just cuddling up with you and watching you sleep in my arms. I’ll tell you what little one don’t grow up to fast in heaven because when you and I reunite, I’m going to pick you up and never let you go, like I had to here on earth. People keep telling me that you are in a good place, but not the best place, because the best place for you is here with mommy and daddy. Jaycee daddy really misses you, I have never had to go threw anything that is so heart breaking as this. They say time will help this get easier, (I don’t think anything will ever make this easier to deal with). Daddy has to go baby girl…… Here are some XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
X Love you with all my heart Jaycee Love Daddy
Monday, January 15, 2007 - Daddy (Chris)
Hey My Lil Pito baby!!
Hey baby, it's mommy!! I just wanted to write a quick letter to tell you that I love and miss you sooo very much!! Daddy went back to work today and he is very tired and wore out!! He's doing good but missing you sooo much!!I hope that your doing ok up there!! I want you to do something for your mommy and daddy! Will you please do something to help your abuela, She misses you soo much, We all do, but she isn't doing to good!! So will you please just watch over her and help her in some way baby!! And please watch over your gams when she goes to the doctor!! I love you baby boy!! Goodnite!! Daddy sends his love and he is missing you bunches!! I love you baby boy!! Oh one more thing~ Please keep your Uncle Jason safe, He will be leaving for Iraq soon!! So please just watch over him and your Aunt Amanda and Cousin Nick!! Ok baby I love you and miss you sooo much!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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Monday, January 15, 2007 - Mommy
My Sweet Angel Keira,
Hello Keira. It's Mommy. Daddy and Dylan are still in bed. I am working right now. I just wanted to send you a quick note to let you know that I am thinking of you and that I miss you. It was so cold yesterday morning. We woke up with no running water as the pipes were frozen. Our Koi pond turned into ice. I think most or all of the Koi fishes are now in fish heaven. Luckily, the turtle that Aunt Thao gave to us survived. We stayed home most of the day. Later in the evening, our friends (Jason & Bren) from down the street came to visit and they gave us an Official Star Name Certificate in your name: Keira Huyen-Tran Bach. They told us that you are our shining star and will guide us always. The star is located in the Ursa Major Constellation at 11h34m06s 34d53m14s. We plan to go to Griffith Park Observatory in Los Angeles to look up the star. As always, we miss you and love you so much.
Monday, January 15, 2007 - Love, Mommy
Aidan
Hey little man! Well I know its been a really long time since I've written you. There are no excuses as to why. Even though I havent written doesnt mean that I dont talk to you in my thoughts and dream about you all the time. I see all these babies around and wonder what you would be like right now. The world is hectic right now and you were too pure to be apart of it all. I miss you so much. I miss you coming to visit.havent seen you in a while. Please come visit me soon. I've had alot of dreams about you. Mom is in California right now. Got to see Grampa this past weekend. I was really missing him alot. I see Nana alot since she only lives 45 miles away. We plan on re-doing your entire pond and garden in the spring. Your turtle is doing well, very active and getting big. Your great aunts and second cousins will be doing the SIDS 5k again this year, watch over them as they do this in your spirit. Your Nana and I didn't make it this year, things were really hectic. Thank you for watching over us. I still feel your prescense in Nana's house. Its comforting at times and hurts at others. We all miss you and love you so much. I love you Aidan with all of my heart and think of you always. Please come visit me soon. Love you!
Monday, January 15, 2007 - Mama
Ciara Rae
Good morning lil' Sugie. Oh what can I say that I haven't said a million times. We will be leaving for church in a few and then to the cemetary to visit you and your brother Paul. Dr. P thinks that I exert too much energy by going to the cemetary every day. He would rather I taper down to once a week but agrees it has only been 5 months since you left and thinks working on that should be my goal. We'll see. He knows how strong-headed I am. So he doesn't expect me to listen to him. Oh and I decided to finish school. I'm only two semesters away from finishing. I didn't go after we lost you because I really didn't care about much. I know your praying for me because I'm able to get out of bed everyday. I had a wonderful dream about you. I was able to kiss your soft lips and smell your sweet breath. I will always send 100 kisses and hugs to you everyday. My darling, Sugie, thank you for visiting me in my dreams. Please tell your brother that I await a visit from him too. His headstone should be in soon. It has been over a year that we lost him and that, too, hurts so much. He was such a good boy. My little Saint, please pray for mommy, daddy, and your two sisters. We love you so much and miss you terribly. Please continue to visit us in our dreams. I'll wait for you and you wait for me because I'll see you again.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 - Love mommy
Victoria Grace
Hey Baby Girl. How are you? Good I hope. You know I am going to be completely honest with you, Kennedy is 8 months old now, I was very emotional and picky until after she hit the 4 1/2 month mark thinking that if she made it through that then I would have her for forever, well, your Angel Day is jut around the corner and its the first one since she was born. I have never been so scared in my whole life. I have to go out of town with Mikayla this week to get her leg skin graphed and that worries me too. i wish I could bring her with me, but the hospital won't let me and its not fair.I always thought SIDS only takes little ones from their mommas but I been seeing more and more that were a bit older than you taken too and it terrifys me greatly. I don't know what to do. I just lost my job recently and started working at Kennedy's Day Care, maybe that will help some, I hope so. I really don't know what to do anymore, i am so scared. I wish I could touch you one more time, kiss you one more time, look into your pretty eyes just once more. WHY? How is grandma has she got you spoiled? I bet she does!She had me spoiled Gosh I miss her too. Well I need to close for now, But I will be back I promise, maybe Aunt Holly will come and see you too, wouldn't that be cool!!! I lvoe you little girl. One thing is for sure. you will definetly always be my "baby". I love you bunches and bunches. Be Good and kiss Grandma for me.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 - Momma
Keira Bach
Today is four weeks since you left to Heaven. It is still very difficult for Daddy, Dylan and me. Every morning and every night, we hold and kiss your clothes as if you are still here. We miss you so much and we don’t know how to deal with your passing. Everywhere we go, everything we do, we are reminded of you. Your passing has resonated among our families and friends and our lives will never be the same. As Dylan gets older, we will share with him everything about his baby sister and the many lives that she has touched. As always, pray to give us hope that we will find peace and happiness again.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 - Love, Mommy and Daddy
HELLO BOOGY BOY
I MISS YOU I KNOW I HAVE NOT WROTE YOU IN AWHILE BUT I AHVE BEEN TRYING TO KEEP BUSY. YOUR SISTER GOT A DOG AND SHE NAMED HER MISSY. SHE IS KEEPING MOMMY BUSY AND YOUR SISTER ADORES HER. I HAD TO GIVER HER ANOTHER PLAY BUDDY YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE HER PLAY BUDDY AND WELL YOU WERE NEEDED FOR SOMETHING ELSE. WELL YOUR SISTER WAS GOING THROUGH WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU THIS MORNING WERE YOU LISTENING. SHE SAYS,"ETHAN IS DEAD"? I SAID, "YES ETHAN WENT HOME WITH JESUS." YOU WERE CRYING, GRANDMA WAS CRYING AND GRANDPA HAD ME ON HIS LAP. SHE REMEMBERS LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY I CAN NOT BELIEVE SHE REMEMBERS IT THAT CLEARLY BUT YOU HAVE ONE SMART SISTER AND I HAVE A FEELING THAT SHE IS NEVER GOING TO FORGET MY SWEET BABY BOY AND HER SWEET BABY BROTHER AND WHAT HAD HAPPENED. I JUST FEEL SO EMPTY WHEN SHE TELLS ME THE WHOLE THING ALL OVER AGAIN I JUST FEEL LIKE I TOOK HER BROTHER AWAY BECAUSE I DID NOT DO A GOOD JOB. I WISH I WAS HOME THAT NIGHT. BUT I HAD TO WORK WHY? BECAUSE I HAVE TO MAKE MONEY. WELL THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING NOW WORKING AND I HAVE TO GO DO THAT SO I LOVE YOU BABY BOY AND YOUR SISTER LOVES YOU EVERYBODY LOVES YOU AND A THOUSAND KISSES TO YOU MY BOOGY BOY.
