Angel Room

Welcome to the Angel Room. It may sound odd, but close your eyes and then take a look around the room, what do you see? Is your child busy playing dress-up? Maybe your little one is playing games, or reading a book perhaps? Maybe your little one is taking a nap, snoring softly much to the amusement of the others? Come on in, and share what you see during your visit to the Angel Room.

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Jessica | jessica_134_2000@yahoo.com

As I open the tall heavy door that is laced with gold. I pause, can I do this, can I walk threw this door and find my little Lucas. I'm so afraid I won't be able to find him among all the beautiful children. Before I know it God takes my hand. He looks at me with a big smile and says, "It's OK my child, for I will guide you to him." It is like my fears were lifted from me. I then opened the door and what I saw I couldn't beleive my eyes. There is my baby, my little boy playing with all the angels. I started walking closer to him, the closer I got the more tears ran down my face. At only a few feet away, Lucas looked up at me with those big dark blue eyes and smiled. He reached his arms out and said,"MOMMY your here, I missed you, daddy, and all my bubbies." I picked him up and said," I missed you to my little angel." He noticed all the tears running down my face and said, "Why are you so sad mommy." It is because I miss you my baby and I thought I would never see you again. Now your in my arms and how can I ever let you go, I told him. Lucas smiled at me and said, " It's OK to be sad, I know your hurting as so am I. You will be hear with me soon when it is time. But, right now after our visit is done you need to go back and take care of daddy and all my brothers."
We had lots of fun together playing. When it was time to leave I couldn't bare to go. But I remembered what my little guy said. So I kissed him good by and told him I would visit again soon.

Visited Monday, November 8, 2004 at 06:19

Marta | joeysmom5@yahoo.com

It has been a long time for me. I usually can't visit this Angel Room because it breaks my heart....I always want to bring everyone when back when I must return.
The first thing I have noticed in so much time, is that so many Angels are no longer babies but toddlers. Of course, I still see many babies and it breaks my heart, because I know this thief called SIDS continues to steal the hearts and souls of mommys and daddys every day.
The babies are so peaceful sleeping comfortably in their pink and blue....their halos shining brightly and the tiny movements underneath are their wings getting ready for flight one day.
Joey comes to me almost immediately. The one thing about this Angel room is words are never spoken but felt. My heart immediately warms up, it has been rather cold for so long. I realize how much Joey took with him when he died, but he insists to me that I can return home ALONG with this warmth in my heart....for it is mine he transends. The love I had for him originated in me and must stay with me. The love I have for him remains and he feels it every day, even in heaven. He loves me very much and promises one day we will all be together in indescribable glory. He reminds me so much of Danny....He says he misses him, misses us all, but sees us every day and is with us always.
At that moment, old friends like Hannah, Darious, Jacob, Chassidy, CJ,Carlie, Hunter, Baby (no longer a baby!) Robert, Jordan, Rose, Salem, and countless more I could not identify came out of the shadows...their halos all so bright...gently they let me know Joey had to go back now.
I came back to the world and my heart is lighter....full of the love for my son that I thought I had lost. But I did not lose it, I always will have it.
This Angel Room visit has changed me and my perspective of losing my son. Thank you Lydia (AGAIN)....I did not even know what would happen there, but it has changed me for the better. I love you Joseph....

Visited Friday, November 5, 2004 at 23:14

Angela Black | junerose2401@aol.com

I decide it is time to visit the Angel Room again. It has been so long since I have joined the baby angels. I walk to the door and take a deep breath. I know it is going to be hard not to take all the angels out of there and run to their mommies so I can give them all their babies back. I open the door and am flooded by the sites. Today they are having a big party. I walk in and look at all the little ones playing. I can see Trey playing trucks with Jacob and Joey. Oh and in the corner is little alex cuddled up to his Pooh bear sound asleep. I walk in further and see even more angels. Vanessa playing dollies with Hannah and Rose. They have no clue that they have a visitor today. I look to the throne to see who is playing king today and see Kody. He has a big smile on his face. He must really love to be king. Sitting next to him is Carlie. I decide that she must have decided the king needed a queen. She is so beautiful with her robe that is fit only for a queen. I walk further and sit down. Watching all the angels play. A little boy comes running through the room yelling "catch me if you can". I see that it is Noah. Running right behind him is Jenna laughing as hard as she can. I watch the angels for as long as I can. I then look at my watch and see that I have spent a long time in here. It is time to hurry to class so I get up and go to the door. I turn around for one more look then head out the door. I will definently be back soon. I blow kisses to all the angels and leave.

