Angel Room

Welcome to the Angel Room. It may sound odd, but close your eyes and then take a look around the room, what do you see? Is your child busy playing dress-up? Maybe your little one is playing games, or reading a book perhaps? Maybe your little one is taking a nap, snoring softly much to the amusement of the others? Come on in, and share what you see during your visit to the Angel Room.

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kylee woodward | sweeetbabygirl04@aol.com

there she is my cute little Kayden. my baby sister. she is giggleing with rori anne and Kaylen. she is beautiful. gosh i want to take her home. i love her so much. she looks happy. yes! she is happy. she has grown or maybe it is bc i havent seen her in a while. plaese..i want to take her. but all i can do is watch. she is so little. she needs me and i need her. i need to hold her and she needs to be held. i hope they have angels for that,holding. i love watching the sun hit her eyes when she smiles. gosh those eyes. i have to look away they just melt me. her lips kind of quiver when she laughs,those perfect lips. her hair is normal again the funeral home messed it up, but now it is in that cute little moawk shape. she isnt in pain. good. she is happy. no more pain. just happy. she is adorable. good bye sweet princess. i will come back to visit you. i love you

Visited Thursday, September 30, 2004 at 19:49

Roxane Gill | flutterby@grandecom.net

I hesitate once again as I try to decide if I should stay or if I should go. My heart wants so much to hold my Alex but is broken again by the news that a new baby has entered this door oh so recently. I tell myself that I have to be strong and the only way to find my smile is through this passage. I tug the door and step inside and as I expected Alex was waiting because he knew I would be here soon. "Do you want to see her Mommy? She is so beautiful and perfect and she misses her family so much. She smiled when you talked to her Mommy and hugged her family. Her name is Danielle and she is so sweet." I follow Alex to the next room and there is Heaven's newest Angel Baby. She looks so happy and healthy I can hardly believe she is the same baby I saw just hours ago being laid to rest. I picked her up and she cooed so sweet and I settled into a rocking chair to tell her how much she is missed and how her Mommy and Daddy love her so much. I want to jump up and run out with her and take her back to them so that her sister can play with her and her Grandma can hug her so tight but I know that it's not allowed. She has to stay. Alex tells me that he will be there to make sure she is well taken care of and that she stays out of trouble as she gets older. I place her back in her cradle and go for a walk with Alex, he has so much to share with me. Catching frogs and chasing fireflies and even getting all muddy and eating candy till he could eat no more. He told me that Grandpa has been worried about me lately but that everything will be OK. We go to sit on a swing and with Alex on my lap we swing high as we can go and he giggles "Mommy catch a star...." They are so close it seems like I could but my heart doesn't want to hold the star It wants to keep holding on to my "Superstar" my "Little Sunshine" We swing for what seems like eternity and finally it is time for me to go. As we walk back to the door I scoop Alex into my arms and smell his sweet hair and rub his soft skin. Sweet perfection..... "I love you Mommy.....Goodni
ght." I love you too my precious son until I hold you again you are cradled in my heart.

Visited Friday, September 17, 2004 at 02:38

Cindy | hot_pink_pixie_dust@msn.com

With tears in my eyes, and my legs and hands shaking I appoarch this Big Golden Door. When I get to the door, I wonder if I can actually go in. So afaird to face the tears and pain that I have hiden away. Knowing now that the tears I have hidden away from the very beginning are ok and aloud, but now I am so afarid. Should I countuie? Should I leave? O I miss my babies so much. As I turn tward the door, without having to touch it, the big doors slowly opens. To my suprise it my Nanny and Papa. They tell me as they gently take my hands. "We can show you the way. As we walk into this bright and beautiful room, my hands stop shaking and no longer am I afarid. I see so many angels, babies, children, adults. Before I can even ask they lead me to a rocking chair. They tell me to take a seat that there are some who have been waiting for me. As I gaze apoun this wonderful place I see a little girl with such pretty long following red hair. Her eyes meet mine, and she begins running over to me and jumps on my lap. For the first time I hear "Mommy" O how have I longed for that smiple word. She ask me how her big sister is doing and that she watches over her, daddy and me everyday. She tells me that its ok for me to cry. And when I am ready not to worry for that she will be there to wipe away my tears. I hug her and snuggle with her awhile and then she tells me to close my eyes that she has a special suprise for me. She leeps from my lap and with in seconds she tells me to open them again. She hands me Caden and tells me that she has been helping Nana and papa take care of borther. O my. How he looks just like his daddy. He is almost 10 months. O how they both have grown. As Zoie climbs back into my lap. She hugs me and tells me how much she has missed me, but not to worry when the time is right we will all be together again. Then some angels and come and tell me its there nap time. And once again my Nana and Papa take my hands and leads me to the big door. They tell me I must leave for now that all the little angels are tired and need to rest. As my grandparents hug me and I open my eyes, I am in back in my living room. It so quit, and then a single tear rolls down my face. I know now its ok to cry and I can feel a soft touch apoun my face and I think to my self. Its ok sweetie, mommy knows now. Go and take your nap. I will be ok now.