Saturday, January 13, 2007 - LOVE YOUR MOMMY
our lil pitos
well lil pitos its been a while since i wrote you. i have been extremely busy and have gone to write you a few times but never know exactly what to say. i guess you know that uncle jasons going to be going to iraq soon. please keep an eye on him. it scares me. its been 3 months now and you would have thought that it would get easier. well it hasnt. i think about you every day. i wish i could be there right now for your mommy and daddy they miss you so much. all of us miss you. keep an eye on mommy and daddy! love you lil pitos
Saturday, January 13, 2007 - aunt amanda
To All Gods Angels
I can not imagine the pain the families of all these babies feel. I just can't. It's been a long time since I cried the way I am right now. I pray for all the Angels and their families and I pray my 3 month old baby boy stays in my life. God bless you all, my heart aches for you. Michelle
Saturday, January 13, 2007 - Love From Michelle Speelman
My precious Jaycee Marie
Grandpa Tim and I visited your yard again today. I felt very guilty for not going there yesterday. Last night we had company, so it was hard for us to get away from home. I really miss you baby doll. I would give just about anything to be able to hold you in my arms and kiss your beautiful face. Some day we will be together and I'm afraid Grandma will not want to share you with anyone for a long time!!! My arms will be full with you,Carter and Kayleigh but I will hold you all and kiss you for all the years I will have been missing you!!! Gotta go for now. I will write again real soon.
Friday, January 12, 2007 - XO(XOXOXOXOXO Grandma Deb
Keira Bach
We woke up this morning and it was snowing. Who would have thought that it could snow, here, in Moreno Valley? If was so beautiful. We went outside to feel the snow and we felt as if you were right next to us . . . whispering in ears to continue to live for you, to enjoy life as it so precious and most importantly, that you are always with us. Somehow, we believe that you had something to do with the snow. You wanted Mommy, Daddy and Dylan to smile and to enjoy the beautiful yet rare falling snow. Thank you, Keira, for reminding us that it is OK to smile and to live. We love you so much.
Friday, January 12, 2007 - Love, Mommy, Daddy & Dylan
My Dearest Sweet Pito,
Hi big boy. How are you doing? I sure do miss you. I know it has been 2 weeks since I wrote but that does not mean I have not missed you or love you any less. Ever had one of those days where you feel like the cards are just stacked against you? I know you haven't but it has been that kind of day for me. Your Uncle Jason is being sent over to Iraq real soon and I just can't believe that one more thing can be placed on our plates right now. We are all still trying to get over losing you and I just can't lose my son now over some stupid war that makes no more sense then you having to leave us so soon after we got to love and meet you. Some days this is a very mean and nasty world. That is the one thing I can be thankful for is that you will never know just how bad. Your mommy and daddy miss you soooo much. As does all the family you left behind. I have alot of anger still in my heart and alot of hurt and pain that some days I feel like it is eating me alive but I can't figure how to get over it. I love and miss you so very much. Please watch out for us all down here. Give us some sign that will give each of us our own comfort knowing you are there watching over us and listening to us. Tons of hugs and kisses coming to you from down here. I love and miss you ALOT!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO Forever and a day!!! GAMS
Friday, January 12, 2007 - GAMS
My Dear Lil Pito
Hey my little big boy. Its now been 3 months and 5 days since you had to leave. And it hasnt gotten any easier. Not one day goes by when I dont think about you, not even one minute. We all miss you so much. I wish I could see your smiling face and hear your big boy laugh again.Your cousin Heather had her little baby yesterday. It is a Boy! Im sure you already knew that. We got to see him and even though it was a happy moment I also was sad. Seeing him just making me want you more. I hope your watching after your mommy and daddy, as much pain as I feel I will never be able to imagine what they are going through.You will always be a big part of our family we will forever love you and cry for you. I think Im just going to have to deal with it.One day I will understand why you had to go but not know I cant. We love you and miss you so much.
Friday, January 12, 2007 - Love always and forever, Aunt Carolyn
My Sweet Angel Keira,
It’s Mommy. I am missing you so very much. It has been almost four weeks since your passing and there are no words to describe the depth of my pain. The more I think about what happen to you, the more it hurts . . . the more I feel guilty. I just want to know why. Why you? Why my precious Keira? I am trying to be strong for Daddy and Dylan but sometimes it is so difficult. Sometimes I want to lock myself in the closet and just cry. I feel as if I am slowly withering away because the pain is too much. It hurts to accept that you gone and that I will not hold you again. Daddy and I talk about you all the time and how much we miss your smiles. The memories we have of you are still so clear yet you are not here. Dylan is getting so big. He loves to read, play tea party and climb the stairs. Every time he climbs the stairs, he tries reach for your picture. He loves you, Keira and he misses you very much. I love you, Sweetie and I look forward to the day that I will hold you again. Keep us safe and visit us in our dreams.