Visited Friday, November 5, 2004 at 18:37

Jamie Suppes | mamajamie2003@yahoo.com

I come to this door with a light so bright you can see it probably for miles. I am so scared to open it, it takes me what seems forever to open the door. When I finally do I see this room that looks like that big quilt your mom would wrap you in when you where a baby. Then I see him,My Joshy that smile I so looked forward to seeing every morning there smiling at me. So happy to see me. He runs to me not as the 7 month old I remember but an 8 year old that looks so much like his dad. For a minute I am in shock, but he runs up and gives me the biggest hug and kiss, it brings tears to my eyes, and says " don't worry mom I like it here, I am safe and warm and happy. Don't cry for me anymore. I don't like to see you cry, every day I see you and my brothers and my sister, and watch over you to make sure you are as happy in life as I am in death. Don't worry Great Grampa and I have lots of fun. He is not sick anymore and I am save and loved." As he turns to walk away he says,"Don't worry mom some day we will be together again and we can run and play together, then you will never have to cry or miss me anymore, I LOVE YOU" he shouts as he runs off to play with his friends. As I leave I look back and smile because he is save, happy, and healthy. Just how any parent would want their baby.

Visited Friday, November 5, 2004 at 06:28

Caroline

I am back! What a special place. A place where dreams come true. Today is your First Birthday! One Years old! What a big girl you are! What a party they are throwing you! I am so glad I get to come! Ballons, Ponies, Presents. I've never seen so many! You are wearing such a beautiful Pink dress. You look so happy. I feel so happy for the first time. it is like you never left me ! We run and laugh and play with not a worry in the world! I hug you so tight and tell you over and over how much I love you. I am always with you in this special place.

Visited Thursday, November 4, 2004 at 01:21

Jennifer Saunders | wonder_mom_79@yahoo.com

As I walk into the room, I can't imagine what I well find, a baby that once left me, or a young girl. The thought of being able to hold you again one last time in my arms. The smile that comes across your face when you see your brother and sister. Being able to sing your favorate song, and having you smile because you recognize the tone. Blowing bubble and then laughing. Dear sweet Ashlee I am so sorry I do not remember much more, but you well always be in my heart. Now the time has come that I must leave, The tears are streaming down my face, I do not want to have to say goodbye again. I love you and Hope I well see you again. Please stay the way you are and I well see you when the time is right

Visited Sunday, October 24, 2004 at 02:50

Amy Roberts | aroberts9@cox.net

I begin outside. I see a man and follow him. I walk through teenagers following the man to the top of the house. There I walk into the baby angel room. On the left I see a row of little baby boys, all the same size. They are wrapped in blue blankets and all looking up. As I walk down I find Layden. We make eye contact and he is telling me - look, I'm ok. This is where I'm waiting. He is waiting for me. What an awesome little man. I love you

Visited Thursday, October 21, 2004 at 22:45

Pamela Smart | tinkerbell69420@msn.com

I see a waterfall with laughter of children coming from inside. I walk through the water and the walls seem to seperate to allow me to enter. There is a silence that falls over the room and all the children turn to see whom has come to visit. Then suddenly my little man stands up off of the floors made of crystal and begins to run toward me with a single tear and cries out mommy I have missed you. I lean down to grab him up and give him a big hug and kiss and all the other children began to come running. All of there arms spread wide to recieve there hugs as well. We all skip around and dance. And have a wonderful time. We laugh and sing. And we paint and draw. I tuck everyone in for a nap and kiss there heads. Then I go back to Christian tickle him and tell him I love him. He gives me one of those hugs that about breaks your neck and a sloppy wet kiss on the cheek. Then I rub his head til he falls fast asleep.

Visited Wednesday, October 20, 2004 at 04:29

kylee woodward | sweeetbabygirl04@aol.com

oh to be back in this place. i love it here. yet i hate it here. there shouldn't be so many babies here. babies are not supposed to die. babies are supposed to be born and planned for and walk and run and play and have birthdays and go to school and grow up and graduate and move away and get a job and a family and get really old and then they are supposed to die. but not until they are old. my Kayden wasn't old. she's just a baby. so why did he take her?...i slowly walk down the long path of clouds and angels. i see my priss and i just watch her. i long to hold her, but for now i just watch. i love watching her. her face. her feet. her finger. she is perfect. i pick her up and she looks so happy to see me. she never forgot. i was terrified that she would forget who i was and when i went to be with her she wouldn't know who i was. but she knows. i rock her. but i dont let her fall asleep. i tell her whats been going on at home. i thank her for her letters in the rain. i tell her to give rhonda her kisses. let Mommy know she's near. and thank Tabby. i kiss the top os her head and say good bye...no see you later.