Visited Tuesday, September 7, 2004 at 21:10

Roxane Gill | flutterby@grandecom.net

I have decided to visit the Angel room again and as I get closer to the door I can hear the laughter that fills the room. It is such a wonderful sound and I can hardly wait to get inside. I pull the door open and it is again the most amazing sight one can see. The angels are everywhere playing and having such fun. I almost hate to walk in and disturb them. It's too late to turn back now I've been noticed by a very cute little girl with blond pig tails. Her name is Lexi and she sqeals with delight to let Alex know that I am back. Alex and his buddy Trey come running over to me and want to know if I brought any candy with me. Of couse I always have some in my purse so they dig in and make a mess of themselves. We decide to take a walk and talk about some things that I need Alex's help with and he tells me to relax that he has it all under control. He makes sure I know that Grandpa, Jonathan and Aaron are taking care of everything as we speak and I need to just trust my instincts. Alex wants to be pushed on a swing now and I am so happy to have the opportunity. I push as he swings and giggles and kicks his chubby little legs and even though tears begin to fall I do not regret visiting again. The time seems to pass way to fast and I realize that I must not stay too much longer. The Angels should be resting soon. Alex asked if I would read a book to the Angels tonight and I told him I would be honored. He told Jacob to go get "The Book" and I sat down to read " I Love You Forever" with tears flowing I finish the book and tuck in many of the angels and have one last snuggle with me Peanut before I turn to go. Alex called one last thing. "Mommy, I love you forever, I like you for always, as long as I'm here my Mommy you'll be!!! I love you Mommy" I love you too Alex, sweet dreams. I close the door softly as not to wake any of the sleeping angels and slowly I walk away until next time.

Visited Thursday, August 26, 2004 at 04:32

Tara | babyireland420@aol.com

My heart is beating so fast.this is my first time here.My pain is still so deep,if i enter will i leave?My heart opens the door,Im shaking.As the door opens I could feel the presance of all the angels big and small.I walk in blinded by the light,still unsure if I should enter.Its to late IM here already crying.As i search the room I see all the beautiful angels.Some look at me for a second and return to thier play.AS I walk around I feel the gently breeze at my feet,and the laughter of young children.I pause for a moment maybe I shouldnt be here,Ithink to myself unsure so much at that moment I feel a hand embracing mine.its Ralphie boy,come with me tara she has been waiting.As i walk with him my heart still beating my legs shakey,tears begin to fill my eyes for I know I cant stay.AHH,a gasp of relief fills my heart when I see her.She is so beautiful,oh my sweet little girl Ireland Rose,she looks into my eyes to young to speak,my tears are uncontrolubly,I sit in a beautiful wicker rocking chair holding her so tight kissing her over and over,Telling her how much I miss her.I want this time to be forever,I LOVE YOU my sweet angel she looks up at me with such content.I feel her peace within her heart.Ralphie boy hands me a pink baba,I begin to feed her I watch every moment as her little lips are sucking,I smile but still with tears.She starts to doze off as she always did but like always mommy interupts her,Its time for burping or youll get that gas that we both dont like as I gentky pick her up to put her over my shoulder her little face grazes mine,her soft little head snuggles in my neck just like before,oh what a perfect fit.she burps.Good girl, I say.She stars to doze off.No I want this forever,I look towards a light that is blinding you have to squint to see,PLEASE let me stay.I need her to survive.Just then a beautiful angel comes to me with her arms out,ITS time for her nap you know that mommy.I place her in a beautiful crib all white with flowers everywhere.Pleas
e let me stay,Ralphie boy takes my hand and tells me i am needed on earth for her sisters and her daddy.He walks me to the door.She is with you.He opens the door for me he knows I am to weak,you will be with her one day and you could always visit.The door shuts behind me and I weep here I am again on earth,not knowing how im gonna survive the ache and pain without her.I LOVE YOU IRELAND,

