Angel Room

Welcome to the Angel Room. It may sound odd, but close your eyes and then take a look around the room, what do you see? Is your child busy playing dress-up? Maybe your little one is playing games, or reading a book perhaps? Maybe your little one is taking a nap, snoring softly much to the amusement of the others? Come on in, and share what you see during your visit to the Angel Room.

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Trisha Mohrhauser | trishamohrhauser@yahoo.com

Ive waited to see my little Cole. Now without any patience i walk through the doors of heaven. I see my little peanut laying on his yellow marshmellow cloud. Just Cole and me finally one day with him. I embrace Cole and the tears flow. I whisper "I love you". I look away cuz i dont want him to know that he is the cause of my sadness. I tell my little angel "that i would give my life if i could spend one day just one day in reality with him. Holding, kissing, loving, and just seeing him at five years old". Cole wipes my tears away and says "NO!" Tells me he loves me but this is life. This is my home and i can be with him whenever i feel like i miss him most. Me and Cole sit and play. He tells me funnie stories of makebelieve. He wonders why i didnt bring his brother Chace this time. I tell him "i wanted to be alone to tell you i miss you and wanted to spend time with you by myself." We walk along the lake and he tells me bout the games he's played with Great Grandma Jean and the things she has taught him. Cole tells me that grammie Jean tells him all about me and his grammie and grappie. He tells me how he wishes i would understand and if he could he would make my heart not hurt. Cole takes me to his little get-away and shows me all his balloons and roses. He tells me that every time i let them go for his birthday and angel day he catches them as they leave me and Chace's hand. Hides them away so he knows that when he feels alone in his heaven that im always there thinking of him. He said they are his happiness. Like Chace and him are mine. We end up back at his little yellow marshmellow cloud and he tells me that grammie Jean and him are glad that i planted their roses and they will watch over them. We lay down for a nap. As Cole drifts into his slumber i sit and watch him. So young, so innocent, yet so far away to reach it seems. What seems like years but is only hours Cole finally awakes and tells me its time for me to leave. I hug him not wanting to let go. He gives me a big kiss and whispers i love you mommie and tell Chace i love him and kiss him. He lets me go and starts to walk towards his grammie Jean. They wave good bye and say see you next time as i walk unreluctantly out the doors of heaven. They disappear in to the soft glow of the setting sunlight. One last i love you mommie is all i hear in the light breeze of the wind. As i blow them a kiss and whisper I love you both too, while tears start to stream my sad cheeks.

Visited Friday, February 25, 2005 at 03:46

tara | tejay707@aol.com

here i go again,Im never sure if i want to come because i know i dont want to leave for these times im here I love it.I feel whole again.As I walk through these doors my heart is beating.As soon as i open the door i see her,its almost as though shes waiting for me.Her face lights with joy her mommys here.I run to her and pick her up smelling every inch kissing her,twirling her around she laughs outloud,if she only knew how long i waited to hear that.I stare at her beautiful face as she looks at me smiling almost as though she doesnt know we not together all the time.She knows who i am she hasent forgotten,I can tell because she cuddles me only a cuddle a child does to thier mother.I dont want this to end.I start to dance with her and rock with her as she twirls my hair,she rests her head on my shoulder,I want to stay,but i know i cant, her 2 sisters are waiting for me.I see the big light with the angel gaurd awaiting with her arms out,i look away i dont want to give her up yet,the angel gently turns my face and looks in my eyes,you are needed there, she is needed here. I place her in her arms and kiss her lips then her forhead,i tell her mommy will be back soon.she opens her eyes just alittle and smiles and quickly falls back to sleep.The angel smiles and tells me everything is gonna be okay.I will understand soon.I leave the room,now i am crying this is unfair,no i dont understand,Im not sure if there ever will be a time i do.Theres no reason for my baby to leave our family.Ive returned to the real world.my children are waiting for me with my husband,im happy to have them and am gratefull,I just wish Ireland was here with us..........