Visited Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 18:37

Karen Tyler | dtyler320@hotmail.com

I come up to the door. i walk in and who do i see it's my little boy playing. he's playing with his uncle ray and great grand mother. all the other little kids are playing to. i go over to him pick him up and just hold him it feels so good to hold him in my arms again. i know now i'm going to be o.k.

Visited Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 04:59

Lydia

The big heavy wooden door creaks as I slowly open it, the light from insdie the room spilling out more and more as the door opens. My eyes quickly adjust to the brilliant light and I begin looking around the room for my son, Jacob. I see Hannah playing with dollies in the corner with Rose and Vanessa. I smile at them, such pretty little princesses. They smile back and go back to playing. Over in the sandbox I see Kody, still wearing his birthday hat, he's got a little truck in his hands which he's been driving all over the makeshift roads he's made in the sand. Andrew and Ryan are busy making a castle with their pails and shovels. I walk past and give Kody a little pat on the head and wish him happy birthday againk and ask if he sees the lights of the candles from Heaven and he grins all excited and says that he does, they all do! Every time someone lights a candle for them they can see it shining brightly and feel the love. He tells me how he sometimes sneaks into his little sister's room to give her a kiss good night, but that she can't play with his truck, she has to play with dolls. I chuckle and continue on through the room searching for Jacob.

I finally find him over in the corner watching all the other children play. I pick him up as best I can, he's one big five year old!! I hug him so tight, I never want to let go. I breathe him in and shower him with kisses and tell him how much I miss him and love him. He groans with all the kisses but hugs me back just as tight. We go sit in the big rocking chair and just talk for a bit.

I tell him how Jesse is as tall as me now, and looks more like he's 18 than just turned 13, and how he loves to skateboard and play games but isn't very fond of school. Jacob crinkles up his nose and tells me he's always glad when school's over too, it's such a long day and he likes to play! I tell him how Alyssa's growing up quickly too, she likes her hair short now and how smart she is and that she wants to learn to play the flute and how she and Caitlin have sang in front of people a few times recently and really enjoyed it. I chuckle and tell him how Caitlin is a little miniature rock star, singing and grooving everywhere she goes and how she loves to flip cartwheels everywhere she goes too. Then he says he can do cartwheels too and he clumsily tries to do one that ends up looking more like a somersault than a carwheel but I applaud him just the same. He comes and sits back down with me and I tell him about Chelsea and how she misses him so very much, she often looks at his picture and talks about him. He looks a bit sad and says that he misses her and all of us too. I give him a gentle hug and remind him that one day we'll all be together again. I tell him about Lily and some of the silly things she's said and done and he just giggles, and I tell him what we did for Danielle's first birthday and he smiles and says that his present was the sky that day, God let him paint it just for Danielle's birthday. I tell him how much I love to take pictures of the sky and we just grin at one another realizing that I've been taking pictures of his artwork! I give him another hug and tell him about daddy, and how much he misses him too. Not wanting our visit to end on a sad note, I ask him what he likes to do.

He said he loves to paint, and sometimes he gets to paint the sky too, like he did for Danielle's birthday. He loves chocolate ice cream, but when he eats too much his tummy doesn't feel so good so then he has to take a nap. He tells me about all of the other children he's met in Heaven and how helpful and kind everyone is. He says that he got to plant some seeds too and he's been growing sunflowers for the birdies and he likes to scatter daisy seeds all over the place too. Tears well up in my eyes and I tell him about the legend of the daisy and how daisies remind me of him. We hug again and I want the moment to last forever, but it's time to go. It's Thanksgiving Day and it's time for me to return to the rest of my family. Before I do, I tell Jacob how thankful I am that I got to be his mommy, how thankful I am for God in my life and for the assurance that Jacob is indeed in Heaven where I will see him again someday. I tell him how thankful I am for his brother and sisters and for his daddy who always takes such good care of us no matter how he feels inside.

We walk together to the big wooden door and I give Jacob one more big hug, kiss him what feels like a thousand times and then go back out through the doors to my family waiting on the other side, anxious to hear about my visit with Jacob in the Angel Room.

I turn and wish Jacob a Happy Thanksgiving and blow him a kiss just before the door closes tight.