Visited Thursday, August 19, 2004 at 16:10

Laura | leeannsmom@sbcglobal.net

I open the door and close my eyes. When I open them I see my beautiful Leeann learning to crawl, her new angel friends helping her. I am still very hurt that its not me getting to help her cause I know I cant stay here long, just long enough for a short visit then I must go. She is still as beautiful as she was at nearly 5 months old, and she still has that same gorgeous smile she always gave me and the rest of us who loved her. I miss her so much and its only been 3 months since I got to hold her in my arms and kiss her goodnight for the last time. I cant stay long. Its still too hard, but I'll be back to visit the angel room again, when I can accept it better.

Visited Thursday, August 19, 2004 at 02:21

Andrea, Vanessa's mom | atait@rogers.com

As I walk into the Angel room I notice that it looks like a classroom, only made out of clouds. Then I see a little girl with brown eyes and long curly brown hair, it's Vanessa and she's sitting at a desk writing something and there is a boy and a girl sitting beside her at her table. She tells me her friends names are Jacob and Kayla and that they all just started kindergarten. She tells me not to worry because she is going to be really smart and go to school like her mom. Then the bell rings and all of the kids jump up and get ready to leave. Then I look at the door of the classroom and see BJ. He is holding her Carebears backpack and telling her it's time to go home. He looked at me and smiled as if to say, Andrea I told you I would always be there for her! Then they walked down the cloud hallway.

Visited Tuesday, August 17, 2004 at 21:57

Tina | sears426@adelphia.net

I pace in front of the door, trying to compose myself before I open it, my heart beats fast, and a tingling sensastions sweeps my skin. I decide it is time for me to go in, and push with all my might as the door gives with me.

The light that blinds me is like a light I have never seen before, it takes my breath away for a split second as I look around, seeing angels of many sizes, play their day away. I recognize so many but yet so many I have not met. Some stop to welcome, as others continue to play. I look to my left to find myself staring into the eyes of beautiful boy, one I once held so many months ago. Tears start to fill my eyes as he walks up closer to me, he tugs on my shirt and I bend down for our eyes to meet face to face. His eyes so blue, they still remind me of the deep blue waters. "TT" he whispers as his arms fling around me neck, "I am glad you came, You can see now that I dwell in peace, no more pain or dreary days" I just shake my head, as I hold him tightly, the emptiness in my heart starts fill.

He takes me by the hand, as he shows me many things, "This is how we blow you kisses" he says to me, as I watch in aww at the angels who blow there kisses down to their loved ones. We continue on, and butterflies start to fly around my head, more and more the closer we get, "You see you are right," Noah says to me, "Butterflies are a gift from the heavens as we send them to you"

He leads me to a corner, to a young lad I once knew, "Wesley" I whisper to him as he hugs me tightly, "Please let my dad, and sister know that I am fine, I watch over them each and everyday, My mom too! I am so tickled that Meghan is going to bring my nephew unto Earth, and what an honor it will be to share my name with him"

My time has come to leave as we walk back towards the door, I am greeted by so many lovely angels, a few I know. They brought me to a place to meet their families a place that we can share our special memories and in our imagination we brought ourselves a gift, this angel room is ours to share and too love.

I stop to talk to each one of them, and thank them for leading me to their family, as they have helped me through this nightmare that I live and that I hope that I have too return the same to them. I give Noah and Wesley my love and then walk through the door, all is cold and dark again, but instead of weeping, I remind myself, that I can visit them when ever I feel.