Visited Thursday, February 24, 2005 at 01:54

Antwanette

O Bless the Heavens Above!Daniel and Aaliyah are playing in the sandbox!Danny giggles with joy as my little girl waves the small shovel in the air, her bright blue eyes reflecting the on onto Danny's rosy cheeks...Daniel wipes the sand off her small head and looks up into the sky with green emralds for eyes waving his arms...Liyah smiles and kicks her feet,she never stayed still for a second,she laughs at the beautiful castle they helped build together.Mommy,D
addy,Leandra,Ch
ris and the rest off your family miss you two so much! Little Li Li,you left us so silently, when the docter told us you died of SIDS, and Beautiful Daniel we have not forgiven ourselves for not paying attention when you fell into the pool and drowned.Please forgive us Lord,Jesus Christ,Aaliyah and Daniel.

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In Rememberance of *Daniel Anthony Santerez* and *Aaliyah Marie Santerez*~

Visited Wednesday, February 23, 2005 at 01:29

Trisha Mohrhauser (Cole's Mommie) | trishamohrhauser@yahoo.com

I stand at the giant doors with angels once again, holding Chaces hand in mine. Waiting to see my little angel Cole. As the door open Chace breaks away once he sees his big brother Cole. They embrace each other in a big hug and run for the swing set. Cole turns to me and says "Mom i'm so glad you came to see me again, ive missed you these last few months." I blow him a kiss and watch my little angels plan. Cole is now 5 years old, getting bigger with each day. More handsome than i ever knew hed be.
I laugh as they tackle each other in the sand and throw grass at each other. Cole runs and hides from his little brother. Chace not far behind looking and laughing as he spots Cole hiding behind a tree. My little angels hand in hand run up to me and ask "Mommie Mommie read us a story please please." How could i say no to two such handsome men. We go back and sit on Cole's yellow marshmellow cloud and they curl up in my lap and i wrap my arms around them and start to read them books. The sun starts to set and I know its time to get going and once again leave my little angel Cole behind. Back to reality and leaving the comfort of what i have always wanted to be. Looking at my two boys together for one last minute more i take their picture and keep it close. I walk over to Cole and whisper in his ear " I love you with each tear." Cole holds his arms out and embraces me and whispers to me " Mommie dont cry over me im hear for you always to see and i love you more when your tears never fall over losing me." Cole gives Chace a big hug and kiss and tells him "i love you too baby brother." The giant painted angel doors start to open and i wish i didnt have to go but knowing me and Chace must. I reluctantly walk out them Chace's hand in mine. Waving goodbye to his big brother my tears start to fall. I mouth I Love You Always and blow him a kiss. The doors start to close and Cole starts to disappear.

Visited Saturday, February 19, 2005 at 04:39

Mary Ward | daisydawn122002@yahoo.com

As I walk through the heavy door, I see silk, pearl curtains from wall to wall blowing in a gentle breeze. I see daisies everywhere, and big giant lions standing in a protective pose. I look further and I can see a cradle. I dark wooden cradle. As I approach this cradle, I begin to weep for I realize that it's my beautiful, precious Daisy. She looks the same way she did when we last seen each other. I pick her up and vow never to leave. I smell her hair and she smells so innocent, like a brand new baby (she practically was). I listen closley, I thought I heard something. "Momma." I turn around to see that my darling Dahlia has visited as well. I grab both my babies and find me a cloud. All three of us fall asleep, wrapped up in each other. No one there to bother us ever. I will spend eternity here, I never want to go back, and I won't. Sweet dreams my dears.

Visited Wednesday, January 19, 2005 at 13:47

Allyson | allysfook@aol.com

Oh look!! There's my sweet angel, Dylan. Oh, he's so handsome. He's got the fattest, most kissable cheeks ever, just like when he was here. He's playing with Teddy Bears and toy cars. His eyes are so big and beautiful. Crystal Blue. I'm gonna sneek up behind him and give him a big kiss and hug. Oh how good it feels to hold him again. Look at how big his smile is. He's so beautiful. We'll sit in the rocking chair and read books and sing songs. He's so calm. He's so happy. Gotta go for now. I'll come back and play real soon, ok Dylan? I love you more than the sky. Bye Pooh. See you soon.