Visited Monday, October 11, 2004 at 19:02

kayden's b.h.b.s | sweeetbabygirl04@aol.com

i'm back again. the light is so bright i dont know if i should open the door. i'm not sure if i'm strong enough today. i close my eyes and take a deep breath. here i go. i push open the big doors. my eyes slowly adjust to the light. i cant seem to find my angel, but i know she's here...or was it a dream...did she really leave or did i just imagine it...was she ever there? it seems like a dream to have ever had her. no i had her and she left. for that split moment i thought i may have still had her, but no, she's here i just have to look. there are so many angels here...too many of them are babies. THERE! i found my princess. gosh...i dont know if i can touch her today. i dont want her to see my tears of pain. i wish Casie was here. i miss her too. she is my strength. i need my Casie. i slowly walk up to my angel. she hasnt seen me yet... ... ... ... ..there. now she's got sight of me. she is beautiful. i pick her up and just hold her. there is no need for words or motion. i just hold her and she holds me.......oh... to hold and be held. i miss holding her. i lie down with her on her cloud. we snuggle. i love her smell. i take a deep breath through my nose and she laughs. i love that laugh. somedays it's hard to remember. i dont want to forget. i cant forget. i need to remember her...her laugh...smile...
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br>feet...her. i need to remember her. always. it scares me to think that i could forget. forgeting is easy. remembering is tough. i look at her so i can remember. i'm memorizing her. from her cheek bones to the arch of her feet. i do remember. i always will. she is just looking at me. as if she is memorizing me. she is. she misses me just as much as i miss her. she needs to remember me too. oh...i... well i think i need to go. i love it here but i cant stay forever. she is perfect. she was meant to be. she is my little girl. i kiss her. tell her to be with us. rub her little foot and she squeaks. i walk away so sorry that i have to go. but i know i will be back soon. and some day i will join her permenatly. i cant wait!

Visited Friday, October 8, 2004 at 18:36

Alana's Mommy

As I approach the magnificiant staircase, just as the one in my dreams, There is my Alana! My " Mommy's girl"! Such a load is lifted from my aching heart. To see her again means more than anything anyone else on this earth could even begin to imagine! Though she does not look the same, I recongize her right away. Her presence is overwhelming. I can smell her scent once again. her hair is golden, her eyes so radiant. She wears a white gown. It's not something I would normally want to see her in for it is similar to the gown she was waked in, but it glows with radiance exactly as it appeared in my dream. I am at ease seeing her in it. She guides me up to the top of the staircase, but this time unlike in my dream, she lets me in the heavy magnificant door. Inside is a beatuiful place, a garden surrounds the enormous playroom. We sit together upon a golde rocking horse, her in front of me as if I was holding her on a huge carosoual. We rock back and forth as I smell her hair. I hold her so tight that for a second i wonder if I am hurting her, but her great big smile and sweet giggle lets me know that she is alright. For the first time since she left me I am alright too. My heart is full with joy, I feel as if I am to burst. She doesn't say anything, but she doesn't need to because it is as if we are reading each others minds. Her skin is so soft, so warm. I see other babies surrounding us in the flowers. Though I never met them on earth I know it is them. Rose,Brett,Graci
e,Merry,Paul, Kathleen, Eligh, Morgan are just to name a few. We jump off the golden horse and run and tumble through the flowers, almost like the Poppy field in The Wizard Of OZ only more beautiful and abundant. I don't ever want to leave or to write about my departing, for my heart, my soul,is forever there with her unable to return back to this lonely world. So,forever A part of me stays tumbling through the fields forgeting the pain, while the rest of me will never, ever be the same.

Visited Sunday, October 3, 2004 at 00:57

Jess | mysikalcat04@aol.com

entering the angel room... there i see her Kyra my beautiful baby girl.. playing with other angel babys its her birthday tomorrow shell be one wish shed be spending it with mommy and daddy... she was my beautiful miracle baby.. she passed away at 7 1/2 months old.. since then i'm expecting miracle baby #2.. Kyra will always be my heart i love you baby girl... this is still till hard for me....

Visited Saturday, October 2, 2004 at 14:51

kylee b.h.b.s. | sweeetbabygirl04@aol.com

im back again. there are so many angels here. so many babies. i see my angel. laying on a soft cloud. she looks up at me and smiles. that smile that mends my heart but breaks it at the same time. i gently pick her up. oh to hold her again. it is wondeful. she cues up against my shoulder. her soft hair brushes my cheek. i hug her tight and to my surprise she squeazes back. i havent felt that in a long time. oh i love holding her. her tiny hands pull at my hair. i sit on her cloud and just snuggle for a while. she closes her eyes and lays her head on my shoulder. then i finally get to kiss her like i used to. i remember the day she was born i kissed her right on the lips and she looked up at me. so alert. once again i kissed her right on her perfect little lips. she smiles and opens her mouth really wide and squeaks, just like she used to. gosh i miss her laugh and squeak. i put her down so sorry to have to leave. i tell her to watch over mommy and to send rhonda her kisses and to send me a letter in the rain. i promise her i will come back. i hug her. the longest, tighest, best hug i have ever had. i rub her little duckie hair and turn to walk away. i'll come back.

Visited Friday, October 1, 2004 at 18:16

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