Friday, January 12, 2007 - Love, Mommy
Joshua
Hey babydoll, I miss you oh so much. I sometimes wonder how different my life would be if you were here. So many things happened as a result, but I miss you so so so so much! I think about you every minute and I havent taken off the necklace Granny gave me over a year ago with your name on it. I cant beleive it has been 18 months since i saw your smile or kissed your sweet face. I love you so much and dream of you all the time. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Thursday, January 11, 2007 - Mommy
lazarus taylor! my joy bean!
hey sweet. how you doing? im doing okay im just really stressed out. it would so nice to seee you right now! your sister is haveing lots of problems. shes really sick and grandma is freaking out becuz shes the same age you were wen you left us. were all very scared.! we cant lose another baby like you or another one preiod! omg baby i miss you so bad! anyways im srry i cant talk for long grandmas watching me lol ttyl. love you more than ever! and always! xoxoxoxox
Thursday, January 11, 2007 - aunty angel
Momma's Victoria Grace
Hi there!!! I thought about you a lot today. Kennedy is doing things now that I never got to see you do. I wonder if you are okay all the time and wonder if God thought I couldn't handle a fourth baby especially being with your Daddy. We are together anymore. you know that though I am sure. Adam is your step daddy and I am sure he would love to love you bunches too. His Brother is in Heaven with you too. He is name is Quinn. Have you seen him? He likes video games so if there are some in Heaven I am sure that is where he would be. It's almost been 4 years gosh is that really possible? Please send me a sign that you remember me Baby please. I will write more later, I love you Bunches and bunches. love you
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 - Momma
Alexis Kennedi
Hey baby girl it's mommy. I just wanted to tell you I miss you so much and I love you more than anything. I was just looking at all your pictures. You are so cute. I bet you are even more cute now. I wish I could see you. Mommy is gonna go for now, but I love you forever.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 - Mommy
My precious Ky~Ky
Wow baby, it has been along time since i have been here and since i wrote you a letter. i started working. i guess it is ok. i miss you like crazy though baby girl. you don't even know. and the ladies i work with have asked alot about what happened and all. and some of the sherriffs that come in were the ones who responded the morning you left me, its all i can do to help them, but usually i refuse to help them i have who i am working with do it instead. i still hate them baby, i know i need to forgive them but i just can't. my heart breaks everytime they come in. just knowing that it was that jerk who wouldn't let me kiss you goodbye, kills me and i have to just walk away. i think thats why it has been so hard lately baby. Nici is getting so big now, she is almost 1 already! she looks so much like you. and she has alot of your personality. she just likes to have fun. and baby please say special prayers for Sylvia, i don't know what is going on with her. she is soo tired lately and just doesn't seem to be her self. im really worried about her hunny. she is my everything and i am so scared that the drs are missing something. but man she is a character!! she always says " i some muh~more" it is soo cute! and every thing is a cracker to her lol. she says so many off the wall things that she just has us rolling. i can't believe she is already 2 years and 3 months old! time has flown by. and whenever we go to visit you she gets so happy and says "we go ky~ky?" and she always kisses your stone. and says ' hi kylee' its like she knows who you are. and she will be playing and say " i love you big big kyky" but i have known since she was really little that you have been with her, just the way she you look up and say hi and start laughing. mitchell is still really angry that you are gone. i don't know what to do for him. it just breaks my heart to see him so upset all the time. cheyanne stil really misses you, she cries alot still. i just wish i knew what to do for them baby. counseling doesn't seem to do any good. it just made mitchell even madder, and chey more withdrawn. daddy still can't talk about the day you left us. and i can understand that. i just wish i had someone i could talk to. i just miss you so much baby. we all do. you were, are and forever will be loved tremendously. forever and always baby.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 - forever and always an eternity and more. Mommy
Victoria Grace
Hi Baby, Gosh it has been so long since i have written to you and I am so sorry. I think about you everyday. You have a little Sister now, Her name is Kennedy Hope and she is 8 months old. Your Big sisters talk about you all the time. They miss you too. How is Gran? Are the two of you staying out of trouble in heaven? I can't beleive you would be 3 almost 4 that doesn't seem possible. Your Dad still hasn't returned your ashes to me.If he ever does I promise I'll never let him get a hold of them again. I still have my bracelet though. It hasn't come off since the day i got it. I love and miss you millions.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007 - Momma
My Baby Gabrielle
The holiday's came and went the saddest part of the year. I wish you could have been here to see lights everywhere. I'm sure you would have loved. They reminded me that you were shining fom up above. They twinkled like your eyes and the colors were so bright. Thier beauty showed me you, in heavens twilight. I miss you so much and I wonder why did you have to go so soon without a word of goodbye. In the things I'll miss the most are what we never got to do. I love you angel and I miss you. If there was a way I could see you one more time I'd do whatever it took to see your beautiful smile. I'd climb every mountain and cross every sea. I'd walk across fire and burn my feet. I'd swim across the oceans and battle everything if only I could see you smiling once again. There are no limits to the things that I would do just for a glimps of beautiful you. Love always and forever,I Love You Gabrielle.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007 - Love, Mommy
my sweet jordan
why is it that some days are harder than others? how come some days I can function and almost manage not to think about whats happened. These last few weeks I have missed you so much. Its been over a year now. It seems so unreal. We love you so much. Sissy talks about you everyday. It hurts so bad sometimes to hear her talk about you like you are still here. I wish you were. We love you buddy.
Monday, January 8, 2007 - Mommy and Andrea
My Sunshine Girl
Autumn Renee, Hello its momma. Its been almost seven months since you passed away, and it feels like it just happened yesterday. Baby girl, I feel as if I failed you. You see your father and I are no longer together. Him and man man are all I had left and now I have no one. Your father and I just couldn't make it work after you left, we tried, I tried so hard and I failed, I lost my whole family now. First you, than your dad, and now also my step son. I am so sorry, I feel as if I have failed you.Honestly though it was our love for you that kept us together so long. I just feel so lost and I know this is the best thing for the both of us, but I am truley having a hard time with this. Because first of all, I feel as if I failed as a mom and now I failed only seven months later with my family together. I just don't understand. Haven't I been through enough with loosing my first child and now the other half that made you is gone. I could look at your father and see you. You have his eyes, forehead, nose and ears, and I knew you were going to be tall like him too. This was because of how fast you were growing in the first few months that you were alive. I miss you so much and I am so sorry that your father and I couldn't stay together. Just know that we both love you larger than life and can not wait until the day that you are in our arms again. I love you my sunshine girl. Love you kisses and hugs
Monday, January 8, 2007 - Your Momma
Keira Bach
Today is three weeks since you left to Heaven. Not one day has gone by that we don't think about you and how much we miss you. Have you notice how Dylan has been kissing your pictures? He does not bump head with your pictures anymore. He now knows to kiss with his lips. He is such a character because whenever he hears music, he dances and waves his arms in the air. We can picture you to imitate your brother and to follow him every where. As always, we love you with all our hearts.