Visited Tuesday, January 18, 2005 at 17:12

JENNIFER BOSHEARS | brokengin728@yahoo.com

DYLAN NOW LEAVE DAMON ALONE AND DON'T PULL BRITNEY'S HAIR.LET'S ALL SET DOWN AND READ A BOOK HERE WE GO THIS IS A GOOD ONE FOX IN SOX BY DR.SEUSS. WE ALL SIT TOGETHER PILED UP ON THE FLOOR AS I TURN MY TOUNGE EVERY WHICH WAY TRYING TO SAY ALL THE TWISTING RIDDLES DR.SEUSS BLESSED US WITH.WITH EVERY RYHMING RIDDLE COMES THAT LITTLE GIGGLE FROM ALL 3 OF MY BEAUTIFUL KIDS.MOM BRITNEY IS TOUCHING ME DYLAN CRYS.BRITNEY PLEASE KEEP YOUR HANDS TO YOURSELF.NOW I HOLD MY LITTLE MAN IN MY ARMS HE IS STARTING TO GET SLEEPY.I ROCK HIM BACK AND FORTH AND SING TO HIM OUR SONG PATIENCE FOR THAT IS WHAT I'LL HAVE TO HAVE WHEN I LEAVE THIS ANGEL ROOM.DAMON AND BRITNEY WILL FOLLOW ME THEY WILL WAVE GOODBYE TO THEIR LITTLE BROTHER DYLAN AND WE WILL ALL KISS HIS CHEEK.BUT FOR NOW I'LL JUST HOLD HIS LITTLE BODY AND WATCH HOW PEACEFUL HE NOW SLEEPS

Visited Friday, January 7, 2005 at 05:45

Susan Martinez | patmartinez2000@aol.com

I have never seen anything so beautiful in my life or my wildest dreams. I see Santiago playing with grandma and grandpa. Oh wait he sees me now, he running towards me yelling momma I've been waiting for you and victor and my sisters to come and play. We sit next to the crystal blue river talking and laughing. Me and your sisters are watching you and victor play and your still so much bigger then him even though your a minute younger. You and victor come and sit down and your sisters read you a book and I just sit back and watch all my beautiful children enjoy each others company. Well it's time to be getting back home and I hear the grandparents calling you home. Your brother and your sisters and I, will be back soon and we will go on a long picnic. BYE and we love you much....

Visited Wednesday, December 15, 2004 at 20:23

Tiffany Mingo | irishrose112599@aol.com

I walk in and see Jamey playing with some other babies with some holiday decorations that are in front of them. Soft santas and angels and also some rattles, he takes one and puts it up to his mouth and then he giggles and looks up and sees me. He puts his arms up for me to pick him up and hold him a little bit, I sit down in the rocking chair behind me and hold him close to my chest and tell him how beautiful and big he is. I kiss his lips and smell his hair. I rock him and sing to him until he falls asleep. I put him in his bed made out of clouds and I know I have to leave him, but don't want to go just yet. I turn on the music so he can sleep better, so he doesn't know that Mommy left yet and I kiss him again and the music that is playing is about heaven and Jesus and all. I tell Jesus thank you again for watching Jamey for me until I am with him again.

Visited Sunday, December 5, 2004 at 02:34

Adina Tulbure | fairy_adina@yahoo.com

I enter ... There are a lots of children ... They are playing with butterflies. Suddenly all the walls dissapear and green grass grows all around. There is a lot of light . The Sun is so clear and bright. There are flowers . yellow . The colors are pure . And the children are so happy to be together. I take my newborn David and put him in this place. He is happy . He opens his eyes . Big blue eyes . I can understand he is happy. He speaks without words , only with his big blue fantastic eyes. And suddenly I remember that once long before his birth I wrote a poem. He smiles.