Visited Saturday, August 14, 2004 at 13:51

Angela | junerose2401@aol.com

I walk up to the big door and push with all my might. I open the door and have to stand back for a moment as my eye ajust to the light that is there. Walking in I see all the angels. The room is just as I see it in my dreams. Lots of different play areas and lots of books. In the back there is even a room full of cribs and beds.
I see a bunch of girls sitting and playing. I walk over to them. They are playing with their dollies and some are even cooking.
What are your names I ask them. Rose looks up at me and says, "Mommy the babies can't talk yet. But I will tell you their names. Pointing to each one she tells me their names. Alana, Sophie, Liberty Faith Nicole, Mommy she has such a pretty name. These are our new friends. They haven't been here very long. I sit and play with the girls for a while. Rose climbs up into my lap and I start singing the song I wrote for her in the tune of Twinkle Twinkle little star. All the little babies have fallen asleep so one by one I put them into a crib. After taking the last to a crib I come back out and look around. This is such a wonderful place.
Rose walks back up to me. "Mommy I wanted to let you know that baby brother will be okay. I watch over him every night. I promise not to let anything bad happen to him."
Tears well up into my eyes and I give her a great big hug. "Thank you my princess." "I love you."
I love you too mommy. she says as I walk out of the room.

Visited Saturday, August 14, 2004 at 06:18

Roxane Gill | flutterby@grandecom.net

As I come upon the door of this magnificent room I take a deep breath and get a bit nervous. I have never opened this door before and I am scared that once I go in I may never want to leave.

I have stepped into a room with so much life and love and joy and the angels are everywhere. There is one in particular that catches my eye, he's crying so I go over to see what's wrong. There are angels talking to this little one and I begin to understand why he is sad. He has just arrived and he misses his family already. The other angels explain to him that even though he no longer lives with his family he can be with them all the time and they show him how to send kisses on the wind and warm embrasses with the sun. The little angel stops crying and starts to tell the others about his wonderful family and how much he loves them.

I walked further into the room just staring in awe as a little hand touched my own. I looked down into the eyes of my own son, Alex, and he had the biggest smile. He said "Mommy, I knew you'd come, I just knew it! I told all my friends that you'd visit soon and I was right. I love you so much Mommy!" Alex pulled me to follow him and we went to find his buddy Trey because Alex said he'd never believe it unless he saw me himself. We found Trey playing in a sand box with his dumptruck and trying to keep a frog in his pocket. Trey came over and knew right away who I was and gave me the cutest little grin. He whispered into Alex's ear and they both began to laugh. They have a surprise for me but I have to shut my eyes first. We walked for a few minutes and the room grew quiet and I was told to open my eyes. What I saw in front of me was enough to make me cry. It is my oldest angels Jonathan and Aaron and they are now 11 years old. The two of them about tackled me and gave me the biggest hugs. We all sat around and talked for a long time but I have decided that I have to leave now. Saying good bye is hard but my boys know that I will return again soon.

As I walk to the door to exit I take one last look around at all the little angels just enjoying being kids. They play with toys and read books and help one another and it's such a beautiful thing. As I leave this room I look forward to my next visit and give all my boys hugs and kisses and a little snuggle until I visit again and I wave good bye as the door gently closes behind me.

Visited Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 01:30

susan

As I walk into the room I am in awe of the many babies playing together, so happy, and having so much fun.. As I look around the room, I spot my little Kylee! Look!! She's learned how to crawl!! And look at that smile on her face!! OH! I miss her soo much! I run over to her and scoop her up as she giggles at me. I walk over to the corner of the room where there's a fluffy rocking chair and sit down. I could just sit here for ever staring into Kylees eyes again. Her smile is so big! And just as sweet as I remember it to be.. Tears stream down my cheaks as I stare at my sweet Kylee realizing just how much I miss this time with her. She's starting to doze off, so comfy in mommies arms, so slowly I stand up and walk over to one of the empty cribs to lay her down. Standing by the crib I softly kiss the corner of her mouth, and whisper to her " I lovens you my sweetest baby and i missin yous forever". I gently lay her down in the crib and run to the door to leave as the tears become uncontrollable.

Visited Tuesday, August 10, 2004 at 01:52

Lydia

I open the big heavy door and the light from inside makes me blink a bit at first but my eyes soon adjust to its magnificence. Scanning the enormous room that seems neverending it's so large.. I see many children playing. I spot Jacob and he looks up and sees me and his whole face lights up into the most incredible smile.. he drops his toys and comes running over to see me.. running into my open arms.. he knocks me off balance and we fall back to the floor.. soft as a cloud. I just lay there for a minute with him and snuggle.. kissing his face over and over.