Monday, January 8, 2007 - Love, Mommy and Daddy
Jaycee Marie
Hi, Doll. Daddy went to your yard today and I said that I would write you when I got home. I tell you what baby girl you’re so deeply missed by everyone. Mommy and Daddy are so confused that we can't think right. You’re always on our minds, we wonder what it would be like if you were still here with us. You would be 6 months old and crawling all over the place or trying to. We had you for 3 months and have many memories of you but, memories are not enough. I sit and hold your blankets and smell them, looking at your pictures. It helps remind me on how blessed we were to have you in our lives even for a short time. Your sissy is having a hard time understanding why we have to go to your yard to see you, she sees your pictures on the computer and sits and talks to them, telling you that she loves you and misses you. Bubba understands that you are not coming home but, don’t understands why. They both really miss you. Well baby girl daddy is going to go for now, so here are some XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO before I go. Love you so much and missing you deeply. Love Daddy
Sunday, January 7, 2007 - Daddy (Chris)
My Little Pito Bird,
My dancin' machine, I am just sending you a quick I love you, because I am too sad to write today. Today is the number you didn't wake up on. And now it's 3 months already, and I still want to come home and find you waiting, not in your walker anymore because you don't need it to get around, it would be so wonderful to walk in and see you in mommy's lap, then when the door opens you sit up straight and then slide down out of your mommy's lap and toddle over to give me a hello abuela hug. I love you so much. I miss you so much. Feel my hugs wittle pito, I send them to you all the time.
Sunday, January 7, 2007 - I love you, Abuela
Alexis Kennedi
Hey baby girl it's mommy. I was sitting here thinking about you and how much I miss you. Mamaw let me look at the scrapbook she made for you. It's almost done. I couldn't finish looking at it cause I started crying. I don't understand why still. I don't ever guess I will. Mamaw kept baby Jazmyn yesterday she is 2 weeks younger than you and she is getting chubby. I bet you would have out grew her by a long shot. Mommy misses you so much and I just want to sit here right now and hold you in my arms. I had a dream the other night that you were crying and I picked you up and you was fine you just wanted to be held. I go for an ultrasound on Jan. 24th. In a way I'm excited and then again I'm still scared because of what happened to you. I only got to keep you for 6 weeks and that just isn't long at all. I don't want it to happen again. My heart is broken and I don't know if it will ever be back to normal until I see you again. They told me my due date is around July 17th and you would be a year old on Aug. 31st. I'm going to send you some balloons on your birthday so be looking for them. I'm going to make a scrap book for you too so that your brother/sister can know you. I'm going to tell them all about you. They will love you so much even though they don't get to see you. They will know that you are their guardian angel. Take good care of them for mommy and daddy while they sleep. I love you so much and I just can't tell you how many wishes that I have to hold you and be here with us. I know all wishes don't come true, but I sure do wish they could. Well, mommy is gonna go for now, but I love you forever. Tons of Hugs and Kisses. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Sunday, January 7, 2007 - Mommy
Ciara Rae
My darling Sugie. I can't believe that it will be 5 months since you left us. You're 8 months old now. It's hard to deal with the fact that you have been gone longer than you were with us here on earth. I still visit the cemetary every day. I miss you and your brother Paul. It was one year December 23rd since his accident. I know that you two are with grandpa Ramon and that is the only thing that allows me to get through each day. Mommy misses you so much and sends hugs and 100 kisses every day. I sing your song every day and wonder if you hear me. My little Saint, please pray for those who have lost children. It is the hardest thing to be dealt in life but somehow we manage. I believe it is all those little Saints in heaven, like you, who pray for us. I long to kiss your soft lips and smell your sweet breath. You wait for mommy and daddy because we will meet you in heaven. I promise.
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - Love mommy
My Dearest Keira,
Tomorrow will be exactly three weeks since you left to Heaven and we miss you so much. I keep asking why you, why us. I guess we will never know. I can still feel you around me especially when I hold your clothes and blankets. The scar from the c-section is still healing yet you are gone. The images of how we found you are still clearly in our thoughts. Our hearts are in pieces and I don’t if they will ever mend. There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t cry. Even though Dylan doesn’t quite understand what is going on, he knows that you are his baby sister and that he misses you so much. He constantly kisses your pictures. Please know that we love you very much and one day, we will be together. As for now, please watch over us and guide us so that we may have strength to continue.
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - Love, Mommy
My Big Papi, Kaden
Hey there. It's been awhile since I wrote you but it doesn't mean that I don't think about you. I think of you every single day. Daddy, your sisters & I visited Momma in NJ last week. We had a great time but wished you were physically here. The girls got a lot of Christmas presents & you got some too! :) Today, it's been 4 mos since you got your angel wings & it feels like it was just yesterday. Kaelyn is getting so big & fat. I always wonder how big you are right now. I'm sure you're waaay bigger than she is. lol Kaden, I miss you so much. You are always in my heart and on my mind. I love you everyday, Papi!
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - A billion Kisses & Hugs, MOMMY!
To My Babychelle,
Today has been a hard day for Mommy. Two months ago today you went to Heaven. I miss you so much. This past Wednesday you turned 3 months old. It seems just like yesterday I was holding you in my arms. The song we use to always dance to is on the radio right now. Autumn there is not one day that goes by that I don't think about you. You are always on my mind. Mommy just found out in the 28th of December that I am having another sweet baby. But Autumn I want you to know that there is nothing in this world that will ever replace you. I am going to come and visit your grave here soon. I love you and miss you very much!
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - With lots of love, Mommy
Kaden,
Hi boo boo! The sun is shining beautifully today.I'm thinking that could only mean you're up there smiling and having fun with all the other babies. You are never forgotten and Auntie will always miss and love you! Keep watching down on all of us ok? Everyone is doing well. Actually, your sisters were here a few days ago and they're all getting so big. Kaelyn just smiles all the time. Mackenzie cracks me up with her cute ways and Nadia is just growing up so quickly. They miss you dearly and never deny having a brother even though you are no longer with us. Have fun up there baby boy! Until we meet again.muah!
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - Auntie Jennifer
Keira Bach
Today has been extremely cold and windy. Daddy turned on the fireplace. I wished that you were here to sit with us. I watched the slideshow that Aunt Eden prepared for your service and it brought back so much memories. From the very first time that I held you in arms at the hospital until the day that I held you in my arms when you were baptize . . . so many beautiful memories to cherish in a very short period time. Daddy, Dylan and I talk to you every day. Do you hear us? We kiss your pictures all the time. Can you feel us? It is still so unreal. People tell us that you were too good for this world, that you were only meant to grace into our lives for 76 days and that you were destined to be an Angel. They said that we should be blessed that we have Angel and I believe that we are; however, the pain remains, the tears continue, and the anger consumes us. So, please continue to pray for Mommy, Daddy and your big Brother Dylan. We miss you every day, every moment. We love you forever.