I keep him in my arms and say him this poem

God,I wish to be a one - day butterfly
To whisper love to the flower from Your Heart,
To make wings from your Light
To sing all over the world
I am a butterfly - God

Visited Monday, November 29, 2004 at 20:10

Julie | Juliefruly@yahoo.com

I walk in and see so many happy children. I see the floor is all clouds. The clouds are pink and blue and every color imaginable. I see kids playing ring around the rosy. I see boys playing with trucks. I see little girls playing with barbies and baby dolls. I see babies taking naps in floating cribs. I see babies learning how to walk around on thier new angel feet. I see babies watching down below and praying for thier loved ones. There's Kylee in the middle playing with other little girls and boys for a game of duck, duck, goose. She's running around trying to catch a little girl who's playing. I see her and smile and I am so happy to know she is having fun. I go and give her a great big hug and kiss. Oh how I wish it could last forever. I wish I could be there all the time. I go and sit in pink cloud chair with her looking into her bright beautiful hazel eyes just like mine. I tell her how much I miss her and she already knows for she watches over me all the time and sees every tear drop that I cry. I see how perfect her tiny teeth are and how perfect her little nose and ears are. And just how absolutely beautiful her short brown curly hair is. I see her smile and wish I could take her back with me. But knowing that I can't I don't think about it anymore for I only have a certain amount of time to spend with her. She tells me how fun it is in Heaven but how much she misses us so much. She tells me how she wishes she could hold her baby sister. She remembers the day we went to see her when it had been a year since she passed away.

I go with her back to the center of the room. Kylee introduces me to all of her friends. I play with her and her friends. Oh how pretty she is with her perfect wings and fluffy cute dress. Her perfect little feet that seem to glide through the air. Her cute little cheeks that glow in a pretty pink. Her necklace that looks just like mommy's except with mommy's picture on it. How adorable she looks. I wish I could spend my lifetime in this dreamy room. I would get to see all the children play and have fun. Watch over thier parents and say goodnight each night to everyone everywhere from Heaven to Earth. When they get in thier pajamas all cute and petite and crawl into bed with soft kiss on thier cheek of all the people who have kissed thier pictures that day. And a special one on thier left cheek from Jesus the man up above. And seeing them dream each night of us while we dream of them and thier sweet little kites. They fly thier kites each day there's a windy day up in Heaven all the way to Earth. Each kite with thier loved ones on it, pictures and names. And after that they ride ponys with manes. Oh how I wish I could see all of that every and each day. Just watching and smiling as they all play. But for now I must leave. It is getting late. The real world is missing me and I must not be late. I give Kylee a last kiss goodnight and i hug her as tight as tight as could be. I feel teardrops down my face as I walk towards the door. I reach towards the doorhandle. I don't touch it quite yet. For I look behind and picture it in my mind so when I go to sleep I can picture it while I sleep. I don't leave yet I tuck Kylee in. I give her a kiss and wish it would never end. Then I touch that doorhandle wishing I didn't have to but the angels need thier rest and to leave it'd be best. I blow a kiss to her as I turn the handle and i catch her kiss back and keep it in my heart forever. I walk out the door wishing it didn't have to be that way and then I face the real world and wish i could've stayed.