I pull out a package and hand it to Jacob after we've sat up. He tears into the package eager to see what's inside.. and finds a blue photo album with a footprint on the front that I bought especially for him. I tell him how I bought it thinking I would put all of his pictures in it but instead I have put pictures of his family in it.. in case he should ever miss us. He thumbs through the pages stopping to comment here or there. We spend time talking about what his brother and sisters are like now.. how much they've grown.

Jacob talks about his time in Heaven. He tells me how he gets to learn things in Heaven, and that he got to meet other family too like my Grama and Grampa who died before Jacob was born.. and even my other grandfather who died before I was even born.

I tell him how the kids liked the story Jacob Two Two and the Hooded Fang.. and how I read it to them in one lazy afternoon.. it was one of my favourite books growing up and now has special meaning. He says his favourite class in school is painting.. that it's so much fun to paint the sky for sunrise and sunset.

Then Jacob tells me about all the little friends he's made in Heaven. Mommy's friend Shannon and her baby Wyatt who's a bit bigger than Jacob, he says they're the best of friends and they like to chase frogs together. He said that he really thinks Sydney is a pretty girl, and Katelin and Shelby too, then he crinkles his nose up and whispers, "but they're GIRLS". I can't help but laugh. He tells me about his friend Aiden from Australia, and Jordan and Joshua and James too! Lots of J names just like his. He says that they talk a little differently but they're loads of fun to play with.

We talk about so many of his friends and I sing the song he loved so much while he was alive.. and also the song I wrote after he died and he gives me a big hug.. the biggest hug a 5 year old could ever muster. Ohh it feels so good. I start to cry a bit and he wipes away my tears and tells me, "It's okay mommy, I'll be with you in your heart until it's your turn to come here." I hug him as tight as I can and rub my hand over the back of his head feeling his soft hair again. I tell him it's time for me to go and I give him a big kiss and he gives me a kiss too.. we hug one more time before I turn and walk out that big wooden door to head home. It was a good visit in the angel room.

Visited Monday, August 9, 2004 at 22:38

Angela Black | Junerose2401@aol.com

I walk into the Angel Room. Wondering what all the angels could be up to now. It has been well over a year since visiting. I look around at all the beautiful angels playing. There is Joey sitting on what seams to be a throne. Acting like a king. Little Jacob playing beside him. Oh boy the smiles I see. Oh there is Kody playing with some balloons. I then see my little Rose. She is sitting playing dolls with little Hannah and Alex. I stand there watching them play for a while. Wiping the tears from my eyes I leave the room but put a string around my finger so I will remember to come back again soon.

Visited Monday, August 9, 2004 at 21:35

Mary Ann | mbrizzi@jhmi.edu

As I walk through the door, I momentarily close my eyes. I remember this wonderous place....I open my eyes, and see my beautiful Hannah sitting there playing with a doll. Her hair has grown dark, as have her eyes. I always knew she would be the one to look like her daddy. I am so taken aback, that I have to lean on the wall. I look around at all of these beautiful angels, and tears begin to flow as I realize just how many more angels are here since my last visit. I just decide to lean hear, and watch, and wait, for her to notice me. I hope she remembers her mommy.

Visited Friday, August 6, 2004 at 14:38

The Jester | takodas_mom@yahoo.com

Wow, it's been a long time since I've been here. A memory almost, and yet, a reality at the same time. I see Kody playing with all of his friends. They've been together over 3 years now and they're bigger. I see new friends now too and other mommy's and daddy's visiting here.

I wonder if Kody knows he's got a little sister now. I think he does. I think the little imp sneaks out of the angel room and plays with his favorite toy of days gone by in her toy box. At 2 am when I hear "BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP" of a phone dialing followed by "ME COOKIE MONSTER" I know it must be him. None of the other characters talk at that hour, just him. Kody always played cookie monster and I think he still does. I can go into his sisters room as she sleeps and hear the phone still dialing to Cookie Monster. She always has this smile in her sleep, like she's playing with her big brother in her dreams. I always stroke her hair back from her brow and tell her to have fun in the angel room but to remember she's only visiting and can't stay for long, but to tell her brother I love him dearly even still for me.

Visited Friday, August 6, 2004 at 02:52

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