Saturday, January 6, 2007 - Love, Mommy
Our Dearest Lil Pito
Hey my lil big boy its Aunt Carolyn just sitting at work and thinking about you. Happy New Year! Its just not that Happy it means another year without you here to celebrate all the holidays with us again.We miss you so much. We went to Aunt Becky house and ate lots of food and you know you Aunt Carolyn can eat enough for the both of us. We had a fire and Tyler, Tanner and Chris lit some fireworks. I hope you seen them up there. I remember the last time we did fireworks at Aunt Jemo on July 4th you were 4mths old. When your mommy and daddy got there you were fast asleep and your mommy told us not to wake you but you know as soon as she walked outside we were tickeling your feet and waking you up fighting which one of us will get you first. Outside all those noisy fireworks going off you went out there and looked in amazement at all those bright colors and loud noises. They didnt scare you a bit.You were always so smart learning everything so fast you are a special baby boy and now we all know that.Tanner is still playing with you. Sometimes I wonder if you are really there playing with him.Hes so serious about playing with you it makes me smile and sometimes cry but thats ok I feel special that my lil boy has the most perfect lil angel watching over him.I love and miss you.
Friday, January 5, 2007 - Love always and forever, Aunt Carolyn
My Sweet Angel Keira,
Hi Sweetie. Today was an emotional day for Mommy and Daddy as we visited your pediatrician. Your big Brother Dylan has an appointment. It was our first time back since you left to Heaven. Everyone asked about you and it was very hard for us to talk about what happen. As usual, Dylan was so scared of the doctor. Do you remember how upset he was when you received your shots? You know . . . there isn’t a day that we don’t think about you. Earlier this evening, we went through your closet. You have so many beautiful dresses and little outfits . . . most of them still with tags. You also have lots of cute little purses, shoes and hats. And the diapers . . . you have packages and packages of Huggies and Pampers. Don’t forget the lotions, shampoos and baby wipes. What are we going to do with all your things? Mommy and Daddy are still very hurt and sad that you left to Heaven but in a way, we are at peace as we know that you were meant to be our family Saint. Please pray for our family. We all miss you and love you so very much.
Thursday, January 4, 2007 - Love, Mommy and Daddy
My precious Jaycee Marie
Hi sweetie just wanted to tell you I love you and miss you so much. Grandpa Tim and I visited your yard today (and almost every day) your mommy and brother and sister pulled up right behind us. Guess it was another day with lots of visitors for you precious baby. We all miss you and visiting your yard gives us the feeling of being close to you. Your dady says we have to start watching where we walk on your yard the grass is getting very trampled down. If it looks that way in the spring we will reseed it.XOXOXOXOXOXOX
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Thursday, January 4, 2007 - Grandma Deb
Macho Man, Kaden
I continue to call you my macho man - I hope you don't mind. I've been calling you that since the day your mom told me she was having a boy. They say that boys are more attached to their moms.i wouldn't know since I only had girls but I still day dream of you all grown up and coming to check up on me, your grandma.or take me to the grocery store or for a walk when i got older. So, you're stuck with that nick name.even if you're not here with us, you will always be my macho man. I sometimes just close my eyes and imagine what you would look and be like and i see this almost perfect grandson.and I only say almost because I know no one really is.but in my thoughts you come darn close. Well, I guess now that you're in the heavens you really are perfect. My perfect little macho man. I love you so much and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. The Christmas holidays were very nice. It was great having your sisters, your mom and your dad over. But in my heart - and i'm sure in theirs too - there was something missing. It was you!!! We were all missing you. There were so many gifts under the tree for the girls and they had so much fun opening them and making a huge mess. It was again -- almost perfect. I wish you had been there too to open your gifts. I'm sure you know this, but Santa did bring you Christmas gifts. One was left unwrapped.don't really know why. I guess I was trying to convince myself that you would be able to see it. The others are wrapped and still laying by your picture on the table I had set up for you. Some Christmas day, when I'm able to let go, I will give all the gifts to a child that will need and enjoy them. For now, I plan on asking Santa to continue bringing you gifts.to you my perfect little macho man. Will write you again soon my love. Know that i'm thinking of you always and love you alot.as your sister Mackenzie says . "I love you everyday"
Thursday, January 4, 2007 - With all my heart, Momma
Alexis Kennedi
Hey baby girl it's mommy. We went to the doctor today and we got to hear the heartbeat. I know you heard it too, but we couldn't see you. I wish we could see you. I love you so much and you will always be mommy and daddy's baby girl. We love you more than anything in the whole entire world. Tons of Hugs and Kisses. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Wednesday, January 3, 2007 - Mommy and Daddy
Keira Bach
Hello Keira. It's Mommy again. Tonight there is a full moon. It is cold but beautiful. I had a busy day at work today. I am trying to catch-up with all my e-mails and contracts. It is very hard to stay focus because I can't stop thinking about you and how much I miss you. Right now, Daddy and Dylan are eating carrot cake and watching TV. Dylan is so active. He loves you so much. You two look so much alike. By the way, he is still playing tea party with his blocks. If only you were here to play with him. Since you left to Heaven, I see how lonely he is and it hurts so much. Daddy and I still walk by your crib. We always kiss and hug your clothes and blankets. We can still smell you. I spoke to Grandma earlier today. She misses you too. She said that she cannot believe that you are gone . . . it doesn’t seem real. She looks at your pictures every day. Please talk to Grandma in her dreams. I love you, Sweetheart.
Wednesday, January 3, 2007 - Love, Mommy
lazarus kaed taylor
hey baby. how you doing up there? i saw aunty korey wrote you it was probley nice talking to someone besides me lol.well your sis is good shes getting so big shes almost the same age as youwere wen you left us. in about a week she wil be 3 months old. shes so cute but she can never fill that place in my heart that you still sit in all day and all night! i hope you hear me at night wen i cry your name and wish you were here. i want to see you and hold you again so bad i would give my whole life just to hold your hand one more time! you were our little gift and now i just wanna scream out your name to the whole world and tell the world wat was all about you. and how you changed this world and how you changed everyones life that saw you or even feel your presance now. and by the way you havent seen me in my dreams anymore . i wish you would so bad. i dunno maybe im just not rembering them. well will you ask god to give me remberance of you all the time. all i can see is how you were the last time i saw you witch want a good sight for me 2 see . it hurt so bad to see you like that . i know you wernt in pain but it hurt so bad ya know. well enough with the negativeity lol. i just wrote to tell you i love you so much and i will never lose that!!!! never!!!!!!!! youwere ours and you always will be! forever and always
Wednesday, January 3, 2007 - aunty angel
Dear Hayden,
How are you little man? Hope all is well for you.Mommy misses you more than words could ever say.I wish that I could be with you right now. This has been the hardest 21/2 weeks of my life baby. I dont know what I am supposed to do or say anymore. Alot of Daddy and Papa's friends from work took donations in your name to help pay for stuff and you would be sooo proud of the results. Alot of people Love you and miss you Bubba. Daddy is doing ok and he has been taking care of me and Hailee and Hannah are missing you too. They have been covering up with your blankets and talking about you all day. We all miss you sooo much. I just hope that you know how much you are loved. I am going to go see you today and bring some of your toys if I can. I sleep with your blue bear and your softie blanket EVERY night. I would much rather have you though. Well Sweetie I Love you and I will talk to you soon.