Visited Thursday, November 25, 2004 at 05:50

Lacey, Dominic's Mama | Dominics_Mama_4_Eva@hotmail.com

Today is a special day, in heaven and on earth. Today is Dominic's 4th birthday. I walk up to the door of the angel room, Aiden's small, 2 1/2 year old hand in mine, a look of sheer excitement and wonder on his face as we admire the magnificent sight. Normally, Aiden wouldn't be allowed, but because it's Dominic's birthday, an exception is made. I have told him about Dominic since the day he was born, only 14 months and 8 days after losing his big brother. He has accompanied me to the cold but peaceful cemetery on so many occasions...neve
r understanding why we'd go there to visit Dominic when I'd tell him Dominic is always with us, or up in Heaven with Jesus and God. Aiden looks at me, knowing that on the other side of this door, somewhere within the Angel Room, his brother awaits his arrival. My heart is about to explode with happiness as I see the eagerness in his eyes, that anticipation. Aiden will finally get to meet his brother! I feel a gentle hand on my shoulder, and turn to the warm, caring brown eyes of Jesus. Without a sound, he motions for me to open the door. He then looks at Aiden and smiles; Aiden waves "Bah! (Bye)" as we walk into the room. What we see is a gala event...opalesce
nt, glittering confetti and streamers, pearly white balloons, and music so beautiful that words could never adequately describe it. Children of all ages, from infants to the adults caring for them crowd the room, all as jubilee and healthy as can be. As I look around in awe, Aiden clings to me though I know it is not out of fear. Perhaps he feels my apprehension of this extraordinary place. Through tears, my eyes focus on a table at the far end of the room, where I see gorgeous gifts wrapped in sparkling paper, and the only hint of color on a Winnie the Pooh cake. Behind the cake, a little dark haired pre-schooler sits, a huge grin on his face as my eyes meet his beautiful blue ones. He wears a beautiful, shimmering crown, not a paper one, but a real one. At that moment, he gets up and runs to Aiden and I. "MOMMY!" he cries. "Why are you late? We've been waiting! Now we can start the party!" He looks at Aiden before embracing him as well. "You're big Aiden!" He pulls back and looks at me before asking, "What have you been feeding this kid, mom?" That's his mama's sarcasm. With a cry, I pull them both in for a hug that I never want to end. My two boys, together! In my arms! The tears were endless...and oh how we spend this day! He introduces me to his best friends, Tristan and Cole. "You shoulda been here for Tristan's birthday in August, mama," Dominic tells me. "He was really missing his sisters and his mom and dad. I know you are friends with them...we both watched when you visited them in Texas this summer. We are so glad that you found each other across all the miles, even if it was our deaths that brought you together. You needed each other." I'm bawling now. Aiden can't stop staring at Dominic. "And now look! Tristan's little sister is the same age as Aiden...maybe they'll get married!" He pokes Aiden as if to start a game of tag, and Aiden runs after him, falling over his own feet. I can't help but laugh, and take a picture in my mind of the moments. The day passes so fast. I am exhausted, and Aiden falls asleep on my lap, drained after playing with Dominic all day. Will he remember this day as vividly as I? Dominic sits beside me, a spitting image of his father, telling me all about Heaven, all about how he's with us all the time, and knows that life hasn't been easy for me since he left. "Mommy, someday you'll understand. I know how much you've always loved me, and I hope you know how much I love you too! And Aiden....Aiden is a special gift that Jesus and I planned for you. I knew how badly you needed another baby mom. So there he is." His blue eyes turn sad for a quick moment, then quickly sparkle. "I play with him a lot mom. All the times you find him in his room with the door closed? I'm there. And when he calls on his little cell phone, and starts talking to someone? That someone is me." His radiant smile lit up the room. He bends and kisses his brother on cheek. Aiden stirs so slightly and smiles as he murmurs "Love you too". Dominic throws himself in my arms. "Mama, I miss you so much. But please don't cry. I will never, ever leave you. And we WILL see each other again." He pulls back and gently wipes the tears from my eyes, reaching out with both little hands on my cheeks...just like the day he died. "I love you mom. I'll make sure that nothing bad ever happens to you, or to Aiden, okay?" I cannot say a word but my heart cries out to hold him longer as he pulls away. A gentle hand on my shoulder once again, and I knew it was time to leave. Jesus lifts my exhausted body, complete with Aiden, and carries me toward the door. My eyes never leave my 4-year old little angel, as he waves to me. "I love you mom...thanks for coming to my birthday party!" He yawns. "I gotta go to sleep. Tell Aiden I love him." Jesus sets us down, and with a silent smile, closes the giant door. I close my eyes, unsure if everything I just witnessed was real. As I open my eyes, I see a perfect "kiss print" on Aiden's cheek. I put him to bed, go out to the living room, and stare at Dominic's portrait. I could swear that his smile just got a little bigger. Dominic, "belonging to the Lord". Well, you're mine in my heart, my sunshine, my only sunshine. I love you honey. Happy 4th birthday. Aiden and I love you and miss you so much....(*tried to submit this on 11/23, Dom's birthday, but the website was down)

Visited Wednesday, November 24, 2004 at 18:13

Rachael

Where's Benjamin as i look around i see my Bampa there i walk closer numb my heart poundind as my Baby Boy look s up at me with his big wide blue eyes i melted i was home Ben giggles and istart laughing he looks more shocked than me Bampa passes my Angel to hold i can smell him theres music playing his arms and legs going ten to the dozen although i can hear the music BEN starts to smirk and drift off to sleep he looks so Beautiful and i feel a hand on my shoulder and before Bamps said anything i new it was time to go one last kiss and i knew he was being looked after i didnt want to leave but im so glad i came GOOD NIGHT BENGY......

Visited Monday, November 22, 2004 at 15:54

Trisha Mohrhauser | anglrayn@yahoo.com

I approach these magnificent stained glass doors. Looking closely to them, angels are painted on them, I see they are innocent children. I push the huge doors open to my surprise I see my 18 month old Chace roaming around and getting in to everything. While in the middle of the room lay an enormous yellow marshmallow cloud, with my son Cole on it. Cole looks very handsome and all grown up one month shy of being 5. Chace runs up to Cole on his cloud and tackles him as he gives him a big hug. Tears start to fall as I start to laugh. Seeing my two boys for the first time together. Cole runs up to me (with Chace not far behind him) giving me a big hug and sloppy wet kiss. Cole tells me “Mommie I’ve missed you”. I just hold him there for one minute longer telling him “I love you and that I’m always here”. Chace joins in on the hugs and kisses. We all go over to Cole’s little yellow marshmallow cloud and start to play games. Cole hands me The Very Hungry Caterpillar, the book I used to read to him when I was pregnant with him. Cole lies on my left side head on my chest as Chace does the same with my right. We sit there for awhile reading books and playing little games.

Later as we start to walk and walk and walk. Never really knowing where it is leading us just knowing we are going. Cole puts his hand in mine and smiles up at me with that beautiful smile. Cole then takes Chace’s hand like a big brother would. Cole and Chace race to the swing set. Helping Chace climb the ladder to the slide, Cole yells, “Look mommie I’m helping!” with the biggest smile on his face. After awhile we begin our journey back from where we started.

Cole goes and stands by his yellow marshmallow cloud. Cole then takes my hand and says “Mommie I’ve painted the sky for you when you were sad, I’ve watched you as you slept, and I’ve also kissed you as you stared up at the stars at night looking for me”. Tears start to fall knowing I will be leaving my little angel once again. Cole pulls me down to him to give me one last hug and kiss till next time we meet again. He kisses his brother and softly whispers “I love you Chace, please take care of our mommie”. Cole says his goodbye and walks happily to the big rocking chair to join his great grandma Jean. As the angel stained doors open, I take Chace’s hand in mine. We turn to have one last look at our angel, as rain starts to pour down over us, Cole and Grandma wave goodbye. They blow their kisses as the doors start to close and as we take the lonely walk back to reality.

Visited Wednesday, November 17, 2004 at 23:17

Michelle Quijada | arellanome@yahoo.com

Hi Isabel Mama's Joy bear. Oh how we miss you and your twin brother Joshy misses you too. We know you are in Jesus arms and I can see you so happy. You are smiling and just enjoying yourself. Just know we love you and can't wait to see you again.

Visited Monday, November 15, 2004 at 07:42

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