Wednesday, January 3, 2007 - Mommy
Joseph August Cardinal (Joey)
Hi Joey!It's the new year and mommy has been missing you lots lately.I've been reading nice poems all evening for comfort.There are no tears in heaven,just on earth,so I know you're happy and safe in the arms of God. Knowing this gives me great comfort too.You are a beautiful baby that left me with beautiful memories.Always remember that your Mommy loves you lots and lots!I know your great grandfathers are delighted to be with you and the twins,and this thougt makes me smile!Some day I will be reunited with all my babies.I love you all! XOXOXO
Wednesday, January 3, 2007 - Mommy
Keira Bach
It’s getting late and I cannot sleep. I am missing you so much. I cannot express in words the pain and hurt that has consumed us since your passing. The more I think about you the more it hurts. Daddy and I had so many dreams for you. There were so many places that we wanted to take you and so many things we wanted to share with you. Daddy was waiting for that special day to walk you down the aisle and to dance with you. I was waiting for you to wear my wedding dress. Daddy cried again earlier today. Did you hear him? As he cried, he kept saying, “Where is my little girl?” “I want my little girl.” Keira, we love you so much, Sweetie. Please pray for us. Give us strength to heal. Protect our family and keep us safe. Guide us so that we may continue in our faith.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007 - Love, Mommy
My Sweet Angel Keira,
Hi Sweetie. Today is my first day back to work since you left to Heaven. I am hoping that work will help me get through the day. Please know that I am not trying to forget about you . . . that will never happen. Forever you will always be in my heart. Last night, I heard Daddy cried while talking to you. Please comfort him and let him know that you are OK. We all miss you so much and it hurts. I love you.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007 - Love, Mommy
Jaycee Marie
hey baby girl aunt chel wanted to tell you i love you and miss you like crazy its now the start of 2007 forever in my heart will by 2006 so many memories will never be forgotten it is our hearts that you live in forever i am here at your house watching heather and justin they talk about their sissy all the time we all love you honey please look down from heaven and smile so we know you are ok lots of love millions of hugs and kisses
Tuesday, January 2, 2007 - aunt chel
My Little Pito Bird,
Hey wittle stinker! You should be going on 10 months now and if you were to keep progressing the way you were going you should be walking and talking all over the place now. It is New Year's Eve, and your abuela has not really celebrated this holiday for several years, I don't like how it marks another year gone by, forever gone, can't have that time back, no do overs. Since I am getting older the time in between the new years seem to be going by faster and faster, since you are not here for abuela time anymore I know how precious time is at a much higher level than ever before. But let me tell you something, my little hop toady, I was looking forward to this year and all the years after, because you did that for me! Just like when your daddy and your Tia Lyndsy were kids, I celebrated life with them, every holiday I could think of. I want to do that with you too, I can only do that with you in my heart and memories. Your Tia Becky and Tio Victor are having a big old bash over at their house today. Ham, turkey all the good food that I am sure you would love to get your chubby little fists around. Tanner would be crowding you, because he loves to play with you, and you would be loving it, following along and being the cutest little copy cat! Laughing out loud, with your goofy little deep chuckle, that always brought a smile to anyone listening. I think you might even try to run, Tio Victor's yard is a fun yard with swings, a dog house, trampoline and just enough wide open space that I am sure you would be running from one adventure to the next, safely falling in the grass and pushing your chunky little self up and going again. I love you, I LOVE YOU! So much, you still bring joy to me. I talk to everyone about you. I want to take some new pictures of you, you are probably so much taller by now, I mean it's been over 3 months, and in baby time that is a long time, in abuela time missing you that seems like years. Your Tia Pegi gave me a beautiful hanging angel a little while ago, and it's so beautiful, one of my favorites, I have it hanging above my computer, it helps me to remember that you are in heaven with the angels, what a grand thing for you. Knowing how you loved going to new places, just looking around taking in all the new things. It must be amazing for you. I still would rather you were here with us, but I know you are happy beyond what we here know as happiness, but I am only a simple old abuela who has such a powerful love for you that I selfishly want you to have never left. I'm just an imperfect human being, that loves and misses you so much. To get on with the New Year's Eve festivities, I am sure that I would have to be greedy with you, to get to hold you while your daddy and mommy set off some fireworks, as it got dark. I can see your perfect little face tilted upwards, with the reflection of sparkling lights in your eyes. Eyes so wide open and filled with amazement. I would teach you the word, "Wow!" as we both pointed towards the night sky. It's a very warm season this year, so you would be so dirty, because if you can't get dirty it's not really fun. Both you and I would be bare footed and I would be panicking about you stepping on the embers of the fireworks and burning your little Flintstone feet. I am sorry but I would probably have to insist you wear shoes if you wanted to walk around, just this time. 2 or 3 minutes before the 10 second count down it's time to pass around the pots and pans, yep, getting close to time for the big pots and pan run. Take your big spoon and run around banging and clanging yelling "Happy New Year!" to all the neighbors. One of the few times we can disturb the peace without getting in trouble. I think you may have that little look of confusion on your face, probably thinking, "what is up with these crazy kids?" Tarra holding Hayley, would come up and urge you to join in, and you know what? You would! You are so cute joining in that the joy of watching you would overwhelm me and I would cry, sheer happy tears. Your daddy would be helping you hold that big old pot, and the 2 of you would be moving around the street, mommy would be on the phone with your Gams, so you could yell "happy new year" into the phone, and I, well I would be wishing every one happy new year, because of you little man. I wouldn't dwell on the year that has passed, I would be aiming for the future, looking forward to all of the new things you would do and see and smell and taste, just having you near experiencing life is why I would be celebrating. Now I am stuck again with the attitude that a year is gone, and all I have for the future are reflections of the last year. You, my beautiful Little Pito Bird, every thing about you makes my heart swell with pride and love. I was so proud of what good parents your daddy and mommy were. Proud of how darn cute you were, proud of how quickly you learned to do things, proud yes proud even that you realized what the television was and had already shown a definite preference to what shows you liked. You had already picked a favorite color, a favorite toy. Your favorite pastime, being a hop toady of course! I think you were becoming fond of going outside also. I know it was one of my favorite things to do with you, since your abuelo got the lawn furniture, I loved to take you outside and sit in the lounge chair and just hold you, while both of us looked at the clouds, and watched the dogs run around. Remember the day we saw the squirrel in the palm tree, and Moya just sat there still as stone waiting to chase him back up the tree every time he tried to come down. Oh my, how I do miss you. Every thing I try to do makes me think of you. I spend all day noticing things I think you would love, and yearning to be able to show them to you, watch your reaction, touch you, chew on your little fat hands tickling your palm and you busting up with belly laughs. I want to hug you and kiss you and blow raspberries on your belly. I do that every day in my thoughts, can you feel them wittle guy? I hope you can, I have been wanting to dance with you lately. I miss dancing with you. I am so thankful for the memories, they will never fade, I spend time every day on purpose remembering little things, because these memories keep me close to you and I feel close to you, I will always feel close to you. You are such an easy baby to love, I love you. Okay my wittle Pito, if you are like your daddy you wish I would write shorter letters, he didn't care too much for reading stuff, and would think of all this reading as homework, which he didn't like very much either. But then again, you are only 10 months old, if you can miraculously read, than the length of the letter shouldn't be a problem. It's just hard for your abuela to understand, I am still working on the acceptance of you not being here, growing up in person. I still want to wake up and find this has all been just one of those weird nightmares that feels like a long time but is only a few hours in the dark of night, and it's the morning you are coming back from your trip with mommy and we are there to meet you in the airport. It's not any easier, day by day I wait for some part of this to become easier, and it doesn't. I am supposing I really have figured this out from the very beginning, it's never going to get easier, I just have to accept that you will be with us only in our hearts and memories for the rest of our lives, and that is that. I adore you little wordy bird. YOU still make me happy, the memory of you makes me smile, I am not sad about the past, I am sad for the future that has a big piece missing because you will not be there. I feel you in my heart, I feel the warmth that is in my heart when you give me that little sideways glance and lean in for a hug. I could squeeze you until you try to squirm away, I am the crowding kind of abuela, I love you. I miss you.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007 - love forever, abuela
Mariaha Ann Marie Hames AND Charles Lee Ray Hames
Hi how are my two precious babys Michelle had a nice christmas but she saved a gift for both of you she said when you come home she will give the presents to you guys. Your big sister is still in denial that you guys are still here so can you please visit her and let her know that everything is okay and you both love her. These holidays are hard with out you Charles your 2nd birthday is coming up on Feburary 16 and Mariaha you will be one on April 5 Happy new year to my precious Angels. i love you both and you both mean the world to me I hope to see you in my dreams again soon. May you please watch over us and help us keep faith and belive that you will always make us happy and you will never let us make a stupid decision or atleast try to guide us I love you My angels.
Monday, January 1, 2007 - Mommy and your Big SISTER MIchelle
BOOGY BOY
HEY BOOGY BOY MOMMY IS GLAD THIS HOLIDAY STUFF IS OVER I MISSED YOU LIKE CRAZY CHRISTMAS MORNING LAST YEAR YOU WERE SITTING IN BETWEEN MY LEGS WATCHING YOUR BIG SISTER OPEN HER PRESENTS THIS YEAR YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN OPENING YOUR PRESENTS. JUST KNOWING THAT I HAD YOU IN MY HEART KEPT ME GOING. AUDREY IS THE BEST BIG SISTER EVER IF I DID NOT HAVE HER I KNOW I WOULD BE IN TROUBLE. BUT SHE MAKES MOMMY LAUGH AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND SHE IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING. I DON;T THINK THAT IT IS MEANT FOR DADDY AND I TO HAVE ANOTHER BABY BECAUSE IF IT WERE THEN I THINK WE WEOULD BE PREGNANT BY NOW AND IT IS NOT WORKING I GUESS IF I HAVE BAD THOUGHTS THEN MY BODY IS NOT READY TO HAVE ANOTHER BABY AND THAT IS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN BECAUSE I THINK OF HAVING A BABY AND I THINK OF YOU SO I AM HAPPY WITH YOUR BIG SISTER I WISH WE COULD GIVE HER ANOTHER BABY BROTHER OR SISTER BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT SHE SAYS I WANT MY BABY BROTHER BACK. WHEN WE ARE PLAYING DOLL HOUSE SHE SAYS I WISH I HAD A BABY. I WANT A BABY. THAT HURTS ME SO BAD I MADE A MISTAKE FIXING YOUR DADDY AND NOW WE CANNOT HAVE ANOTHER. UNLESS WE ADOPT AND DADDY DOES NOT WANT TO DO THAT. WELL MOMMY HAS TO GO TO WORK NOW.
Monday, January 1, 2007 - I LOVE YO U HUGS AND MILLIONS OF KISSES
Jaycee Marie
Hi baby doll, it's daddy I want to wish you a Happy New Year. 2006 was a good and tragic year for mommy and daddy. It was good because you came into our lives and made mommy and daddy even closer and brought love and happiness back into our lives. The tragedy part of 2006 was you left us and broke every ones hearts to become an angel in heaven, even though you were already an angel in daddy’s eyes. Daddy is going to go for now but, just remember daddy loves you with all my heart and misses you deeply. Here are some hugs and kisses before I go. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
XOXOXOXOXOXO LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!!!!!! Love Daddy
Monday, January 1, 2007 - Daddy (Chris)
Keira Bach
Hi Sweetie, we are missing you and wished that you were here to celebrate the New Year. It has been two weeks since you left to Heaven and yes, it is still very difficult for Daddy and me. We haven’t been able to sleep very well. Daddy has been having a lot of nightmares. He’s afraid to fall asleep. Daddy asked if you remember the very first time we gave you a bath. You were scared but we can tell you enjoyed it. We miss everything of you. We would hold and hug your blankets and the clothes you last wore. Somehow it is comforting for Daddy and me as we can still smell you. Please know that though we can’t feel you or hear you, we keep you in our hearts always and cherish the 2 ½ months of memories we shared with you. As we begin the New Year, please pray for Daddy and me to have strength and to continue in our faith so that one day, we can hold you again. Happy New Year, Sweetie! We miss you and love you forever.
Monday, January 1, 2007 - Love, Mommy and Daddy
Macho Man, Kaden
Hi sweet Angel Kaden.we're going to titi Mari's house to ring in the new year. I hope you will be looking down on us and smiling. Your mommy, daddy and sisters came down from Georgia and will be with us as well. I will be thinking of you.wishing you could be here. Happy New Year in heaven to you and all the other little angels. Momma loves you very, very much. Will write you again soon, ok my love?
Sunday, December 31, 2006 - Missing you always, Momma
Baby Ethan Cooper Kirkpatrick
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Sunday, December 31, 2006 - LOVING YOU ALWAYS NaNa
Alexis Kennedi
Hey baby girl it's mommy. I love you so much and I wanted to stop by to wish you a Happy New Year. I sure do wish you could be here with me and daddy for the new year, but you get to spend it with someone so special. I can't wait to meet him. I know he is taking great care of you. Mommy can't wait to get there to see her pretty little girl. Just pray for all us to try to be strong for you. I know you don't like to see us cry and things, but we just miss you so much and love you more than anything but GOD. He is always the most loved, but now you are right there with him. You are one of his angels and my guardian angel. Mommy tries hard to be strong, but it gets hard and I just cry. I'm sorry baby I miss you so much and it hurts a lot. I didn't think that I would go through something like this, but I guess sometimes God just sees how much we can go through. He is there to help us through and so are you. By the way you are 4 months old today. I wish you could be here and see how big you are getting. I bet you would be so chubby right now. You sure were picking up on your weight. You might have been a wee little thing when you were born but you were starting to be a little fatty. Mommy misses you and I know you already have heard that hundreds of times, but at least you know it. It's still hard for me to understand why God would choose you over another baby that is being mistreated. You are so loved and was such a good baby. Then other babies get done that way and their mom's don't even deserve to have kids. Maybe one day Justice will be served to them. God will get them. Mommy is gonna go for now, but I love you forever baby girl. Tons of Hugs and Kisses. xoxoxoxoxoxo. Happy New Year Baby Girl!!! Please pray lots for us we sure do need it. We miss you bunches and can't wait to see you again.
Sunday, December 31, 2006 - Mommy and Daddy
My precious Jaycee Marie
The end of 2006 is here and I have mixed feelings about it. I hate the thought of going into a New Year without you, Carter and Kayleigh. I know it is best to move on but it just doesn't seem right, I feel like a big part of me will always be stuck in 2006, the year I loved and lost two of my precious granddaughters and a year of remembering Baby Carter and all he went through in his short life. I will never understand why GOD chose you three be to his angels and left some very unworthy people here to walk this Earth and cause so many others pain by doing the sick things they do. Jaycee know that I love you very much and always will. I miss you more than I can put into words. Please look after all the people that Love you and help us learn to deal with the pain of losing you. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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Sunday, December 31, 2006 - Grandma Deb
FRANCESCA DADEENA CONTRERA
MY DEAR BABY ANGEL PRINCESS BABY, TO DAY IS NEW YEARS EVE AND I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW WHAT I LOVE YOU AND TO WATCH OVER US WHEN WE GO TO THE CITY AND MAKES SURE MOMMY AND UNCLE ARTHUR IS HAPPY. I LOVE AND MISS YOU AND HOPE YOU ARE HAVING YOUR OWN NEW YEARS WITH ALL THE OTHER BABIES AND KIDS AND OUR FAMILY MEMBERS. UNTIL I WRITE AGAIN I MISS YOU AND LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES AND SMOOCHES FOR LIFE, I LOVE YOU MY BABY ANGEL.
Sunday, December 31, 2006 - MOMMY
My handsome Hayden,
Well.Happy New Year Bubba!!! There isn't much happiness about it though for mama. I miss you soooo much baby. I still can't believe that you're gone.everybody is trying to pick up the pieces and carry on but I can't seem to do that. I hope that wherever you are you know that I love you and that I am ALWAYS thinking of you.Hailee and Hannah say Hi and they love you.Until next time be sweet.
Sunday, December 31, 2006 - I love you -mommy
Jaycee Marie
hey baby girl aunt chel wanted to tell you Happy New Years honey we love you and miss you so much the holidays were so hard to get thru without you here i am so glad they are over honestly i fell right now i do not want to celebrate any other holidays because your not here with us i have been talking with a lady she has started to give me so understanding on why god took you from us so early in your life i don't understand fully but she said god has something better for you i don't want to believe that because you were prefectly happy here with your mommy and daddy and everyone else who loves you we will never understand but someday we will be together again i love you so much baby girl millions and millions of huigs and kisses XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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Sunday, December 31, 2006 - aunt chel
My Dearest sweet Lil Pito,
Hi my love. I sure do miss you! I know I have not told you in a few days but I do. I'm in New Jersery right now and it does not matter how far away I am I still miss you like HELL!!!!!!! It is almost 2007 and while other people are celebrating the new year I find myself mourning for what I lost in the old year!!!! WHY ARE YOU NOT HERE WITH US TO BEGAIN A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR WITH ALOT OF FIRST????????? Some times I hate the world for the cards it has dealt us. It is so unfair to have a beautiful baby boy whom is loved more then life its self taken from us in the blink of a eye!!!!!!!!!!!1 How could this ever happened today?????? You are so loved and so missed by so many people that is is beyond words just what you would have meant to this world. In a world where no one has anything to look forward to we would have had you along with the other Grandbabies to carry on for us. But at this point it is just another year full of upset, hurt and pain for us not knowing who you are or whom you might have been. But I do know that I love you more then life itself and I miss you more then a million words, pictures or anything else could ever say. HAPPY NEW YEARS MY LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!
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!! I love you my daerest sweet lil Pito!!!!!!!!!!!!
!1 Never forget for one minute just how important you are in this life to a whole lot of people. You were our hopes, our dreams and our prayers for a many numer of reasons!!!!!!!!!
!!!! God bless each and everyone of us in the next year!!!! Watch over us and guide us!!!!!! We love you sooooooooooooo very much Pito, Tons of hug and kisses from here to there XOXOXOXOXOXOXO FOREVER AND A DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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! GAMS
Sunday, December 31, 2006 - GAMS
To my dearest Snuggle Bear, Michael Cooksey
To my little man, you are the greatest, most amazing gift God could have blessed me and your daddy with. We just celabrated your 2nd B-day and it just wasn't right not having you there to open your presents and put your face into your Birthday cake. We know you were there watching over us and we know you miss us to. It's just getting harder every day that you are not with us, and we pray every day that when we wake up in the morning you will be there smiling at us like you never left but we know that you are a true angel in heaven and that you are always watching over us even though you belong with your mommy and daddy. Just always remember that there isn't a moment that goes by that you are not on our minds and in our hearts we love you foever and eternity. Till we are together again Love always your mommy and daddy, sleep well little man December,30,2006
Saturday, December 30, 2006 - your mommy cassidy and your daddy todd
Mommies Three Little Angels
Hey sweetie pies. I love you guys very very much. Mommy ws praying foe you guys the othe r night and I just broke down. I so wish I could see you guys only once. Please please please God, bring my babies back to me.Mommy loves you all very very much ok.
Saturday, December 30, 2006 - Mommy

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